Not posted for a while, but have a question...

[xnickyx]

Hey everyone, how are you all doing?
I haven't posted on here for a while, in fact, I wander if I have even posted in here at all.
So, I got thinking.


What are you supposed to do when you know that you should ask for help from God and others to well, not hurt yourself... but you don't actually want help because you like doing it?

 

[Everlasting33]

Well, what does hurting yourself accomplish? What is motivating these behaviors? Why does the concept of not cutting seem too unappealing?

 

[Tenkuh]

It is the same as if you were doing anything else you should not do yet you enjoyed doing it, and you know you should get help but you enjoy it. You should ask for help and try to overcome the demon in your life.

If you enjoyed stealing, do you think you should seek help despite the thrill?

If you enjoyed drugs, do you think you should seek help despite the high?

If you enjoyed hurting others (emotionally or physically), do you think you should try to overcome the joy you get by hurting others and seek help?

The answer to all of these is yes. Let's focus on the third one especially. It is good to seek help even if you enjoy hurting others. You are also a person, so it is good to seek help even if you enjoy cutting yourself. People cut for a deeper, emotional reason tied to their psychology. Cutting is just a band-aid for a bigger problem. Please seek the solution.

 

[xnickyx]

You both have very very good points! Thank you for replying to my posts.
I do have alot of emotional baggage, but I do also think I am becoming addicted to SH'ing ... what better time to not do it that now... before I do get addicted.

Thank you both of you, God bless †

 

[Solus Christus]

As a fellow self-harmer who is addicted, it is very hard to get out of that rut once you dig yourself into it. But the first step is accepting the fact that you ARE harming yourself. Think about the reasons why you do it, what your triggers are. Usually for me it's feeling unwanted, and/or worthless, but that's far from the truth. Don't let other people get you down, because it will only ruin your own happiness. You ARE loved, you ARE wanted, and you ARE worth something.

 

[dogs4thewin]

Well the fact is that we (or anyone else can not make you get help. Why do you not want to quit? How about writing a pro and con list for the benefits of stopping verse not. I think you will find it worth it.

 

[SplendidTree]

I agree that it is definitely good to get help. How are you doing?

 

[Luna1991]

I do this. A therapist I used to see called this 'throwing a personal pity party'. It's a little party of one where you enjoy wallowing in your own misery. It'd be funny if it weren't so painfully real to us, hey lol.

All I can suggest is asking God to change your heart and your attitude towards your SI. When I do this, I'm brutally honest with God - I tell him that I don't want to give it up, that I don't want to ask for help. But I ask him to change my heart so that I might see things his way, because I can't am weak and willful and cannot do it alone.

Look after yourself (((((((hug))))))))