Not Feeling Well

[DLX]

Today, I have been having a hard time. Yesterday we found out that one of my friends lost her sister. Her sister was murdered by her husband who later killed himself. So I have been feeling a little sad over that understandibly. But today, it has just been really hard. I have had a short fuse with the kids. Then I couldn't stop cleaning the house. I was on a rampage. I was SO rude to my husband and short with my daughters.

My Dr and I have slowly, over the past months have decreased my Risperidal until this week, we stopped it all together. It has been two days of going without. So I guess I am kind of wondering if this is because of the medication or not. I realize that I am a very sensitive person and I have been thinking about my friend's sister a lot. She had two little boys that woke up to police in the house and the site of their mother's body. It makes me so angry. I just hate that stuff happens like this. I know that God had nothing to do with it and I am not blaming Him. I have been trying to pray whenever I think about it instead of dwelling on it. It is such a yucky situation though.

Well, thanks for listening. I appreciate it. I will let you know how it goes.

Merry Christmas.
Lexi

 

[goldenviolet]

Lexi

... God bless you. your post made me think of something. my hubby and kids told me that i think i'm worse than i am. like if they get moody or grouchy, it's ok, i try to understand, and everyone else usually doesn't think twice about... but when i get moody or upset, i don't remember everyone does, instead i get upset at my being upset and become worse through my tension mounting over my own behavior.

maybe you guys could talk about it so you know that you are understood. it might help your frustration level .
i pray for you all the comfort your heart can hold.

 

[DLX]

Thank you. We did have a talk last night and I told my husband what was going on. He was still a little angry with me, but more understanding.

Lexi

 

[justafayes]

Today, I have been having a hard time. Yesterday we found out that one of my friends lost her sister. Her sister was murdered by her husband who later killed himself. So I have been feeling a little sad over that understandibly. But today, it has just been really hard. I have had a short fuse with the kids. Then I couldn't stop cleaning the house. I was on a rampage. I was SO rude to my husband and short with my daughters.

My Dr and I have slowly, over the past months have decreased my Risperidal until this week, we stopped it all together. It has been two days of going without. So I guess I am kind of wondering if this is because of the medication or not. I realize that I am a very sensitive person and I have been thinking about my friend's sister a lot. She had two little boys that woke up to police in the house and the site of their mother's body. It makes me so angry. I just hate that stuff happens like this. I know that God had nothing to do with it and I am not blaming Him. I have been trying to pray whenever I think about it instead of dwelling on it. It is such a yucky situation though.

Well, thanks for listening. I appreciate it. I will let you know how it goes.

Merry Christmas.
Lexi

Well bless your heart.. I will be praying.. Love in Jesus,, Faye

 

[DLX]

Well, I decided to start taking half a miligram again. I was just too irritable and I was having trouble sleeping. I was also having trouble with headaches, being shaky and having chills. I think it could have been withdrawl from the medication. I am going to call the Dr tomorrow and talk to her about it. We shall see what happens. Thank you for your prayers and support.

Lexi

 

[HollyHobbie]

Lexi ! I can imagine the greif your going through for your freind and her family as well. I also beleive that part of your deppression not only is the medicine change and with drawl but this tragedy !

It would me ! If that happened to someones family I cared about and still does I hate seeing people suffer in any way exspecially young innocent children.

I will pray for you, Your sister and her freinds children and family.

Love In Christ
Holly Hobbie
Laura

 

[vincejohn]

I am so sorry and saddened by this tragedy 2 parents. Care for the children with your friends their families. Smother them in love and kindness from God. Release your feelings to God , cry out to him loud. I pray for Holy Yeshua Messiah to send His healing spirit into all of you as you all are affected.
Regarding your private family life please dwell on these words
''to forgive each other in all things is to have Jesus truly inside of you'' love and tears from Vince Australia

 

[GreyWolf]

Lexi, Sweetie, I'm really sorry about how you've been feeling. Sometimes I've found that when I'm struggling and bad things happen it magnifies everything and makes it so much worse. I'm sorry for this terrible tragedy that has happened. I hope the medicine change goes well and if you want to talk further, feel free to e-mail me. I have prayed for you and will continue to.
GW

 

[DLX]

I talked to the nurse and told him what had happened. He didn't think that it sounded right, so he said to try going off the medication again and see what happens. Well, I have been off for 3 days now and I am feeling well. But I can't sleep. My Dr isn't in until tomorrow. I am wondering what I should do. Maybe I should just leave it. Maybe I should start taking it again. Who knows! My husband is going back to work tomorrow though, so I could really use your prayers while I take care of the girls. Hopefully I can get some sleep.

Lexi