Not dealing so well....

[beetlequeendiva]

The police are coming to see me again tomorrow - we have to go out to the place where it happened and they are going to take some of my clothes away. They are putting me in touch with a support group as well. They are helping me but I feel like I'm going to break down but I don't want to because everyone is expecting it. Basically what happened with this guy is he used his fingers to simulate sex, luckily I got away before it got further than that but I still feel used. Right now I'm feeling like I'm always the victim, it's like I walk around with a sign saying men, feel free to abuse me as you wish. I'm just tired and not coping so well right now. Please pray for me. I am getting to the stage of self-injury and I don't want to go down that road again.

 

[goldenviolet]

God is with you !!!
i just want to give you a big hug. you are in my prayers, love dee

 

[Cat59]

What can I say- just praying that the Lord will strengthen you to get through this ordeal you are facing.

Cat

 

[soyness]

What I can say is that your reaction and feelings of fear are normal. I'm sorry u have to go through this ordeal. In my prayers.

 

[BlackRain]

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Not a victim.
A survivor.

 

[chilibowl]

I can't pretend to know how volating and degrading being taken advantage of like that must feel... But I can tell you keeping all of that strong emotion in will only comeout in ways you don't want, so please please let it go.. it's ok to break down and feel crummy that's a gift from the father.. our greifing is a physical vent for our emotional tourment.. and when we don't vent pressure like this pain your hanging on to, just like anything else we can pop... I don't know if you've ever learned to greive properly but if you haven't and you hurt your self while greiving, then my sister please get someone to help you greive... If you ever want to get over this then you have to let the pain out.

Godbless

 

[Tazi]

Dear Beelte Queen, I think you should talk to a counsellor or therapist, to help you deal with the feelings. naturally you feel grief and shock, God will deal the person who hurt you, have no doubt about that. you'll feel better with time, for now, do your best to make sure no one else gets hurt by this terrible man, helping others will help you get over the pain. I have been hurt too and it doesnt mean you have a sign on you. I will Pray for your pain to heal fast and for you to be strong and know you're not alone, other people have got over it and you can too. Have hope and take it one day at a time. get support from your mum and family and a counsellor.
hugs, and love,
pam