and I'm really struggling! I feel like I'm going to die!!! I'm new to this forum, but have been lurking all morning. Many of you seem so wonderful and supportive and would be a great support tool!!!
I am overcoming many addictions in my life. It first started with abusing alchol as a teenager and co-ed, then went to pot. I found Christ when I was 25, but then I had back surgery and also found pain pills. I've been an off and on pill popper for 8 years now. Gosh, I can't believe it's been that long. Vicodin was my drug of choice, well, actually percocet was, but the docs wouldn't give me that. Just vic. But then I could get it from my MIL. I am also a shopaholic and have created LOTS of cc debt. Ihave also started DA program (debtors anonymous)! Basicall I want to stop all addictive behaviors!! I want to stop the madness. I took my last vic on Satruday night. I went to a Martini party. I didn't drink, but was high on vic. I told myself enough is enough. So I haven't taken any since. I did fine on Sunday and Monday, nowithdrawal symptoms at all. Yesterday I had urges, but didn't take any. Today I am dying!!! I am sick to my stomach, I'm clenching my teeth, my skin itches all over! Even my HAIR itches!! I'm having some bowel problems, I keep dropping things. I can't concentrate. I find myself eating and eating, but then I get sick to my stomach. Please tell me these are withdrawal symptoms that will go away soon! I took all the vic and hid it up high where it's a pain to get down. I did the same with my credit cards. No more shopping. I need to find out what my empty feeling inside is where I can stop this.
It's hard. I feel if I go and take a vicodin and head to the mall, life will be smooth again. But I now it will be worse! Please help me. Any suggestions! Thanks!
I am overcoming many addictions in my life. It first started with abusing alchol as a teenager and co-ed, then went to pot. I found Christ when I was 25, but then I had back surgery and also found pain pills. I've been an off and on pill popper for 8 years now. Gosh, I can't believe it's been that long. Vicodin was my drug of choice, well, actually percocet was, but the docs wouldn't give me that. Just vic. But then I could get it from my MIL. I am also a shopaholic and have created LOTS of cc debt. Ihave also started DA program (debtors anonymous)! Basicall I want to stop all addictive behaviors!! I want to stop the madness. I took my last vic on Satruday night. I went to a Martini party. I didn't drink, but was high on vic. I told myself enough is enough. So I haven't taken any since. I did fine on Sunday and Monday, nowithdrawal symptoms at all. Yesterday I had urges, but didn't take any. Today I am dying!!! I am sick to my stomach, I'm clenching my teeth, my skin itches all over! Even my HAIR itches!! I'm having some bowel problems, I keep dropping things. I can't concentrate. I find myself eating and eating, but then I get sick to my stomach. Please tell me these are withdrawal symptoms that will go away soon! I took all the vic and hid it up high where it's a pain to get down. I did the same with my credit cards. No more shopping. I need to find out what my empty feeling inside is where I can stop this.
It's hard. I feel if I go and take a vicodin and head to the mall, life will be smooth again. But I now it will be worse! Please help me. Any suggestions! Thanks!
A few physical withdrawals and of course the mental ones, but I feel a ton better! I really turned to the Lord last night. Got down on my knees and prayed. Prayed for forgiveness and for help! I literally could feel Jesus hugging me. It was amazing! I also called NA and spoke to someone. It was also nice to talk to someone who has been there. I am going to go to meetings starting on Monday! Thanks so much for helping me in my recovery!
