New Resolution

[ladyt28]

Two things happened that helped me think: a good friend said "we can't protect our kids from themselves all the time...as much as we would want to" and the sermon last Sunday touched on the joy from a relationship with our living God. The first thing said is helping me to realize I have to forgive myself for not being a superpower - I could not stop him, my son overdosed and I could not have stopped him. Now the second thing, I know I am a long way from joy but I CAN try to gain the peace our Lord offers. This has become my resolution for myself - whether it takes me a year or even more.

These thoughts just apply to me - I do not want anyone to feel that the following 'judges' them in any way, shape or form: If I don't move past this terrible pain, then the lasting memory I'm left with is Josh's death and not the life he had, not the life he shared with me. He wasn't just that final moment - he was a LOT more. While it hurts to know he is gone, God did give me the gift of knowing him at all. Josh's life was a precious gift to me...and that is what I need to remember. I want thoughts of Josh to make me smile again - he brought me such joy and happiness, I'm tired of being robbed of that!

 

[goldenviolet]

bless your heart. when i lost my daddy to suicide, i very much felt the same way. i scap booked to him. everything from pictures, to candy wrappers and poetry. it helped me do exactly what i needed to do; mourn, remember, and process it all. there is free memorial sites too. xo love dee

 

[LonesomeTexan]

Don't think of it in terms of being robbed of the happiness he could have brought into your life. When enough times goes by, his memory will bring a smile to your face again. I don't know why it hurts so much to see our loved ones pass on, even when we know they are in a much better place. It's just a part of life. I suppose if there weren't times of grief/pain/sadness, heaven wouldn't be nearly as beautiful as it is. A place with only happy tears. We really do have something beautiful to look foward to. Someday hun.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

You are in my prayers Ladyt... May God hold you close and give you the comfort and peace you need. My pm is always open to you.