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[bander64]

Hello,
I'm a new member here on Christian Forums. I don't really know whether I'm just looking for answers, or a place to let me air out my life. My life right now is spiraling out of control and I'm on the verge of a breakdown.
I'm 49, a born again Christian, and I have 2 children, ages 14 and 11. My 11 year old son is very mildly special needs, but he does require alot of attention, such as doctor visits, medications, and constant communication between myself and the school. My childrens mother and I divorced 6 years ago and I am the primary caregiver.
Really, I feel my life started to spiral out of control over 6 years ago. That year, I found out that my wife of 15 years was having an affair. We divorced, I lost my job, and had to declare Chapter 7 Bankruptcty, all within 6 months. Financially, I'm still reeling from that after 6 years, although I do have a pretty good job again.
I got re-married 4 years ago and I found out last summer that my second wife was having an affair. Right now, she and I are separated and she has moved out. I am now having to take care of my kids mostly by myself and I am working insane hours at my job. To top it off, an old medical condition from years ago has reared its ugly head again and sometimes leaves me almost incapacitated. It's all can do to get up out of bed to face the day. Sometimes I just want to lay there and never get up. Feels like I'm all alone all the time. Most of my old friends from my old church pretty much abandoned me after I divorced my first wife. I know I'm showing signs of severe depression. I always felt I could get through my problems on my own. I'm not one to ask for help. But lately my problems in life have been overwhelming to me. I don't see an end to them and I don't feel I can go on much longer.
Thank you for reading this.

 

[Jeshu]

Hi and welcome to C.F.


The best advice I can give you is stick close to Jesus and let His love carry you through the dark times - and are you on medications? Sometimes we need help to get through the darkness of depression and it sounds like you could use some help.

Please understand that faith in Christ's love brings us hope, and hope will not disappoint us.

Pour all your love on God, your kids and don't forget yourself. Take good care of you in particularly because other lives depend on you getting through this dark phase.

Praying that you find the help you need.

 

[liangys]

Let God be the Shepherd that leads you through the valley of the shadow of death. Cling on to his rod and staff for comfort. When you are lonely and in the pits of despair, call out to Him and He will answer you. God loves you deeply enough to give you reason to live through a new day. For each day, focus on the goodness of God, thanking him for each new morning, for His mercies are new every morning.

It may be impossible for me to really understand the depths of your despair. But God knows. God understands. And most importantly, God loves.

 

[Criada]

You have a lot to deal with, and it sounds as though you have very little support!
God is there, and he won't let you down, but he works through people as well as sovereignty.
Please see your doctor for a start, medication and/ or therapy will probably help you to feel more able to cope.
And don't be afraid to ask for help - family, friends, parents of classmates, anyone who can give you a break and dome time to catch your breath. It's tough to ask sometimes, but people are usually glad to help.

And please come here to vent whenever you need to - there are a lot of us here who know what depression feels like, and who will support and pray for you.

Hang in there, brother