New here. -poke-

[sarakerosene]

I think I might be in this forum a little bit, so I thought I'd introduce myself. I'm not entirely why I joined this christian forum. I hope I'm welcome. Seeing that I have no idea what to believe. I think I believe in God... but I'm not going into that right now.

My name is Sara.

I am seventeen.

I developed bulimic behaviors at age twelve. Recently it's been getting much worse. Purging multiple times a day. Though in the past week, I haven't done it but four or five times.

I have never been professionally diagnosed, meaning it's not in my charts, but I have a therapist and case manager who know about my disordered behavior.

Anyway, I thought I'd say hello.

 

[Soulwings]

Hi there and welcome to this board. You don't have to know for sure if you believe in God to be a member of CF... although I do hope that you believe in Him and seek out His ways, because He provides unending support!! Anyway, enough of the sermon. I'm here if you ever want to talk about that.

I'm April, and I've been dxed with EDNOS-R. So I know what it's like to have an ED (obviously) although I've not struggled with BN (although I have had urges to purge, haven't given in [yet]). I'm glad that you have a T and a CM - why haven't you ever been officially dxed?

Do you want to get better?

Sorry for all of the questions and all... hopefully it's not coming across as too pushy, because I certainly don't want it to!

You are most definitely welcome, though. There is so much support available on this board - it's a bit quiet right now, not sure why, but I'm very glad that you're here. Feel free to PM me anytime you want to talk. I'd be glad to chat about anything and everything, not necessarily related to EDs or God. Hehe.

Try to take care of you. Prayers will be with you, if that means anything to you.

 

[sarakerosene]

Well. I have no clue why I haven't been officially diagnosed. It's pretty dangerous for it not to be in my charts too. See, my psychiatrist almost prescribed Wellbutrin for me, and when you purge, that drug can cause seizures. So if my case manager wouldn't've said something, I could be at a big risk. (I wasn't saying anything... Sometimes I don't care to get better.)

If it was in my charts, he could've seen himself that I couldn't take Wellbutrin.

Sorry if that's confusing.

I want to get better. But I want to lose weight. Catch-twenty-two. (Why can't you post numbers?!?). I'm not losing much though, and I've yet to lose enough to make me feel safe.

Thanks for the prayers. Yes, I ask my friend who is Christian to pray for me. Because I don't really pray for myself. So... yeah.

Thanks for replying!

 

[Soulwings]

You're welcome.

What you said makes perfect sense. And I completely understand the wanting to get better yet wanting to lose weight. (The number filter is on so it catches some numbers; members can be triggered by weights/BMI/calories/etc.)

What do you mean when you say "I've yet to lose enough to make me feel safe"? I hope that you know (or can appreciate) the fact that you will never - NEVER - lose "enough."

 

[sarakerosene]

I just haven't lost enough weight. If I was 98 pounds and they wanted me in IP, I could deal with that.

YAY SCHOOL is coming!