New Here, need advice!

[Mayflower1]

Hi,
I am Lily00, and this is my first forum here so I am still getting use to this. I was diagnosed with depression and OCD. It is so hard when bad things pop in my head all of the time. I am dealing with my Mom's cancer and memories of sexual molestation but these thoughts and cutting... they are just joy stealers that I want to quit. I feel hypocritical a lot, for a christian shouldn't think these things, but I know God still loves me and it is helping me get through each day. He is the reason my life's worth living. It a tough time but I believe God has a plan for me, and I am taking it one step at a time through Him. I am seeing a therapist and I am going to God in prayers. If anybody is going through this good vs. evil struggle in their mind, I would really like to talk and listen. I have been on the depression forums everyday but I just need to start seeing positive threads too. This is what the therapist says, this is what God says. I don't want to live in consistent sadness. Best Wishes. Lily00

 

[missionary1]

Hi,
I am Lilly00, and this is my first forum here so I am still getting use to this. I was diagnosed with depression and OCD. It is so hard when bad things pop in my head all of the time. I am dealing with my Mom's cancer and memories of sexual molestation but these thoughts and cutting... they are just joy stealers that I want to quit. I feel hypocritical a lot, for a christian shouldn't think these things, but I know God still loves me and it is helping me get through each day. He is the reason my life's worth living. It a tough time but I believe
God has a plan for me, and I am taking it one step at a time through Him. I am seeing a therapist and I am going to God in prayers. If anybody is going through this good vs. evil struggle in their mind, I would really like to talk and listen. I have been on the depression forums everyday but I just need to start seeing positive threads too. This is what the therapist says, this is what God says. I don't want to live in consistent sadness. Best Wishes. Lily00

Hello Lilly00...

This life can be so very devastating at times and yet as Christians we have hope in our Savior and Father in heaven. This life is temporary and it is only the beginning. We have much to look forward to in the next life.

For now we must deal with the struggles and the heartache that come from living in an imperfect world.

I was molested as a child for a period of time and I understand some of what you are experiencing.

When I was willing to forgive those who hurt me I was set free and the pain and agony left me.

There is hope for you as I am a living example of what God can do if we are willing to obey His Commands...

I lead a positive, productive life and I am thankful for what I experienced. I can now reach out to others such as you to tell you that there is more than "Hope", there is healing and it is not far off for you...

 

[cgmom]

Hi, there. I'm pretty new here too and I really like it.

I have struggled with depression for most of my life. I haven't experienced OCD but I do have another disorder where my thoughts can be pretty consuming.

Please don't feel ashamed because you have depressing thoughts and the other issues. You have had very real pain in your life and you are also hurting over your mother's illness. I was also abused as a child and I recently lost my mother and sister so I have constant good vs. evil thoughts and struggles.

You mentioned cutting? Are you referring to self-harm?

Feel free to PM me anytime. Take care.

 

[Mayflower1]

I hope I am doing this right! I just want to thank you for what you said. It is very hard right now, but I know that this life is temporary and whatever I am going through now will soon disappear... I had thought of suicide about a week back, but then I realized that I didn't want to meet God in that way. I have so much to share with people and so much to learn yet. These thoughts are hard to deal with but with God all things are possible. Hopefully, with therapy and the help of my family and friends, I will feel like I have worth again one of these days. Thanks again, and may God bless you. Please tell me if I am doing this right so I can respond to others! Lily00

Hello Lilly00...

This life can be so very devastating at times and yet as Christians we have hope in our Savior and Father in heaven. This life is temporary and it is only the beginning. We have much to look forward to in the next life.

For now we must deal with the struggles and the heartache that come from living in an imperfect world.

I was molested as a child for a period of time and I understand some of what you are experiencing.

When I was willing to forgive those who hurt me I was set free and the pain and agony left me.

There is hope for you as I am a living example of what God can do if we are willing to obey His Commands...

I lead a positive, productive life and I am thankful for what I experienced. I can now reach out to others such as you to tell you that there is more than "Hope", there is healing and it is not far off for you...

 

[missionary1]

I hope I am doing this right! I just want to thank you for what you said. It is very hard right now, but I know that this life is temporary and whatever I am going through now will soon disappear... I had thought of suicide about a week back, but then I realized that I didn't want to meet God in that way. I have so much to share with people and so much to learn yet. These thoughts are hard to deal with but with God all things are possible. Hopefully, with therapy and the help of my family and friends, I will feel like I have worth again one of these days. Thanks again, and may God bless you. Please tell me if I am doing this right so I can respond to others! Lily00

You did it correctly lily00...

You can write your post at the top or the bottom as I have.

You are going to get through this as I have and there are many here who will give you support as you go through the necessary process of healing.

Remember that we are here for you!

God bless you

 

[lostndown]

hon,
i am really sorry u had to go thru that. *hug* i am michelle. i am praying hard 4 you, k???? i went thru cutting, and depression too. i am still going thru depression. it's hard, but God will heal u, lily.

love in Christ,
Mchelle

 

[ArmouredSaint]

lily,sometimes the best thing is to not visit depression forums when you're at the peak of it. I don't come in here when I'm feeling my worse because everything will be percieved wrong. I hang out elsewhere and get some spiritual healing. Prayer has been an unreal drug. So right now,I'll do what I do best for people. Pray for you. Take Care.

 

[Mayflower1]

Thank you. I have found this pretty tough. This is my second day not to cut myself and though I am still having the thoughts and urges, I feel that this is for the best. I want to find peace with myself and God. I didn't realize until the therapy exercise yesterday how much I have still against what my dad did to me... how much I am still mad at myself for not speaking up when I was four. I am just taking it one day at a time. I want to forgive him, I want to move on and not feel so trapped and alone all of the time. I trust God and what He is doing in my life right now... I just am so tired of doing this sin against God... I hate myself so much sometimes for it... I know that the chemical imbalance thing has something to do with it, but sadly, the thoughts and self harm are still sin. Right? Thanks a lot. This is much different then the other forums. Lily00

You did it correctly lily00...

You can write your post at the top or the bottom as I have.

You are going to get through this as I have and there are many here who will give you support as you go through the necessary process of healing.

Remember that we are here for you!

God bless you

 

[missionary1]

Thank you. I have found this pretty tough. This is my second day not to cut myself and though I am still having the thoughts and urges, I feel that this is for the best. I want to find peace with myself and God. I didn't realize until the therapy exercise yesterday how much I have still against what my dad did to me... how much I am still mad at myself for not speaking up when I was four. I am just taking it one day at a time. I want to forgive him, I want to move on and not feel so trapped and alone all of the time. I trust God and what He is doing in my life right now... I just am so tired of doing this sin against God... I hate myself so much sometimes for it... I know that the chemical imbalance thing has something to do with it, but sadly, the thoughts and self harm are still sin. Right? Thanks a lot. This is much different then the other forums. Lily00

Thank you for sharing lily00,

We all fall of the Glory of God and it is important for us to learn from each other and help each other...

Please read my new post on Depession. It will give you more insight into this subject...

God bless you and don't give up! You have friends here and we want to help you!

 

[missionary1]

Thank you. I have found this pretty tough. This is my second day not to cut myself and though I am still having the thoughts and urges, I feel that this is for the best. I want to find peace with myself and God. I didn't realize until the therapy exercise yesterday how much I have still against what my dad did to me... how much I am still mad at myself for not speaking up when I was four. I am just taking it one day at a time. I want to forgive him, I want to move on and not feel so trapped and alone all of the time. I trust God and what He is doing in my life right now... I just am so tired of doing this sin against God... I hate myself so much sometimes for it... I know that the chemical imbalance thing has something to do with it, but sadly, the thoughts and self harm are still sin. Right? Thanks a lot. This is much different then the other forums. Lily00

I want to tell you lily00 that God is going to heal you!

Forgiveness is important and you are going to learn how to do it! It is not going to be an easy process for you but in the end you will see His Glory!

 

[Mayflower1]

Thanks... Does it ever go away or do you have to constantly fight it? OCD and depression are less then good things to deal with. It is hard, God is there though. Lily00

hon,
i am really sorry u had to go thru that. *hug* i am michelle. i am praying hard 4 you, k???? i went thru cutting, and depression too. i am still going thru depression. it's hard, but God will heal u, lily.

love in Christ,
Mchelle

 

[Mayflower1]

I can tell that this is going to take awhile! Lily00

I want to tell you lily00 that God is going to heal you!

Forgiveness is important and you are going to learn how to do it! It is not going to be an easy process for you but in the end you will see His Glory!

 

[Mayflower1]

Thanks. I'll try and remember that. Lily00

lily,sometimes the best thing is to not visit depression forums when you're at the peak of it. I don't come in here when I'm feeling my worse because everything will be percieved wrong. I hang out elsewhere and get some spiritual healing. Prayer has been an unreal drug. So right now,I'll do what I do best for people. Pray for you. Take Care.

 

[missionary1]

I can tell that this is going to take awhile! Lily00

Lily00, it will only take as long as you are willing to follow what Jesus says is important...

Please read both Part I and Part II about Depression...

 

[Mayflower1]

Thanks for your support! I have accomplished my goal of three days without cutting by the grace of God. I am hoping to make a new goal tommorow but I want to test and see what this non-goal day does for me today. Pray for me, I need it! Lily00

 

[missionary1]

Thanks for your support! I have accomplished my goal of three days without cutting by the grace of God. I am hoping to make a new goal tommorow but I want to test and see what this non-goal day does for me today. Pray for me, I need it! Lily00

Wonderful lily00...We are with you and may God continue to bless you!

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*hug*

I know a lot of self-injurers and survivors of some form of sexual molestation/rape/assault.

God loves you and he's *on* your side. Your self injury is a struggle, a symptom of the damage you've endured. It doesn't make you less in his eyes. I don't think he is disappointed in you when you do it. I think that he looks forward to the day you can leave it all behind you.
Self-injury doesn't make you less of a person or less of a Christian. You can shine just as brightly whether your cut or not. I think that the enemy lieks to use this to discourage you and drive a wedge between you and God by making you feel too ashamed to come into his presence. This is a lie.
You are my sister and I love you dearly. How much more precious are you to the one who made you?

 

[Mayflower1]

Lily00, it will only take as long as you are willing to follow what Jesus says is important...

Please read both Part I and Part II about Depression...

I want to obey God. I just need to find out what He wants me to do about this... What subtitle is that under? Someone else told me about it but I haven't found it yet. I didn't even know there was a second page of replies to this or I would have answered you sooner! Thanks. Lily00
p.s. Is there any way to get notified from my email when a message comes to me? They have it on the other site, but I don't know if they have it here. Thnks.

 

[Mayflower1]

*hug*

I know a lot of self-injurers and survivors of some form of sexual molestation/rape/assault.

God loves you and he's *on* your side. Your self injury is a struggle, a symptom of the damage you've endured. It doesn't make you less in his eyes. I don't think he is disappointed in you when you do it. I think that he looks forward to the day you can leave it all behind you.
Self-injury doesn't make you less of a person or less of a Christian. You can shine just as brightly whether your cut or not. I think that the enemy lieks to use this to discourage you and drive a wedge between you and God by making you feel too ashamed to come into his presence. This is a lie.
You are my sister and I love you dearly. How much more precious are you to the one who made you?

Thanks. Tears of happiness! I am taking it one day at a time and by the grace and almighty power of God I will defeat this. I am having a hard time forgiving my dad though for what he did... A christian supposed to have forgiveness in their heart and I am just filled with anger right now... I need to find steps that I may forgive him. The Bible is a great guide. Please pray that I find a way to find forgiveness and peace again... It really does contribute to self-injury I believe, it just makes me feel much like a hypocrite... Prayer is strong though and so is the Holy Spirit... My hope is strong and I want to defeat this so much so I can have better fellowship with God again. Thanks, Lily00

 

[missionary1]

I want to obey God. I just need to find out what He wants me to do about this... What subtitle is that under? Someone else told me about it but I haven't found it yet. I didn't even know there was a second page of replies to this or I would have answered you sooner! Thanks. Lily00
p.s. Is there any way to get notified from my email when a message comes to me? They have it on the other site, but I don't know if they have it here. Thnks.

Good Morning lily00,

My understanding is that you can go to User CP, it is the the far right top button in blue. Click on it and it will take you to your personal area. You will be able to watch your posts there. You will need to "reload" or "refresh" in order to see any new additions.

My understanding is also that we no longer have the option for to receive email notices of answered posts...

Please ask the Staff if this information is correct?

God bless you...