i like what my bible college teacher says,
"the answer to a thousand questions is... 'be led'.."
though you need to realise that you are fresh out of the world, just born again, and like a new born baby is able to lay in the hands of its parents, thats kinda how you are right now. im not trying insult you but, your small, your weak, your ignorant and there is alot of growing that you need to begin to do.
you need to take a season to not try to minister to others very much, but focus on receiving as much ministry as you can, you have alot to learn.
the devil loves to come and steal away the new life, becuase new born christians dont know how to do much for themselves yet. and they are rather helpless.
becuase you dont know the word yet, you dont know how to pray yet, you dont know how to understand and deal with diffrent issues that only apply to christian.
spend as much time in the bible, in prayer and in Godly books as you can, and please...find a man or woman of God in your life that is greater than yourself, and commit maybe a year or two to that person, spend as much time with them as you can, so you can receive from them.
maybe its a bible college teacher, or a sunday school teacher or a pastor.
your in a critical time, begin to grow and soak up all of God that you can, becuase like the bible portrays in revelations, the devils waits eagerly for oppurtunities to steal away the life of new born christians, if the devil can, he would be most eager to get you while your still young.
like a child cant feed or take care of itself, this is the season to let people minister to you, not to try and minister to others very much, you simply arent ready yet.
secular books may be innocent and nice, but dont waste alot of time with things that arent going to do anything for you.
i dont mean to insult your intelligence in anyway, i have great confidence in you, but you need to know where you are what your dealing with, you need to be ready, start preparing for whats ahead, becuase the devil wants you back.
Lee