Needs to talk

[Marie27]

I am new here and in need of someone to talk to.

I am not sure what to do. I think maybe I need to be put somewhere but not sure where. I am depressed all the time and very suicidal at other times. I cry a lot. Lately I don't feel like i can function at all. When I am around people I black out sometimes. I'll just stare off into space and like go somewhere but no where at the same time. I am not even sure what happens to me. Its like i'm not there but I am. People trying to talk at me and stuff and I am not even aware of their being there. I feel so lost. I haven't tried to get any help for the way I feel. I am not working. I have no insurance and no money. I don't have anyone to talk to.

I started to hurt myself today. But I feel so scared. I want to die but I also want to live sort of. But mostly I just want to stop feeling like this. I don't know what to do.

 

[goldenviolet]

Marie27 hi sweetheart! God bless you!

it's normal for us having problems to dissociate... that means what you discribed. we detatch ourself from feeling and thinking by going into ourself and the pain we feel. it's a symptom of stress for some people... and for others it's a safety tool to remove yourself from something uncomfortable. you aren't alone. you have a loving Father and now us

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i see you live in the united states! this means you can go to the county crisis free. it's lovely... you can go talk to people who understand, and can help you find plans in your area for support, and anything else you need. all you need to do is call your local crisis center. front of any phone book. tell them you are in mental health crisis and need someone to help you figuar it out. sound like a plan?

Dear Father, please bless our little sister with direction and fellowship, and comfort. Father help her to know that even in the mist of hurt and overwelming pain, that you are right there. help her to see that she is your blessed daughter and so very special. in Jesus' name, amen.

sweetheart, whatever you have been through and whatever pain and confusion you have known growing up is comming to an end. as children we are at the mercy of those circumstances and people in our lives. but as we mature we can break away from our exsperiances. trauma and pain can resurface when we are under stress, but it is also unlearned and God places things accross our paths to lead us into healling and peace.

i'm so glad you have come here to share your grief with us. you just let us know what we can encourage you and update us so we can problem solve and fellowship and love you. *warmfuzzies*, love dee

 

[BOJAX]

I am new here and in need of someone to talk to.

I am not sure what to do. I think maybe I need to be put somewhere but not sure where. I am depressed all the time and very suicidal at other times. I cry a lot. Lately I don't feel like i can function at all. When I am around people I black out sometimes. I'll just stare off into space and like go somewhere but no where at the same time. I am not even sure what happens to me. Its like i'm not there but I am. People trying to talk at me and stuff and I am not even aware of their being there. I feel so lost. I haven't tried to get any help for the way I feel. I am not working. I have no insurance and no money. I don't have anyone to talk to.

I started to hurt myself today. But I feel so scared. I want to die but I also want to live sort of. But mostly I just want to stop feeling like this. I don't know what to do.

Of course you have someone to talk to! No he is not on Earth. No you won't meet him on the street on here in the forum. No he will not love you and listen to you one day and the completely ignore you the next. No he will never forsake you. No he will never help you and listen to you only expecting you to reciprocate. No he is no sinner like all of us but he is the Son of the living God Jesus.

I know what depression is like and my brief stint with self harm gave me enough understanding of people who do this thing. I have been alone and I still am. However, Glory be to God that when you are at your wits end, you have someone who's always listening and is always there.

Take all your fears and just recite them out loud, all of them. Every thought that makes you depressed (as that is all depression is but a series of negative thoughts contrary to the Word of God) and just say, 'Lord, into your hands I commend my fears.' That worked for me many times.

Just recently I have been a victim and injured because of my past. I was reminded of how blind I was and how aful I was back then (before I came to know Christ). This led to depression which I am just now coming out of. Also what caused it was a sense of no purpose in life. I just started reading the popular book 'The Purpose Driven Life'. What got to me was the thought that Satan put into my head (as he is the King of lies) that I had no purpose in life because of my situation. I thought I will not be a great man of God because of my circumstances and my surroundings. God forbid! God can use you in your depressed state like you wouldn't believe. He can turn all that filth that Satan filled your head with and make it into pure refined gold. You can be a blessing to others by relating to them since you went through a similar experience and that will bring you fulfillment that no one person that you seek can bring.

Remember, if you are looking to fill the missing piece in your life don't depend on people to fill it. God will bring someone into your life to help you but it is the power of God working through that person, nothing more. he does not want you to be alone (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12).

Just remember, as hard as it may be to believe, believe me I KNOW how hard it is to accept, God DOES have a plan and purpose for your life. You are only here on Earth temporarily. Don't waste time listening to Satan's lies. You gotta boogie Your treasure waits in heaven no here on Earth. Don't allow the enemy to change your name in Chrsit. Don't believe what others say or think about you. Your name is Saint (or disciple child of God whichever you prefer). You will touch many lives and be a living testimony as well as help others become a living testimony.

If you need someone to talk to about a specific thing that is bothering you, I'm here as well as countless other loving members here in the forums. All you gotta do is ask.

Remember, we are all the gears, nuts, bolts, of God's machine. So...


Stay in gear

 

[Mayflower1]

I am new here and in need of someone to talk to.

I am not sure what to do. I think maybe I need to be put somewhere but not sure where. I am depressed all the time and very suicidal at other times. I cry a lot. Lately I don't feel like i can function at all. When I am around people I black out sometimes. I'll just stare off into space and like go somewhere but no where at the same time. I am not even sure what happens to me. Its like i'm not there but I am. People trying to talk at me and stuff and I am not even aware of their being there. I feel so lost. I haven't tried to get any help for the way I feel. I am not working. I have no insurance and no money. I don't have anyone to talk to.

I started to hurt myself today. But I feel so scared. I want to die but I also want to live sort of. But mostly I just want to stop feeling like this. I don't know what to do.

Dear Maria,

Its okay. Please know that what you are going through is normal. You really do need to talk to someone though because the only thing that will happen is it will get worse. I will pray for you and you can pm me whenever you need to. What's going on? Is there something that you want to get off your chest? Sometimes it just helps to talk about it. I hope you find comfort in Christ. Just pray to Him and He will just hold you in His arms and not let go. Just keep telling yourself that you are a good person and you deserve to live because you do. God sent His only begotten son for you that you may have eternal life. This earthly life is only temporary and you can get through it! Best Wishes Lily00 "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Phillippians 4:13

 

[trinitygrace]

Maria,

Everything that you are going through right now is passing. We all go through hard times and I have had some brief experience with self-injury and a long-time struggle with depression to know what you are going through. The thing that you could do right now is to get someone to talk to. Someone you can trust. You really need someone here going through it with you. But don't forget, our loving Savior Jesus Christ is always by your side, just waiting for you to talk to Him. Please go to Him. Read His word. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. That's one of His MANY promises. If you need to talk, pm me anytime. You will definitely be in my prayers.

In His Love,
TrinityGrace

 

[pockleberry]

I don't have any advice except that you should try and get help for it depression is an awful thing and you deserve the help ypu need to get past it. I just wanted to say that if you want it you have a friend in me...i'm always happy to listen

 

[Daysoni]

I am new here and in need of someone to talk to.

I am not sure what to do. I think maybe I need to be put somewhere but not sure where. I am depressed all the time and very suicidal at other times. I cry a lot. Lately I don't feel like i can function at all. When I am around people I black out sometimes. I'll just stare off into space and like go somewhere but no where at the same time. I am not even sure what happens to me. Its like i'm not there but I am. People trying to talk at me and stuff and I am not even aware of their being there. I feel so lost. I haven't tried to get any help for the way I feel. I am not working. I have no insurance and no money. I don't have anyone to talk to.

I started to hurt myself today. But I feel so scared. I want to die but I also want to live sort of. But mostly I just want to stop feeling like this. I don't know what to do.

Marie27, Depression is a rough thing to deal with it. I ahve had to deal with it fo most of my life. It has been a few months now that I have been getting help for it. You said that you started to hurt yourself. If this is by cutting then one thing thatI did when I wanted to do this is to hold ice cubes in my hands for as long as I could. It takes your mind off of wanting to hurt yourself. And it doesn't feel so good either. I went to the local counseling center and found that they go on a sliding fee scale. And on top of that they take what payments you can give and are usuall understanding if you can't. Another thing is I went to the local Health Dept. they to have a sliding fee scale and work payments the same way. I was put on an antidepressant that alll though it took some time it has helped. The most important that I had to learn through all of this was until I surrenderd to the Lord and allowed him to start his work in my life none of this would have helped. That was easier said then done. Just keep praying and realize that although we are struggling and feeling alon God is there right beside us holding our hand, patting us on the back comforting us and telling us that we're doing the best we can. You can PM me. I am proud to say that this is one area of my life that God is leading me through.

It is when we are broken that God does his best work....................

 

[Linnorm]

I am new here and in need of someone to talk to.

I am not sure what to do. I think maybe I need to be put somewhere but not sure where. I am depressed all the time and very suicidal at other times. I cry a lot. Lately I don't feel like i can function at all. When I am around people I black out sometimes. I'll just stare off into space and like go somewhere but no where at the same time. I am not even sure what happens to me. Its like i'm not there but I am. People trying to talk at me and stuff and I am not even aware of their being there. I feel so lost. I haven't tried to get any help for the way I feel. I am not working. I have no insurance and no money. I don't have anyone to talk to.

I started to hurt myself today. But I feel so scared. I want to die but I also want to live sort of. But mostly I just want to stop feeling like this. I don't know what to do.

Marie27 listen to me.. the other day i bought a book about demons and how to deal with them...

you most likely have evil spirits doing all kinds of things to you..

you need to (and all of us that sees this) pray for you and you must accept Jesus as your lord...

God can deliver you from those evil spirits that are trying to kill you... this is not normal this is a problem with evil spirits.. you need to find someone that follows jesus and tell them your problem.. you need them to cast the demons out of you...
and they will come back even worse if you do not follow Jesus.

I dont say any of this to scare you... you have a problem with evil spirits...

I will pray for you... you must find someone that has fail and they need to rebuke the evil spirits from your life and you must follow Christ.

All others need to pray for this person.

 

[Mayflower1]

Marie27 listen to me.. the other day i bought a book about demons and how to deal with them...

you most likely have evil spirits doing all kinds of things to you..

you need to (and all of us that sees this) pray for you and you must accept Jesus as your lord...

God can deliver you from those evil spirits that are trying to kill you... this is not normal this is a problem with evil spirits.. you need to find someone that follows jesus and tell them your problem.. you need them to cast the demons out of you...
and they will come back even worse if you do not follow Jesus.

I dont say any of this to scare you... you have a problem with evil spirits...

I will pray for you... you must find someone that has fail and they need to rebuke the evil spirits from your life and you must follow Christ.

All others need to pray for this person.

Please don't talk about demons and evil spirits!!!! Someone tried to cast one out of me or something but I felt hypnotized. We are sealed by the blood of Christ and God wouldn't dwell with a demon. They can make hard trouble in our lives and everything, tempt us to sin, but a we can never be possessed by one. Lily00 p.s. Was that book, "Liberating the Bruised?"

 

[Linnorm]

Please don't talk about demons and evil spirits!!!! Someone tried to cast one out of me or something but I felt hypnotized. We are sealed by the blood of Christ and God wouldn't dwell with a demon. They can make hard trouble in our lives and everything, tempt us to sin, but a we can never be possessed by one. Lily00 p.s. Was that book, "Liberating the Bruised?"

Christ talks about demons and so do I

y is it that paul says that he has given someone over to stan to help him come back to christ after he started not following christ?

Demons are real and im a christian and they will attack you if your not following christ

your not suppsoed to be scared of demons... the truth shall set you free

what are you saying? Please dont talk about demons and evil spirits? CHRIST TALKED ABOUT THEM ALOT AND SAVED MANY FROM DEMONS.

if you dont want me to talk about demons then i guess you dont like to read the bible either?

you need to understand that demons are real and is it not written that: resist the devil and he shall flee from you

y whould God talk about this? demons CAN MESS WITH ANYONE THAT GIVES PLACE TO THE DEVIL

 

[Daysoni]

Marie27, This advise about the Demons is a real deep one for most there will always be debates about it. When I was in a deep depression I let the church do as they wanted and followed every thing that htey asked of me. When were depressed we want a fast and easy way out. I let a higher up lady that most looked up to in the church tell me that I was under attack by demons and the devil. She had me doing all these prayers and other things. They left me feeling even more worthless and depressed then before. If you have a relationship with God wich you probablly do just pray to him let your heart out, cry, yell, he knows the real you. For me in order to get to that point I needed the medical attention first I needed to get into a more stonger state to where I could get a clear mind and not get overwhelmed by what others were saying and telling me to do. I think that some times we get so wrapped up in helping people and their problems that we just try to do it so quick and only touch at the surface. We need to take our time and dig deep. See what it is that is causeing these feelings. It might hurt and take along time but it's better. Just pray. God will be there he will lead you down the right path. It is our pain that we go through that allows us to be more compassionate to others in their time of need.

Tons of Hugs, Prayers, and Blessings

 

[mythrainbow]

I agree with lily00. If we truly belong to Christ, A demon can't dwell within us. That's not to say they won't try to hurt us in other ways. The enemy knows exactly what to do to make you feel your worth nothing, to pull you further from God. Keep reminding yourself that God always makes a way, it could be through a friend, a church, a non profit organization, God's ways are different then that of the world so we don't always know how He will make things better we just know He will.

Don't let anyone tell you how far away you are from God. That's something between you and God. The more you talk to Him about it the more He can reveal to you. Make sure God is the one your holding on to, holding on to yourself or anything else won't work.

That feeling of wanting to live "sort of". That's God, He DOES want you to live, hold on to the FACT that God has created you and has a purpose for you. God wouldn't make a mistake, when He made you it WAS for a GOOD reason, even if you can't see it yet. Remember even with everything flooding in and leaning you towards the feelings you hate, remember God is there no matter what.

Read Job and you'll find times where he said things like
Job Ch 9
21 "Although I am blameless,
I have no concern for myself;
I despise my own life.
22 It is all the same; that is why I say,
'He destroys both the blameless and the wicked.'
Job 10:1
"I loathe my very life;
therefore I will give free rein to my complaint
and speak out in the bitterness of my soul.

To sum up Job's story he started out with a really great life, and then the devil came along and tormented him. He keeps enduring and enduring, and starts to break down. His friends try to help yet nothing seems to change his mind about the way things are. Then God Himself steps in, the more He learns about God, the better he gets. At the end Job gets double of everything he lost during that trial.

Anyway I don't want to blab on and on. So instead if want to PM I would love it, but only if you feel up to it.

Either way I'll be praying for a clear mind so that you can find out what God really wants you to do.

 

[BOJAX]

Christ talks about demons and so do I

y is it that paul says that he has given someone over to stan to help him come back to christ after he started not following christ?

Demons are real and im a christian and they will attack you if your not following christ

your not suppsoed to be scared of demons... the truth shall set you free

what are you saying? Please dont talk about demons and evil spirits? CHRIST TALKED ABOUT THEM ALOT AND SAVED MANY FROM DEMONS.

if you dont want me to talk about demons then i guess you dont like to read the bible either?

you need to understand that demons are real and is it not written that: resist the devil and he shall flee from you

y whould God talk about this? demons CAN MESS WITH ANYONE THAT GIVES PLACE TO THE DEVIL

yeah that is true that there are many demons that can have a stronghold on one's soul. But that's all they are, strongholds. God can wipe them out but we all have the authority to rebuke them ourslelves. If we do it by faith in the name of Jesus.

 

[BOJAX]

I agree with lily00. If we truly belong to Christ, A demon can't dwell within us. That's not to say they won't try to hurt us in other ways. The enemy knows exactly what to do to make you feel your worth nothing, to pull you further from God. Keep reminding yourself that God always makes a way, it could be through a friend, a church, a non profit organization, God's ways are different then that of the world so we don't always know how He will make things better we just know He will.

Don't let anyone tell you how far away you are from God. That's something between you and God. The more you talk to Him about it the more He can reveal to you. Make sure God is the one your holding on to, holding on to yourself or anything else won't work.

That feeling of wanting to live "sort of". That's God, He DOES want you to live, hold on to the FACT that God has created you and has a purpose for you. God wouldn't make a mistake, when He made you it WAS for a GOOD reason, even if you can't see it yet. Remember even with everything flooding in and leaning you towards the feelings you hate, remember God is there no matter what.

Read Job and you'll find times where he said things like
Job Ch 9
21 "Although I am blameless,
I have no concern for myself;
I despise my own life.
22 It is all the same; that is why I say,
'He destroys both the blameless and the wicked.'
Job 10:1
"I loathe my very life;
therefore I will give free rein to my complaint
and speak out in the bitterness of my soul.

To sum up Job's story he started out with a really great life, and then the devil came along and tormented him. He keeps enduring and enduring, and starts to break down. His friends try to help yet nothing seems to change his mind about the way things are. Then God Himself steps in, the more He learns about God, the better he gets. At the end Job gets double of everything he lost during that trial.

Anyway I don't want to blab on and on. So instead if want to PM I would love it, but only if you feel up to it.

Either way I'll be praying for a clear mind so that you can find out what God really wants you to do.

Funny how all Satan does is TALK.
Gets us to change our thinking to something against the Word of God and forget who we really are in Christ.

 

[Mayflower1]

Dear Linnorm,

I read the Bible in depth and I know that demons exist and that Christ casted away many. What I am saying is that now Christ can abide within us. He has mercy on sinners, He gives us grace and He protects us because we are His children. Demons can bring Christians much hard trouble with temptation. Sin has been the downfall of many including me but I don't believe that demons can possess a human being in this time because Christ dwells within us now. When Christ comes into our life, He washes away our stains and makes a new being. We still sin but now our sin is covered by the blood of Christ and that blood is all God sees. Christ's blood wouldn't cover a demon because a demon is rebellious towards God. Do you actually believe that the most holy and righteous God would dwell with something as evil and rebellious as satan or a demon? In Biblical times, man lived by the law. It was necessary according to prophecy that Christ would perform miracles and cast out many demons. That is not needed now though. We might have different beliefs in the matter but we can both agree that we need to resist the devil with all of our might and turn to God in all of His grace and guidance. this is a real interesting subject if you want to continue it and pm me but I just know that these personalities that I am trying to understand are not demonic in any way. I will find some verses and share them with you if you like but I want to go to my pastor first to find the right ones to share with you. I like to see the different sides of it and everything but I have been through this before and I just don't believe in demon possession. Lily00