hello, new to website, but have been at thisjourney about 11 mths, my husband passed in
May of last year, I just passed the birthday milestone,
first without him in 33 years, in fact we became
engaged on my birthday, hard to believe its been
almost a year, I thought by now I would be more
settled, but am in a small town, have been thru
the mill before this, two years ago things started,
first my husbands work stress increased, he
became only carrier in town, had a battle to get
him help, then we finally got a vacation to florida
after that time, when he did get help, only to come
back and find town vandalized, they had hit
11 counties, and ours was next to last, they came
down main street, but our business was closed,
but did get our future son in laws business, he
has had a $700,000 loss, in his store, but leased
the store from the other daughter's in laws, so
involved both families, and town, then our daughter
got married in feb. , our other daughter had
baby in may, and a week later baptised grandchild,
my husband passed away that night...since I am
in small town lots of gossip, and bad attitude
about grieving, I had a business to run, and got
it up and running after 2 weeks of him being gone with
the help of one daughter, now have to decide to sell
that and maybe house, tried to get another job here,
with business as well, but they let me go on an excuse
after 7 days ( plus I had worked sick- was a cooking
job, let me go because of too much chocolate on the plate displays) I felt it was a set up to put me in
my place, got me down and out, and under depression -
with birthday, and anniversary coming up,
I lost him and main income, even though insurance
I need that for retirement, and do not make as much
as he did, plus self employed, after 18 years it is
hard to start over, only have 5 years to ss, because
of rules for widows, but need to move on, pray
for me because of this whole situation, tired and weary
go up and down spirtually, need to wait on the
Lord, and trying, but its been a whole year of
intensisty, I was dong okay except got attacked
by a sister in law ( who is forgiven but we don't speak)
at 3mth point, in public, ( says I am cause of his depression, even though his job stress was over
the top) and by a stranger at the store( for
having not to stand long in line, due to my sil
store burning down- they set fire to it, after
not getting in to store safe, they are caught and in
prison...) saying it was my fault, people are harsh
in end times, and do things I would never think of
saying or doing, I know we are to be persecuted
but as a grieving widow I never expected this
on top of missing him, by family member and other
people in town..what happened to if you can't say anything nice dont say anything at all!
so need prayers, for direction and job that
God wants me to have, and peace.
thankyou
sister in Christ
two verseshave come to me- one is Psalm 73:23-25
other is for husbands work situation he had
and I deal with still- Malachi 3:1-5
thanks for praying, I had to re-register, lost my password
