Need your opinions please!

[rubycakes]

I posted this in the "struggles w/ sexuality forum" but havent gotten much response. I know I posted a thread here about my sex obsession so I thought this might be a better place to get input.

Because of what I put below is why I think I'm struggling w/ my current sex obsession. I dont believe that I am turned on by my current sex obsession but because OCD can be confusing, I dont know what to believe anymore.

SO, here is my other post....



I am a Christian and I am trying to understand a Biblical reason for why some things might turn us on sexually even if we dont want it to.

For example... and this is very embarassing and humiliating but one time (afew years ago) while my husband and I were "together" this crazy thought popped into my head that I was "with" my father. This freaked me out but at the same time aroused me.

I looked on the internet after that experience to see what I could find and came across some site that explained the psychology of fantasies. This satisfied my curiousity enough and I dropped the issue and didnt worry about it anymore.

I know that I dont really want to do that and, just for ur info, I never have really had a relationship of any sort (not even a normal one) with my father, but it is bizarre all the same.

If the thought ever pops in my head while I'm with my hubby, I stop the thought immediately because I know it is not of God AT ALL and it goes away.

THis thought I had happened a few years ago and has not been an issue with me really but I have had other crazy sex thoughts that pop into my head and they disturb me. I dont know if they arouse me or not but I know that I dont want to have them.

I want to follow Jesus and be a good wife to my husband etc etc. I dont understand why crazy sex thoughts would come into my head and if they do turn me on and they are wierd or perverse why do they turn me on? Am I normal? Has anyone ever dealt with this?

It is REALLY annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[acropolis]

It happened to my ex-fiancee several times. She told me it's common for women, for what it's worth.

 

[rubycakes]

Thank you acropolis!

 

[rubycakes]

I think that knowing that I'm not the only one who thinks crazy thoughts like this makes me not obsess so much. Although, w/the pedifilia obsession I wrote about a week or so ago, I feel like a freak for having the thought and of course because I'm obsessing about it, it makes it worse.

I know I need to trust in the Lord and lean NOT on my own understanding. Which is hard for me because I want to know WHY i thought something. I HAVE to rationalize and figure out why I had this thought or that thought if it is a disturing one. Ugh, I guess thats where faith in GOd comes in!!! I need to have more!!!!!

 

[kaykay637]

I think crazy thoughts may pop into everyone's head from time to time. However, if you battle OCD, you may tend to react or "overvalue" the thought. Start analyzing it, feel guilty about it etc. Then the more you battle it, the more often it comes. Sounds like you already know this, but the less value you can assign to bizaare thoughts that you know are not of God, the quicker your freedom from them will come.

Prayers to you-

 

[gracechick]

I know it's so hard isn't it. I think OCDers minds seem to be set on focousing on every thought & analyzing it to death while for other people the thought doesn't latch on, but passes through if that makes sense. For us thoughts seem bigger, stronger & more powerful in our brains.
I try to hold on to the scripture that we should cast down thoughts that don't arn't of God. It's like the Spirit is saying "the devil will torture you mentally if you let him, But do your best not to let him through the power of Christ".

Keep asking questions I know I learn alot here & find so much support & help.

 

[amItrue]

Wow, I've had evil thoughts kind of similar to those before. I get all kinds of thoughts, not just things like that .... really my mind goes from one end to the other. lol I think you need to really pray about it and ask God to deliver you from whatever is causing the thoughts. That's what I pray for myself sometimes too. OCD causes us to really latch on to the most repulsive thoughts sometimes. Try not to let the devil beat you up over it. You know what OCD kind of reminds me of....I don't know if anyone can relate to this but when I was a kid, it was a funny joke to grab someones hand and make them hit themselves with it and then yell at them "Stop hitting yourself, why are you hitting youself?" lol It's kind of like the devil is using our own OCD to beat up on us and then blaming us for it! Not sure if that made sense but it did in my mind. lol May God bless you and all of us with a sound mind!

 

[rubycakes]

THank you "amitrue" for the input. I appreciate your honesty. I do pray about it. I feel more calm at the moment but as you know w/OCD the anxiety comes and goes. I really relate to you w/the face slapping ilustration you gave.

I think of it too like a really bad song that is stuck in your head just playing over and over again. Ugh!

 

[gracechick]

That is a good analogy. The devil presses us to ruminate then hammers us mentally when he asks us why we are thinking those thoughts. That really describes the way I feel at times.

 

[ObsessedButBlessed]

I'll tell you why: you have OCD.

Take this example from ocdonline.com:

A man is involved in relations with his female lover. Suddenly, the thought of his friend Bob pops into his head. This is the fourth time in a month that this has happened. In response to this he becomes very upset and wonders whether he is gay. His sexual activity is terminated in order to avoid having to deal with this concern.

You sought out reassurance that this was not some twisted perverse thing (by looking up why we have certain fantasies) and that satisfied your OCD long enough for the threat to go away, the urgency to find out why you perhaps had these thoughts was neutralized.

Everyone has random, strange thoughts such as the one you had. What makes us different is that OCD perceives it as a threat, as something we don't like (ego-dystonic thoughts) or don't agree with, something we find repulsive, something that now calls into question the one thing we were absolutely the most certain about in life (hello religious obsessions!) Other people shrug it off; we OCDers think our world has just crumbled.

If you haven't already, I'd suggest reading the article "I think it moved" by Dr. Steve Phillipson. It can be found on ocdonline.com under articles by Dr. Phillipson.

 

[rubycakes]

UR a trip "Sad". I havent checked out that book yet but I did order the other one you suggested. I will have to tell you how it is! THanks again!

 

[gracealone]

I'll tell you why: you have OCD.

Take this example from ocdonline.com:



You sought out reassurance that this was not some twisted perverse thing (by looking up why we have certain fantasies) and that satisfied your OCD long enough for the threat to go away, the urgency to find out why you perhaps had these thoughts was neutralized.

Everyone has random, strange thoughts such as the one you had. What makes us different is that OCD perceives it as a threat, as something we don't like (ego-dystonic thoughts) or don't agree with, something we find repulsive, something that now calls into question the one thing we were absolutely the most certain about in life (hello religious obsessions!) Other people shrug it off; we OCDers think our world has just crumbled.

If you haven't already, I'd suggest reading the article "I think it moved" by Dr. Steve Phillipson. It can be found on ocdonline.com under articles by Dr. Phillipson.

Great advice Sad,
I have found Dr. Philipson's online articles on these issues to be really helpful. He writes with great clarity about OCD and most especially about the pure "O" form of OCD.
Mitzi