Need words for these two habits...

[restore]

I came from abuse background and with a deep depression, PSTD , etc....but thanks to God that I m slowly getting healed, and mostly these i feel so good in spirit, although my sleep hours and eating still in disorder, but i have faith it will get better. I have two habits which r hard to get rid of, I need words and supports,
One habit is, I developed the habit of eating good food a few years ago while i was so lonely and desperate, and nobody could talk at that time, I just went to outside restaurant to eat some good food which is offering u to eat as more as u can(u just need to pay a few, then sit there and eat until u r full). and each time I eat too much...........I m thinking why I m this way? maybe because i lacked food while i was a kid, i was forbidden to eat with adults, maybe because later I admire and I feel jealous of those rich people can eat a lot good things?

Another habit is, I used to work in entertainment field. I got a lot deliverance in mental etc already, but the last root there is hard ....I still feel lusted to compare with other pretty women, who is more prettier, who is more attractive, who is better pose style, etc.I know in God eyes every woman every man is perfect being, but I still being influenced so deeply by worldly media views, movies, magazines, worldly art views, etc, so ,"beauty"still becomes a stone in my heart..

 

[Onlythingavailable]

You have indeed come a long way, and with God's help you will make it all the way!

I don't know much about eating disorders, but I think you have already accomplished one of the hardest things by acknowledging its existence. Many who suffer from it refuse to accept they have it, and until they do it is hard for them to get help. I'd suggest you talk to a professional who has experience with eating disorders. That way you will get good, solid advice. I believe you are on the right track by analyzing your motivations for eating. Eating produces pleasure, so it's understandable that you turned to it when you felt down. If you only overeat at these "eat until you drop" restaurants, maybe you could start to avoid going there and instead doing something else to make you feel better? Like praying, helping others and so on. Just a suggestion, I really suggest you seek some more qualified advice!

We all compare ourselves with others, on some level at least. The important thing to remember is that we are all God's creation. Our value in His eyes isn't based on what you listed. Remember, restore, that you are God's unique creation, and your value is unquestionable!

 

[If Not For Grace]

I'm Glad to see you with your Boxing Gloves on. Fight the Good fight. When you are ready look inward. What value do you place on "being pretty"?

Define what you think is beautiful..Is it really on the outside? I think not? Learn to smile--fake it till you make it. A Smile is a beautiful thing. Start small--you are already on your way.

Prayers.

PS--We do not need all we can eat,,,we only need enough.. Just abstain from going to those type restaurants as a start and NEVER clean your plate.

 

[Buttermilk]

s for you as you work your way through these issues

 

[Anti Existance]

i was forbidden to eat with adults,

What kind of insanity is this? Seriously i can understand why you have become such a mess, your parents seem to have been very disturbing individuals who had a great negative impact on your life.

Besides councelling, i advice you to visit a dietist who could help you setup a normal eating pattern, this might take time, but you need to restore from that horrible enviroment you have been in.

You need to be like a castle gate closing yourself to bad people/things/events, and open yourself up to good people/things/events, if you let the enemy into your castle they will only end up destroying it(even if its family), and leaving you crying over the ruins.From there you can keep on crying, or rebuild your life, i advice you to rebuild your life.

In terms of what the eating disorder also brings along is that you might not be getting enough exersises. The best advice is to eat normal and exersise. Doing yoga is exellent in order to get your life back into balance. My brother who suffered from diabetes and had an unstable life, regained control and balance back by doing this.

And when it comes to the beauty of others.

What is more beautifull, the most beautifull woman on earth, or helping a starving person by giving him some bread?

The last is infinitly more beautifull, so if you have this inner beauty in yourself then you don't need this exterior beauty.

What is important is that you love yourself, and that you understand the meaning of life, which is to love and help others. Its true, beauty is really beautifull, but in terms of what is important in life, is that you give unconditional love to everyone, regardless of their looks.

Imagine the most horrible looking person on earth. If you could kiss and love this person unconditionally like God would, for me that is one of the greatest spiritual victories one could make during their lifetime.

So honestly don't let looks get to you, what matters is the light that you carry inside. Its true that materialistically seen looks are important, but the spiritual value of it is insignificant. And in that perspective should not be worried about.

 

[restore]

How to love myself?
this is biggest headache la..

 

[lavenderskies]

There are some wonderful christian books on eating disorders. Perhaps you can look into those.

 

[madison1101]

It definitely sounds like an eating disorder with poor body image. A good therapist or eating disorder treatment facility could help you sort things out. I sought professional help for my eating disorder and it has helped me immensely.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[UnitynLove]

For it is written "Put no confidence in the flesh." and it is also written "We donot look at those things that are seen but the things that are not seen that are everlasting"