Need Support, under attack

[madison1101]

Hi there,
I am not in need of advice as much as support. I am going through a lot of trials right now and just need a shoulder to cry on.

My daughter had a miscarriage in June, but did not tell me until five weeks later. Her mother-in-law knew before me. Daughter and I had had problems in the past, but I thought we were still close enough to share that type of information in a more timely fashion.

I have binge eating disorder and am in recovery for alcoholism. I had binges a week ago, and a couple of days ago, and really feel awful about it.

I came home from a long trip yesterday to find a bottle of vodka on my dining room table, and was tempted to drink it. It belonged to my niece, and I basically told her to come rescue it, fast. I was going to pour it down the drain.

My sister's dog destroyed something in my apartment and I have to arrange to get it repaired right away, because having the dog here was a violation of my lease. She stayed with me during a power outage in her house that lasted six days.

I work part time in a psychiatric hospital, but today, I feel like I belong in one of the rooms as a patient, because my emotions are off the chart today.

Basically, I am just an emotional wreck. I am in therapy and will see my therapist this afternoon. I am not in danger of hurting myself, or doing anything self-defeating or self-harm. I just feel like crying and not stopping.

I sure could use a hug and some prayer.

Thanks,
Trish

 

[Petunia]

**hugs!**

The Lord loves you, madison. Read the gospel of John when you get the chance. Start with the first chapter.

http://www.fathersloveletter.com/fllnarration.html

 

[goldenviolet]

Trish, keep wrapping yourself up in grace and love.

Dear Father, please bless our dear sister with your loving comfort. arm her with tools to help her through these trials that are in her life. thank you Father for her and all the support she tries to lead to others. we lift her up to you for your mighty comfort and peace. in Jesus' name we pray, amen.

 

[Akathist]

Trish, I wanted to say that there have been times when out of love and concern for my mother who has had trouble in the past with severe depression as well as bad healtn issues that are compounded by stress, that I have delayed sharing something that might upset her.

I wonder if maybe your daughters thinking was along those lines? It is so easy to assume the worse when feeling hurt but maybe, just maybe, it was out of concern for you.

I hope you are feeling stronger soon. What I do when I feel like things are beginning to unravel is put on some good Christian music and lay down and really listen to it and focus on how God has everything in His hands, especially me.

 

[madison1101]

Trish, I wanted to say that there have been times when out of love and concern for my mother who has had trouble in the past with severe depression as well as bad healtn issues that are compounded by stress, that I have delayed sharing something that might upset her.

I wonder if maybe your daughters thinking was along those lines? It is so easy to assume the worse when feeling hurt but maybe, just maybe, it was out of concern for you.

I hope you are feeling stronger soon. What I do when I feel like things are beginning to unravel is put on some good Christian music and lay down and really listen to it and focus on how God has everything in His hands, especially me.

I am guilty of not being totall up front with my mother as well. I guess my feelings stem from guilt for an argument she and I had a few weeks ago.

I did lay on the couch, listen to some Christian music and have a good cry on the Lord's shoulders this morning. Felt good.

Thanks,
Hugs,
Trish

 

[austrianfoster]

i will pray for you tonight. if you find yourself in rochester, PM me, and i will come give you a hug. as far as what encouragement i can give you now, i have only the advice that has saved me during my hardest times. and it, ironicly, comes most easily from a child's movie. the basic idea is just "one foot in front of the other," or "take one day at a time." but, for me at least, i find that following the idea as presented by Dori in finding Nemo. "just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." the most important thing right now, i not to give up. just keep doing the best you can at each passing trial, and let god worry about how things play out in the big picture. i know this can be difficult to accept at this particular point in your trial, but just surrender your trust in the lord. trust that everything happens for a reason, trust that he wouldn't give you more than you can handle, and above all, trust that god is guiding you to be who he wants you to be.


with love,
austrianfoster