need some advice

[OCDyeahyouknowme]

I need some help, or advice. I have been struggling with OCD. I want to trust in Christ. But every time that I make a decision about trusting in Him, my mind floods itself with doubts. Doubts like “do I even want Christ” , “am I trusting in Him for forgivness”, etc.. And then I ask myself …”am I truly trusting in Him”, “am I really looking to Him, or am I just wanting a piece of mind about death”….

I also struggle with this idea…… that if im truly saved, why am I not excited about Jesus? Shouldn’t I be interested in Him more than what I am? I say to myself that im just gonna live as if He saved me, but these doubts are so strong, it makes it so hard to follow Him. I have lost the desire to really follow Him, cause of all these doubts. I can figure out that some of the doubts are from OCD, but there are some that just drive me to complete depression. And I feel as if they are real. Its really hard to figure out what my true motives are. Im very subconciese about everything I do and analyze every little thought that comes in my mind, and ask questions about why im thinking of them. I am so stressful. Scriptures like “depart from Me, I never knew you” bring me to the bottom. I get so stressed that I cant even read a single passage of scripture. I have been listening to a preacher by the name of John Piper. I have been able to listen to him some.

I have also been struggling with the question, “ am I born again” cause Jesus said unless we are born again, we will not see the kingdom of heaven . Guys im so stressed out. Can anyone give me some advice?

Joe G.

 

[lunapearl]

All I can say is don't ever give up! I was in an intense struggle like this for a full year. I felt all the things that you mentioned. I could barely pray and couldn't read scripture. I was in torture. I felt that there was absolutely no way that I could ever know that I was saved. The "depart from me, I never knew you" scripture also put me in the pit of despair. I would also constantly wonder if I really even wanted Christ or loved Christ...what were my real motivations etc. But by the grace of God, I didn't give up, and you won't either because you obviously have faith or this wouldn't be troubling you. Unbelievers don't care about believing in Jesus! Just keep seeking God, know that He loves you, keep praying that He will give you the peace you seek about this. He finally gave me the peace I was looking for. Am I cured of OCD.....NO! But, I do know that in this world, I can trust no one, not even my own mind and it's perceptions because of ocd. I CAN trust God! He is unchanging, all powerful, uncorruptable, all knowing, all present etc. He is truly the only constant trustworthy thing in my life. One positive about OCD (yes I've found only one) is that it truly shows us how unable we are to do anything for ourselves. We can't even think like "normal" people. We can't even depend on ourselves to have faith or trust in God because we question it nonstop. God knows this. That's why He sent His perfect son to the cross. It was done for ocd people too. Jesus is able. Our faith isn't able...it waivers and quavers depending on the day or even the moment. Jesus doesn't waiver. Jesus already completed our salvation. If you are on this site, you believe it enough to be a believer and Jesus already did it. I know it sounds simplistic, but the truth is that simple. Don't trust in how you feel or how much faith you have...just look at Jesus, the chosen lamb of God. If you believe that HE was able, not that You are able, it will change everything. I can finally understand God's unconditional love for the first time in my life. I can finally give myself a break and not feel so guilty all the time.
I'm sorry this is so long. I hope it helps some, but if it doesn't maybe another poster can help. I'll pray for you!

 

[JohnnieGuy]

Absolutely right on the money. I have and still struggle with some of the same things. The key is keep looking to Christ til you get that assurance. He will give it to you. The devil will get us to do all kinds of stuff like question our faith or our repentance or have we had enough faith or did we believe enough or are we believing enough right now and if I am believing enough than how come I don't feel any different and if I had that true faith then I would feel different and so on and so on. God has already done it all through Christ on the Cross. He lived a perfectly obedient life, and He died a sacrficial death, all the things you could never do. When you are believing in Jesus, you believe that He did these things for you-not how you feel or whatever doubts come up or what you've done or whatever. It's really quite simple, and quite amazing is the power of God!

God told Abraham that through His Son Isaac would be a nation of many descendants. Remember-God CANNOT LIE. When God asked Abraham to sacrifice His son, do you think Abraham was scared? Angry? Sick to his stomach? Depressed? Anxious? Sad? Nervous? Of course He was! But he trusted God. GOD CANNOT LIE. So he agreed to obey God, because He thought that God would raise his son from the dead to fulfill His initial promise. He trusted God. GOD CANNOT LIE.

And He's not lying about Jesus either. He's done it all. FOR YOU. Trust God's promise. GOD CANNOT LIE.

 

[annrobert]

I went through similiar torture.I know the pain of it all.
But Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
He did not say come to Me after you believe correctly or after your motivations are right or after your fears are gone or after this or that.
Jesus simply says come to Me and I will not cast you out.
Jesus says come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest,take My yoke upon you and learn of Me,for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest for your soul.
Jesus promises us peace and rest and joy and love.
Jesus says he that believeth in Me has everlasting life.
He did not say if we believe enough,almost no one has faith even the size of a mustard seed which is very very tiny seed.
Jesus knows we have trouble and doubts and fears, none of us can get it together enough,fix our hearts or motives enough.
We all need a Saviour and Jesus is our Saviour.Jesus did it all.
We cannot look to ourselves for strength.We can do nothing without Jesus.
Jesus will meet all our needs all we have to do is come and Jesus will not cast us out.
Jesus invites us to cast all our care on Him because He cares for us.
Because we are washed in Jesus blood we are welcome to come boldly to the throne of grace and make our requests known to God.
We can pour out our hearts to Jesus who gives good things to those who ask HIm.
Jesus said none shall snatch us out of Jesus hand and we shall never perish.
We come just as we are to Jesus our Saviour.
Jesus came to heal the broken hearted and deliver the captives and to set at liberty those who are bruised.
Jesus is our Rock and our Fortress.
We come just as we are because we cannot fix ourselves we need Jesus our Saviour .
Jesus took me out of all the despair and anguish and terror,I did nothing to deserve it.Because of Jesus great mercy and compassion He took me out of the miry pit and set my feet upon a rock after over two years of grieving and terror.
Keep seeking Jesus ,He will bring you through.
He will never leave you or forsake you.
He is protecting you and holding onto you and will never let you go.I hope this helps you some.
Lunapearl and Johnnyguy wrote you some excellent posts.
Jesus bless you
annrobert