It's been a over a year now an I can love, but I still
need help, please pray for me.
>>>---->Billy
Billy it is good to see that there is growth!
The job ahead is hard and full of peril, you better be well guarded my friend. in time to come forces of control will come - alive within you - who will try and stop the growth of love or even worse control it to serve their own will and glory watch-out for all that has life in worldly thinking of selfish nature - anti-Christ to be.
As God's love grows within you
Ten kings will come and rule their hour!
These are times when the strings in your flesh will try to captivate you to their will through your big ego and so rob your freedom to be yourself from you making you captive to their will - which always burns in demand - both good and bad they burn - it is best to to be well guarded about all that
Those kings within your inner being will be linked back to Satan's control tower within you.
Having said this - The Word growing in Spirit of Loving Truth within you is the Way to proceed!

No words can speak His awesome holiness and power, He Himself is the One you want to find dwelling within you in His Holy Temple ruling from Zion with His 144, 000 Holy Ones. (John 14, Rev 4-7, 21-22)
If you serve our God of Truthful Love - truthfully - and like Him forgive yourself your sins and also your neighbours sins, and walk in a humbly loving fruit bearing S(s)pirit, then you know that God's Kingdom in you has Come of Age and True Freedom will break His Day from Day to Day. Where wrong serves right and right rules life and Jesus is our Delight and Heavenly places our constant walk of L(l)ife.
To love God above all, yourself like He loves you and other like He loved you - is what He requires as prerequisite, when you find yourself bearing fruits of loving nature then you now that God has dwelling within and The Word will reveal the son of lawlessness hiding behind our sin, where ego-centric spirit will try and rob control of Salvation but will be cut down - time and again - at His Coming to Life in our flesh.
So please do always repent of all prideful or arrogant thoughts or actions, humble yourself before Him who is Truthfully Loving and so follow The Master Home.
So yes I gladly pray for you and for your protection from the enemy. I hope you stay free to love and resist those mutilators of the flesh who always want you to do things for God, without loving truth being the Driving Force, but compelling must 'cleans up God's Good Life'

, bringing stress and hard work your way each time you fall.:o
To love means in my books -
to Eat Him and Drink Him and then to share Him out as He grows for all to enjoy His Good Life with us all!