Hi, don't worry I won't be harsh, but maybe straight to the point, so read it first before making any judgements ok Love.
Ever heard the saying once a Christian, always a Christian, God doesn't let go that easy, if he did I'm sure there wouldn't be many. Whats happened is youve started to think to much, so comes the questions Why, I'm angry, I've been hurt, and your aiming them all at God.
1. Why am I disabled God? I can ask the same question if I wanted, I'm disabled, have cancer and most of the time in a wheelchair undergoing Chemotherapy which might not work. So lets look at the answer, as I will admit I used to say the same. Ok your disabled, but God can work more miracles in your life than a lot of others. Its God whos helping you cope, people see you can cope in a very difficult situation, people will listen to you once you can accept your disabled. People say to me how do you cope, 2 teenage kids, single parent, disabled plus other issues. My answer simply is because God made me this way, and its him who gets me through each day aswell as treatment and other things, so what they see is a situation of not me coping with my life but God helping me. There response is tell me more, as I say on my own and they know on my own I'd have given up. A witnessing spirit from the Lord! You will have it also but can't use it until you accept yes I'm disabled and Gods helping you.
2. Some so called Christians can be hurtful, and may have really upset you. Those are the carefree, matter of fact, think they know everything, and probably arn't listening to the Lords empathy or sincerity. But you would find making your move back on the right road would help you forgive them, they no not of what they do.
So as your still a Christian, just backslidden a bit with doubts, all you need to do is Accept and ask forgivenss from the Lord for drifting, say sorry that you blame him for your disablement, ask him to bless you with a gift of witnessing or anything, sit down start reading your bible, get back to church and pray, then watch the Lord work.
Im-revived
Marmaladegirl22 said:
I am not a christian anymore mainly, because I see so many christians who are hateful, judgemental and down right mean, it makes me very dissapointed in christianity. I also notice how alot of christians judge you for every flaw, I'm also kinda of mad at GOD for making me disabled. I know it's silly. Please, help me become a christian again, without being too preachy.
I dunno know if this is the right forum, but I really need to convice christianity is good. I had a really horrible experince with christians, and I'm actually scared of them. Please, don't be too hard on me, I'm really sentive to things.
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Praise Him!! 
