Not hate your life but put Him first. You can lust against your flesh and the works of the flesh. I was a wretch too until I dcided to obey Jesus. Everything He has done after that is to help me not feel that way, among other things. He wants you to have joy and be in the world but not of the world. You should have what you need in every way.
jesus loves you I don’t think he wants you in this way but victorious over this world because he was. Paul had a bit of squalor in his life but it was because no one would accept his glorious, victorious gospel, joyfully. The apostles had the problems so we could have the strengths unless we will live like him. Jesus died for our right to be Christian. Yet Paul was still joyful.
if you were preaching and were a wretch is one thing but if you have nothing to preach and no example for the world to see Jesus goodness then your in the flesh. Get hold of your self and your bible Christian and change your opinion of the gospel and get right with God. Do it because he loves you and do what was intended by Him for your good.
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