My fiancee and I are planning on getting married someday, we haven't picked out a date yet, but It will just kinda depend on his schooling and whatnot.
Anyhow, we have seen eachother almost every day for the past 5 months and now he has to move an hour and a half to go to school. He is building me a computer so that i can keep contact with him on instant messenger all the time, and he said we could talk on the phone which is great when he is avaliable.
I am definatly for him persuing his dreams and bettering himself. The school he is going to is the best in our state, its just that we are going from seeing eachother almost every day, to me being able to see him when he comes down which is like 2-3 times a month.
I know that he wants to marry me, and I am 100% sure I want to spend the rest of my life with him, i guess i am just getting really insecure about things.
Things such as...what if he finds a girl way better than me. I don't exactly have real high self esteem since i screwed my life up really bad in the past and now im 22 and starting all over again. He tells me i am everything he wants in a wife, i guess i am just afraid he is going to find some prettier, more successful, christian girl and start dating her since she lives closer. I know i probably sound completely stupid, but I really am in love with him. I know he would never cheat on me, so i'm not worried about that. I know that I would be a wonderful wife to him. I am 100% all about the Biblical marriage in every way. I guess I just worry. Am i stupid for feeling this way? I have never met any guy that could ever compare to him. And i know that if anything were to happen to us, i would always have super high standards and always compare everyone to him. Things like "anthony would never have yelled at me like that" and whatnot. He is just amazing. We are compatible in every way. But im still insecure. Help please?
Anyhow, we have seen eachother almost every day for the past 5 months and now he has to move an hour and a half to go to school. He is building me a computer so that i can keep contact with him on instant messenger all the time, and he said we could talk on the phone which is great when he is avaliable.
I am definatly for him persuing his dreams and bettering himself. The school he is going to is the best in our state, its just that we are going from seeing eachother almost every day, to me being able to see him when he comes down which is like 2-3 times a month.
I know that he wants to marry me, and I am 100% sure I want to spend the rest of my life with him, i guess i am just getting really insecure about things.
Things such as...what if he finds a girl way better than me. I don't exactly have real high self esteem since i screwed my life up really bad in the past and now im 22 and starting all over again. He tells me i am everything he wants in a wife, i guess i am just afraid he is going to find some prettier, more successful, christian girl and start dating her since she lives closer. I know i probably sound completely stupid, but I really am in love with him. I know he would never cheat on me, so i'm not worried about that. I know that I would be a wonderful wife to him. I am 100% all about the Biblical marriage in every way. I guess I just worry. Am i stupid for feeling this way? I have never met any guy that could ever compare to him. And i know that if anything were to happen to us, i would always have super high standards and always compare everyone to him. Things like "anthony would never have yelled at me like that" and whatnot. He is just amazing. We are compatible in every way. But im still insecure. Help please?
