My world is falling apart. Please pray for me.

[pantingdeer]

Whoever reads this do not laugh or judge me. Please help me, I'm in a very bad state.

Until about 6 months ago I would be very into girls until one day all attraction towards women and the desire to be with one suddenly disappeared unexplained. I thought it was a phase and would maybe come back but my attraction towards girls never returned.

This has been a very hard time for me and due to this I've become very very sad. Living as a heterosexual male in the future with a wife a I love was the dream but this is a distant reality. And because of the loss of attraction to females I was scared I was asexual or worse gay (no offence to gay people but I would not want to be homosexual sorry). I would begin questionning my sexuality all day every day and I can't take it anymore. I want to be a normal guy like my friends who are comfortable talking to women and so on. Now if I try, I feel like I'm lying to myself and trying to make something work that will never work. This aswell leads to the anxiety and I can't take it anymore. I plead to God all the time to fix me but nothing ever happens to me.

Also, embarrassingly (don't laugh), I'm only 17 and this anxiety and no sexual desire has resulted in the fact that I cannot even get an erection.

This makes me very scared because if this even fixes itself which I dont expect it to, I will never even be able to make my wife happy and multiply.

This all has made me very depressed and I need encouragement or prayer please. I've even had dark thoughts about killing myself to end my life of hell. But I don't want to do that.

I just want to like girls again.

 

[1watchman]

You ought to see a physician who is a specialist in this area of human development. It might be something organic pertaining to physiology. It doesn't sound like sexual orientation problems, etc., but only a specialist can advise you properly. Maybe a psychiatrist will be needed. Don't give up and start blaming self, which would only be a satanic attack to ruin you. Keep praying for God's leading and care, and trust the Lord Jesus as your redeemer.

 

[Peace Keeper]

Yes, will be praying, I hope you find your answers, and don't give up! God does bring healing and restoration to our hearts and minds, fill your mind with His Word and seek Him diligently! Also, see if it is a development issue, I'm not really sure with all of that, but just be very careful and research things to make sure, I don't know if they would try giving you medicines or anything and it is best to be very careful with medicines because of the side effects and such they can bring. I don't know how they would treat it though. Just pray and ask God for guidance.