hi everyone i dont know if you guys remember me, i am the vietnamese guy from Australia who use to to post quite a bit 3 years ago. I just giving an updatee about myself. To be honest i am not really improving, i struggle so badly, i have constant evil thoughts in my head, it has got to the stage where there are times when i ask myself can the thoughts that i get really happen. I do not want to hurt my family, i love them, i hate getting thoughts that God will do harm to them by punishing them,
I get thoughts God will give them diseases cause of my sins as a christian. It is so disturbing i have trouble sleeping because of the fears i get. I also struggle with other thoughts, but the thoughts of God doing harm to my family is the most distressing. I really do not know what the future holds for me, i am working full time, and honestly i am not fit to work, i am 1 out of 3 people who are working full time from my ocd support group, the others are not working, dont blame them. I am struggling to write this, cause while i am typing, i am getting crazy thoughts God will punish my family. I dont know what to do anymore, i feel like i am in a hopeless situation. I am so screwed up.
Last thursday i actually cried because the thoughts were so distressing, i actually talked to God asking if he is the type of father that would punish my family if i committed sins, i was asking what type of father would do this. Well i dont feel like typing anymore, cause i am struggling with distressing thoughts, so hard to concentrate. Sorry about my grammer i know its bad.
Oh yeah thought i ask is there any asians on this ocd forum, i have never met a fellow asian that suffers from a mental illness.
I get thoughts God will give them diseases cause of my sins as a christian. It is so disturbing i have trouble sleeping because of the fears i get. I also struggle with other thoughts, but the thoughts of God doing harm to my family is the most distressing. I really do not know what the future holds for me, i am working full time, and honestly i am not fit to work, i am 1 out of 3 people who are working full time from my ocd support group, the others are not working, dont blame them. I am struggling to write this, cause while i am typing, i am getting crazy thoughts God will punish my family. I dont know what to do anymore, i feel like i am in a hopeless situation. I am so screwed up.
Last thursday i actually cried because the thoughts were so distressing, i actually talked to God asking if he is the type of father that would punish my family if i committed sins, i was asking what type of father would do this. Well i dont feel like typing anymore, cause i am struggling with distressing thoughts, so hard to concentrate. Sorry about my grammer i know its bad.
Oh yeah thought i ask is there any asians on this ocd forum, i have never met a fellow asian that suffers from a mental illness.