my update

[dantrong]

hi everyone i dont know if you guys remember me, i am the vietnamese guy from Australia who use to to post quite a bit 3 years ago. I just giving an updatee about myself. To be honest i am not really improving, i struggle so badly, i have constant evil thoughts in my head, it has got to the stage where there are times when i ask myself can the thoughts that i get really happen. I do not want to hurt my family, i love them, i hate getting thoughts that God will do harm to them by punishing them,

I get thoughts God will give them diseases cause of my sins as a christian. It is so disturbing i have trouble sleeping because of the fears i get. I also struggle with other thoughts, but the thoughts of God doing harm to my family is the most distressing. I really do not know what the future holds for me, i am working full time, and honestly i am not fit to work, i am 1 out of 3 people who are working full time from my ocd support group, the others are not working, dont blame them. I am struggling to write this, cause while i am typing, i am getting crazy thoughts God will punish my family. I dont know what to do anymore, i feel like i am in a hopeless situation. I am so screwed up.

Last thursday i actually cried because the thoughts were so distressing, i actually talked to God asking if he is the type of father that would punish my family if i committed sins, i was asking what type of father would do this. Well i dont feel like typing anymore, cause i am struggling with distressing thoughts, so hard to concentrate. Sorry about my grammer i know its bad.

Oh yeah thought i ask is there any asians on this ocd forum, i have never met a fellow asian that suffers from a mental illness.

 

[RachelZ]

Hey Dantrong...sorry I can't write much now but no doubt others will come and give you some wise replies. I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry you're struggling like this and that I'll say a prayer for you. Hang in there and I'm so pleased you had the courage to post...this is a great place for support, wisdom and potential recovery. Take care, Rachel

 

[gratefulgrace]

danstrong you are not alone God knows exactly what you are going through and wants to give.

Here is Jesus example for us:

Hbr 5:7 During the days of Jesus' life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission.
Hbr 5:8 Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered
Hbr 5:9 and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him

God has your good in mind at all times but suffering is part of this human condition. The good and bad fall on all mankind The good news is we learn obedience to his ways his word and his truth as we rest faithfully in his unconditional love and forgiveness for us regardless of our present circumstances. This is Christs human example for us. I am glad you are in a support group for OCD sufferers and how great you are working. I will pray that life will become more settled emotionally for you in the days ahead and for the protection of your family.
Perhaps God will show you where to get further help to combat the horrible turmoil you mind is putting you through. Peace Gratefulgrace

 

[kaykay9.0]

Praying for you!

As GratefulGrace mentioned at the end of her post, are you getting any medical attention and/or counseling, dantrong? If not, that would be something to consider.

Wishing you the best.

 

[god4ever]

dear dantrong, i know it's easy for someone else to say everything is going to be ok because i feel the same way when someone tells me it's gonna be ok. but god is not like that he gave his own son to die for us because he loves us so much. how many of us would let our child be tortured for a sinning rotten world? I don't believe any of us would i know i wouldn't . god bless you and i will pray for you and remember god loves you and your family sooooooo much
god4ever

 

[QUannie]

Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are FORGIVEN{pardon, to grant relief of payment of,to excuse an offense without penalty} and whose sins are covered.
Romans 4:7 nkjv

And I will FORGIVE {pardon, to grant relief of payment of,to excuse an offense without penalty} their wickedness, and I will NEVER{never, not ever} AGAIN REMEMBER{bring to mind} THEIR SINS."
Hebrew 8:12 nlt

God is not a man that he would lie. He does not remember your sins if you have asked Jesus to be your SAVIOR! He may not remove natural consequences, but He sees you covered by the blood of His Son!

"When He was hung on the cross, He took UPON Himself the curse pronounced by the law."Gal.3:13b nlt

"Yet we know that a person is MADE RIGHT with God by FAITH in Jesus Christ, not by obeying the law. And we have believed in Christ Jesus, so that we might be made right with God because of our FAITH in Christ, not because we have obeyed the law. For no one will ever be made right with God by obeying the law. "Gal 2:16 nlt

Dantrong, i know how you feel and what your going through! Read Galatians, it is about our freedom in Christ! Jesus has taken ALL your sins, why would God punish your family for them, they are already dealt with when you asked Jesus to be your SAVIOR!!
I prayed for your dear brother!!!
much love in Christ,
Q