About 2 days ago through dreams, Jesus Christ has helped me to understand what causes my alters to come out.
Apparently whenever I touch any guy in a simple way, for example a touch on the arm, immediately my sexual alters come out. If a guy says something to me, like 'Let's Have Sex' immediately my sexual alters come out and I comply with the request.
The above has been taking place my entire life. This is what I have been programmed to do by my abusers.
When somebody has a serious physical sickness such as cancer, family and friends see the deterioration of the person as time progresses, especially if the cancer is stage 4. They see the person slowly dying and they can see the battle they are in trying to survive each day.
When you have Dissociative Identity Disorder though, people cannot see the actual battle taking place on the inside of a person, but the battle is just as real, just as serious.
A family member said a few times that the worst illness to have is Alzheimer because you look on a family, friend and you have no idea who they are. This is what has been going on in my life for years, severe memory problem.
In my experience as well, when you have a mental illness oftentimes people don't take you seriously. They dismiss what you are saying, they don't believe you etc I remember telling a psychiatrist that I was used in human trafficking and she began laughing to herself, she did not believe me and that hurt.
Another thing I have experienced where abusers around me act 'normal' and the 'abused' me, is agitated, worried constantly, angry at times etc. As a result people view the abused as having no credibility, after all the abusers 'look normal, act normal, dress normal, socialize etc'.
Due to what has been happening in life I have been having what seems to be a series of nervous breakdowns. In one moment I am okay, the next moment I am in a bad place mentally (depressed, angry, worried etc), swinging from one extreme to the other constantly every day.
How to Recognize and Treat the Symptoms of a Nervous Breakdown
Apparently whenever I touch any guy in a simple way, for example a touch on the arm, immediately my sexual alters come out. If a guy says something to me, like 'Let's Have Sex' immediately my sexual alters come out and I comply with the request.
The above has been taking place my entire life. This is what I have been programmed to do by my abusers.
When somebody has a serious physical sickness such as cancer, family and friends see the deterioration of the person as time progresses, especially if the cancer is stage 4. They see the person slowly dying and they can see the battle they are in trying to survive each day.
When you have Dissociative Identity Disorder though, people cannot see the actual battle taking place on the inside of a person, but the battle is just as real, just as serious.
A family member said a few times that the worst illness to have is Alzheimer because you look on a family, friend and you have no idea who they are. This is what has been going on in my life for years, severe memory problem.
In my experience as well, when you have a mental illness oftentimes people don't take you seriously. They dismiss what you are saying, they don't believe you etc I remember telling a psychiatrist that I was used in human trafficking and she began laughing to herself, she did not believe me and that hurt.
Another thing I have experienced where abusers around me act 'normal' and the 'abused' me, is agitated, worried constantly, angry at times etc. As a result people view the abused as having no credibility, after all the abusers 'look normal, act normal, dress normal, socialize etc'.
Due to what has been happening in life I have been having what seems to be a series of nervous breakdowns. In one moment I am okay, the next moment I am in a bad place mentally (depressed, angry, worried etc), swinging from one extreme to the other constantly every day.
How to Recognize and Treat the Symptoms of a Nervous Breakdown
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