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My torturer **Trigger Warning**

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I am having some pain in my heart remembering something my torturer Silver said to me. My torturer then said she thought I was beautiful. She said that she hurt me because she thought I was beautiful. She raped me and tortured me and <staff edit>. She overfed me and kept me in a room and hurt my soul very badly.
Do you think my torturer Silver thought I am beautiful?
 
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I am having some pain in my heart remembering something my torturer Silver said to me. My torturer then said she thought I was beautiful. She said that she hurt me because she thought I was beautiful. She raped me and tortured me and <staff edit>. She overfed me and kept me in a room and hurt my soul very badly.
Do you think my torturer Silver thought I am beautiful?

Doesn't matter what she thought of you, her actions were not of God, therefore love and truth was not in her.
 
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Do you think my torturer Silver thought I am beautiful?

Maybe it was the kind of beauty that makes someone beautiful on the inside, and your torturer resents you and hates you for it, because God makes you beautiful. Like the most brilliant star shining at night :)
 
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Doesn't matter what she thought of you, her actions were not of God, therefore love and truth was not in her.
Thank you for your words. It is true that love and truth were not in her at all. Her actions were not of God. Thank you for telling me this.
 
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Maybe it was the kind of beauty that makes someone beautiful on the inside, and your torturer resents you and hates you for it, because God makes you beautiful. Like the most brilliant star shining at night :)
Thank you for your kind words. I think it is the beauty God gave me on the inside that caused her to hate me and resent me for it. Thank you for saying the Lord made me like the most brilliant star shining at night. God bless you.
 
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I am so sorry that this has happened to you Bluerose and I pray that God will send healing into your precious heart.
God is capable and oh so willing to take what is there and mold it into something beautiful, Only believe my Sister, just believe, and know that God is doing a work in your heart right now :]
 
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Father, I pray that Bluerose31 will set her mind on things above (Colossians 3:1), move on from thinking about the past (as the Adversary would have her do) (Philippians 3:13-14), and would think on what You would have her think on, Philippians 4:8. <staff edit> May she do what is right, and focus on You, God, having Your way in the present. Amen.
 
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I am so sorry that this has happened to you Bluerose and I pray that God will send healing into your precious heart.
God is capable and oh so willing to take what is there and mold it into something beautiful, Only believe my Sister, just believe, and know that God is doing a work in your heart right now :]
Thank you so much :) God bless you :)
 
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Father, I pray that Bluerose31 will set her mind on things above (Colossians 3:1), move on from thinking about the past (as the Adversary would have her do) (Philippians 3:13-14), and would think on what You would have her think on, Philippians 4:8. <staff edit> May she do what is right, and focus on You, God, having Your way in the present. Amen.
Thank you so much Greg for this beautiful prayer :)
 
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You are right Dave. Thank you for your words.
You're not off my prayer list Bluerose, been there quite a while now . Yourself and others like you won't be coming off my list any time soon fwiw.
 
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You're not off my prayer list Bluerose, been there quite a while now . Yourself and others like you won't be coming off my list any time soon fwiw.
Thank you so much Dave :) That is a blessing to me.
 
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<staff edit>

This "Silver" person should have been reported to the authorities long ago. I've mentioned that in the beginning, but haven't heard of it being done yet. It's terrible when evildoers are not stopped from doing things like this and are only brought into the light decades later after they victimize dozens of other people.
 
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This thread has been moved from the Prayer wall to Trauma, PTSD & Dissociation.

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<staff edit>

This "Silver" person should have been reported to the authorities long ago. I've mentioned that in the beginning, but haven't heard of it being done yet. It's terrible when evildoers are not stopped from doing things like this and are only brought into the light decades later after they victimize dozens of other people.
I have reported Silver to the authorities. The authorities are watching Silver.
 
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I have reported Silver to the authorities. The authorities are watching Silver.

If you told them what he did to you, I would hope they would do more than just watch him.
 
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If you told them what he did to you, I would hope they would do more than just watch him.
Silver was a woman. I did not tell them everything that happened to me and I did not press charges.
 
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