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in 03,04,05. I left Job Corps. I was living in the big city of OKC.
I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. In 05 I was dating someone and I got this fear that I gave her HIV. I don’t have it btw. In May of 05 I walked around OKC in no certain direction for seven hours. I finally go to a pay phone and call the cops. I told them I gave my ex HIV. From there I go to the worst jail in America.
I get out in five days and go back to the clubs I was working at. I thought I was in a dawn of the dead movie.
I take five XTC cuz I wanted to end my life. I go back to jail, was asked how many I took. I was thrown to the ground and raped by two guards . Thrown into a stretcher and and they put a catheter in me and pulled it out w the balloon open. They put me into the back of the Ambulance and shoot me up in both forearms. I look out the skylight and say Father please forgive me.
A peace came over me and I fell asleep.
I was completely psychotic after this. I go to jail two more times but in a different county. The fourth time I’m in a cell and to me what appears to be Christ came up to me and whispered heartbeat 180.
After a few days I mourned and mourned. I kept telling God how sorry I was. This man was walking and I saw him and from my heart I said I would do it for you.
I went they the psychotic episode for another seven months. Finally it starts to dissipate. After a year it started to happen again but this time I said heck no and accepted Jesus as my Savior.
When I saw Him in jail what came from my heart was it was Him that would do it for me.
Folks I’m nothing good, I’m not special, I had a near death experience. I didn’t see heaven or hell, I just felt the pangs of death.
Folks I am hear today cuz He did it for me. Anyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.
I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. In 05 I was dating someone and I got this fear that I gave her HIV. I don’t have it btw. In May of 05 I walked around OKC in no certain direction for seven hours. I finally go to a pay phone and call the cops. I told them I gave my ex HIV. From there I go to the worst jail in America.
I get out in five days and go back to the clubs I was working at. I thought I was in a dawn of the dead movie.
I take five XTC cuz I wanted to end my life. I go back to jail, was asked how many I took. I was thrown to the ground and raped by two guards . Thrown into a stretcher and and they put a catheter in me and pulled it out w the balloon open. They put me into the back of the Ambulance and shoot me up in both forearms. I look out the skylight and say Father please forgive me.
A peace came over me and I fell asleep.
I was completely psychotic after this. I go to jail two more times but in a different county. The fourth time I’m in a cell and to me what appears to be Christ came up to me and whispered heartbeat 180.
After a few days I mourned and mourned. I kept telling God how sorry I was. This man was walking and I saw him and from my heart I said I would do it for you.
I went they the psychotic episode for another seven months. Finally it starts to dissipate. After a year it started to happen again but this time I said heck no and accepted Jesus as my Savior.
When I saw Him in jail what came from my heart was it was Him that would do it for me.
Folks I’m nothing good, I’m not special, I had a near death experience. I didn’t see heaven or hell, I just felt the pangs of death.
Folks I am hear today cuz He did it for me. Anyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.
