I have spent a lot of time in prayer as to whether or not I should post my testimony here. So I am taking a step of faith that God has placed this on my heart for a reason.
While I was in elementry school my alcoholic parents (yes, both of them) became involved in satanism and witchcraft. There were many events held at our house that involved rituals of animal sacrifice and sexual abuse. I was sexually and mentally abused during some of these rituals and throughout my childhood.
When I was 14 years old we moved across the country (we did this frequently) and I got to meet my aunt and uncle who were Christians. By the time I was 15 I was living with them and attending church. When I was 17 I moved into my own apartment, had a full time job and finished school. I began to fall away from the Lord and fell into drugs and sex. But, all the while God never forgot about me and continued to pursue me. He delivered me from a cocaine overdose and took away my addiction. I have been raped, beaten and left for dead - but God stayed beside me waiting for me to turn to Him. He never gave up on me - and by His grace I am still alive.
When I was about 20 I returned to God and began to study diligently. After I married and had my son I knew I had to do everything opposite of what my parents did. I brought my son up in church, loved him and nurtured him. He is now a fine young man - very loving and compassionate.
Why am I telling you this? Because God pursued me. I was His and he didn't want to lose me. Yes, I have seen some terrible things, done some terrible things and now I am here to tell you that no matter what is in your past - God is bigger than all of it. He loves you and wants you for His own. God can deliver you from the strongholds and He will - if you just turn to him.
This is not to say that everything is perfect now - I still have issues. I suffer from depression and dissociative disorder - but I know God will bring me through that too. He has been faithful to me through it all. And He can deliver you out from your pit too. All you have to do is turn to Him.
While I was in elementry school my alcoholic parents (yes, both of them) became involved in satanism and witchcraft. There were many events held at our house that involved rituals of animal sacrifice and sexual abuse. I was sexually and mentally abused during some of these rituals and throughout my childhood.
When I was 14 years old we moved across the country (we did this frequently) and I got to meet my aunt and uncle who were Christians. By the time I was 15 I was living with them and attending church. When I was 17 I moved into my own apartment, had a full time job and finished school. I began to fall away from the Lord and fell into drugs and sex. But, all the while God never forgot about me and continued to pursue me. He delivered me from a cocaine overdose and took away my addiction. I have been raped, beaten and left for dead - but God stayed beside me waiting for me to turn to Him. He never gave up on me - and by His grace I am still alive.
When I was about 20 I returned to God and began to study diligently. After I married and had my son I knew I had to do everything opposite of what my parents did. I brought my son up in church, loved him and nurtured him. He is now a fine young man - very loving and compassionate.
Why am I telling you this? Because God pursued me. I was His and he didn't want to lose me. Yes, I have seen some terrible things, done some terrible things and now I am here to tell you that no matter what is in your past - God is bigger than all of it. He loves you and wants you for His own. God can deliver you from the strongholds and He will - if you just turn to him.
This is not to say that everything is perfect now - I still have issues. I suffer from depression and dissociative disorder - but I know God will bring me through that too. He has been faithful to me through it all. And He can deliver you out from your pit too. All you have to do is turn to Him.
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Reminds me of a line in a worship song "God is bigger than, the air I breath, the world we'll leave, and God will save the day, and all will say, My Glorious!"
