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My testamony

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I am 21 years old. I gave my life to the Lord Jesus Christ on the 26th of July 2006. I am putting this together now on the 15th April 2007. Some of the stuff is copy/paste from other places where I have written these things. This is my testament of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ of Nazerath, Son of the Most High God. And how He has saved me, and made things known to me.

Ok well, the events in this article(between the “”””) that I wrote took place on the 23th of July 2006, and I wrote this on the 28th or 29th, can’t remember. Please bear with me, as it is a long read. I have made some comments to my own writing as some revelations occurred to me over the months that followed.

“"""I want to first start off by saying that I didn't go to church for a long time and didn't really believe in the Lord Almighty. But something happened to me that has changed my life, and I want to tell everyone else about it.

Basically, on Sunday night. Somehow I invoked the devil and it went inside of me. He told me that this happened to me because I turned my back on God and didn't accept Jesus Christ as my Saviour. Now on Monday night, this is where my experience might sound really whack, but it did happen! As I was lying in my bed, I could hear these voices in the distant. They sounded like children singing. Then I knew that they were Angels sent by God. They told me that I must never drink, smoke and do anymore drugs. They then told me that I must do something within the next 6 months of my life, I couldn't just sit at home and do nothing. So I asked them what should I do, they replied "anything you want". They then told me that there was a demon inside of me and that they were going to get it out. I was wide awake, not on any drugs of any kind, this is all real and did happen. As I was exhaling, I heard what sounded like a beast breathing, as I then inhaled, I heard these people saying "go away". This went on for about 5 minutes. Then they Angels told me not to shout out, so I just lay in my bed still. I then felt like what I can only describe as a lazer beam, it was making like a square formation on the back of my head. Then the Angels told me that it was out of me and that I must lay still and not look up or to my right. So I just lay there. I heard like this crackling sound, floating above me and to the side of me, they said it was the demon. They kept on saying it was going to the shower in my parents room and it was coming back to my room. Now I'm pretty sure that they told me to look to the right of me, but couldn't really hear them anymore, sounded like they were getting softer and softer.

As this happened, I felt something enter my body. It felt like pins and needles starting from my feet and going up my legs. At this moment, there was another voice in my head. He said he was Michael the Archangel. Now as you can imagine, this sounds crazy. But this is real! This is my testament bout the Lord God Almighty and the forces of darkness. Now Michael told me to go outside and I did so. He told me that I had to die because the demon inside of me was going to use weapons of mass destruction against the world. He told me that I had been saved. Now it was quite hard to listen to him as I had to try and keep my mind clear so I could hear him. He told me to back inside the house and get my cell phone and phone all my friends. I did so, the time was 3am. He told me I was going to die of a heart attack and that at first it would be painful, but it would be over. He told me to go and stand by the car and told me to tell my dad that he must get the car started and take me to the morgue in half n hour. As he was saying this, he kept on trying to count backwards from 10; this would be my final countdown as it were. But he kept on being interrupted by my parents. Now my parents were freaking out of course. They forced me back into the house. My dad took me down and I was forced to my living room floor. So as I lay there, Michael was telling me to look at my living room light. I did this. He told me that all the white spots I was seeing were all the Angels and that I could see the stair case going into Heaven. And I did see this. But it wasn’t really like stairs; it was more like a spiral of white spots, like a slinky. He told me that out the corner of my eye, I could see a blue spot. He said this was him. And I did see these spots.

He kept on asking me if I was ready to die, and I said I was ready to die for the Lord. He said that that was one of the most amazing things a person could say. But now, my body was shaking because I was outside so long. Michael was telling me that if I didn't stop shaking, I would go into anaphylactic shock, and that it is not a nice way to go. So I asked my mom to lie on my legs to stop the shaking. But now, my dad was praying and telling me that it was the demon speaking to me, so I told him no it wasn't, I told him about the things I heard when I was breathing. My dad told me that no-one knows when we die, only the Lord God does. So then Michael gave me dates of when my parents and my brother would die. Now the whole time, he was trying to count backwards from 10, and kept on asking me if I was ready to die. And I said yes I was. But my parents kept on interrupting and he was saying that it was taking too long and that the portal was closing. By now he said that I wouldn't die that night, and that I must go and have a hot bath. So I did this. He then told me that we had to discuss how I would die, and that if I read a certain verse the next day, he would come and talk to me about how/when I would die. So I said ok. But now, the evil inside of me was starting to say 2 words over and over "beast and hell". Michael was telling me to stop thinking these words, as it would mean my death would be bloodier and unpleasant. I tried to control it but I was weak and couldn't. After a while he told me that I would not go to Heaven and that I would die within a week and not be saved. So of course I was pleeing with him to please give me a chance. He told me that if I could stop thinking those for a minute I would go up. Then it popped in. Then he said ok 2 minutes, and then it popped in. Eventually he said that if I could not think it for 6 hours I would go up. But I couldn't stop thinking it, he said that the devil was taking over my mind and there was nothing he could do anymore.

So right now I was freaking out. Because I didn't want eternal damnation. So then Michael left me, and the devil/demon has been in my head ever since and even now as I write this, it is still there. Anyway, my mom took me to the doctor and I told him about this. He prescribed pills to me. Now u must understand I was awake the whole night, I didn't sleep a blink. The things kept on telling me that I had to go to church and be saved and let Jesus Christ be my savior and confess that I was a sinner and ask him to forgive my sins. I did this. I went to church, spoke to a priest and told him everything that I have written here. So I accepted the Lord into my life, then he spoke in tongues, he was doing a casting out. As he was doing this, I felt these pins and needles going from my waist and going up and out. But I don't think they left my mind, as they still there. So they left my body, just not my head. After I spoke to the priest, I got baptized.

Ok so now people must think I have lost it, but I haven't. The thing is, Satan is fighting over me, whenever I chew or walk or do anything that makes a sound, like using my mouse wheel to scroll. It talks to me, it keeps on speaking lies about how I haven't been saved and in my head it cusses the Lord. So right now I am in a war. So please everyone, I am a testament to the Lord God, please accept Jesus Christ as your Saviour, for He is the truth and the light. No-one else can get into Heaven throughout the Lord. He is real, and so are the other evil things in this world. So please, if you are a Christian already, please pray for me and tell the devil and his minions to leave me alone. If you are not a Christian, I please ask you to change your sinful ways and accept the Lord Jesus Christ as your Savior."""”

The following is going to be kept in chronological order. As things happen in my life. This will become a journal type of thing. The first few entries I am not sure of the dates of when I wrote them.

29th July 2006 – My dad and I completed a course at our church, we were given a word of encouragement on a sheet of paper. I want to write here what the Lord spoke to me through this one woman. “You are a Prince, a warrior in my Kingdom. Take up your position. Fight the good fight of faith – I will strengthen you. I will equip you for the task. I have appointed to you the task – I have called you to be a Priest in your household – a leader – a shepherd. Take Me by my promises – you will not be disappointed. I am He who loves you.” She then gave me a scripture as well. 1 Peter 2:9 “But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light;”

4th March 2007 – The bible is truly amazing, there were some things about what happened that night that didn't quite make sense, and just casual reading through the bible, came upon some verse. Now, what I'm trying to say is that I am very sure that the person speaking to me was not Michael the Archangel, but a demon of some sort. I say this because in 2 Corinthians 11:14-15 And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light. Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their works.

And also in the book of Job, God has Satan on a leash, he cant do anything without Gods permission. So either way, whether it was Michael or a demon, the end result was still the same. I came to Christ and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior.

Every single night when I try and go to sleep, I hear this voice in my ears. When my heart beats, it speaks to me. Says all sorts of different things that I know are not of God. Sometimes during the day, it will just plonk this thought in my mind, or even when I pray! It says, "I deny the Holy Spirit!" Then it tells me that I thought it! I say nonsense, and then proceed to say aloud John 3:16 and Romans 10:9

It’s truly amazing, God does answer prayers. For example, I stumbled upon this website where people record themselves and blaspheme the Holy Spirit. Christians will know what this means. So anyways, as I was reading what people had to do etc, I felt like something inside of me died.

So of course I was panicked about this, went to my IRC mentor. Told him what happened. So he told me that he read articles about what atheists had written etc, and told me if I didn’t mean it, then nothing would happen. But I still wasn’t convinced. So I prayed about it, and a few days later, while I was working. I got into the companies van, as soon as I got in, turned the ignition on. Now, when the ignition turned on, the radio came on. So, as I turned it on, this song started playing. Was the first time I ever heard this song. Lyrics were bout keep holding on, and staying strong. And soon as I heard this, I instantly knew it was God speaking to me. I did a little research later on, found out the song was by Avril Lavigne - Keep holding on. I would say listen to this song, and put yourself in my shoes, and you will see what I mean.
 

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8th March – This other lady came to our cell group. She brought her guitar with and played for us. We all sang and praised and worshipped our Lord. She told me afterwards that God had given her a message to tell me. She told me that God says that I must not get discouraged. That I must stay encouraged – I was getting discouraged because it felt like there was no end to this, like I felt like just giving up and not enduring.

22nd March – Myself, Freddy, Ashley and Nico stood in Freddy’s garden and we all prayed. God gave Ash a message to tell me. He said that I wasn’t using the power in His name. And I mustn’t stay in one place. Must go out and preach!

5th April – I have finished reading the book written by Benny Hinn, Good Morning, Holy Spirit. And in there, God confirmed something with me that I was still not convinced with. ““But may I give you a word of comfort? Before Jesus ever talked about blasphemy, He made a very important statement you should read once again. He said: “He who Is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters abroad “ (Mat 12:30). If you are working for Christ, you do not fall into the category of His warning. When the Lord spoke on the topic of blasphemy, He made it absolutely clear that He was admonishing the people who were not working with Him. Ask yourself, “Am I with Him?” If the answer is yes, then ask “Do I gather souls for Him?” If the answer is still yes, you can say, “Then I will never blaspheme the Spirit.”” – Page 154 Good Morning, Holy Spirit.

“A teenage girl once came to me convinced she had blasphemed the Holy Ghost. “Are you worried?” I asked her

“Yes”, she said with a troubled look.

“Young lady”, I said “the very fact that you are worried means that you did not blaspheme the Spirit” You see, blasphemy is an act of the will that does not carry worry with it. Blasphemy is cursing Jesus and saying “I don’t care what He did!” It is saying, “Who cares how precious the blood is?” Blasphemy is insulting what God did and doing it willfully. You say, “Well, Benny, how do I know I’ll never commit that sin?” You will not commit that sin as you never want to commit it. Look closely at what Christ said. He said anyone who “speaks” against the Spirit will not be forgiven. That word is vital to Christ’s message. To speak indicates a deliberate act. It’s more than an idle thought. Your entire body becomes involved in the act of uttering a word. If the Spirit is blasphemed, He is reviled by those who have made a decision to blaspheme. It’s an act of violation, a choice that you must exercise. Where is Satan in all of this? From the dealing with people as a minister I know how the devil comes to people and tries to fill their minds with evil thoughts about the Holy Ghost. Would you expect any less of him? Perhaps it has happened to you. Have you ever had some “unbecoming” thought enter your mind that you wish had never come? Who launched that evil thought in your direction? Of course it was Satan. But did you speak that thought out loud? No! The reason you kept silent was that it was not your thought. It is the person who speaks against the Holy Ghost who has made a decision to blaspheme. It is the one who says, “I’m going to blaspheme, and I don’t care what God thinks!” The point I am making is that you can’t blaspheme as long as you decide to live for Jesus and stick with it”” – Page 155 – 156 Good Morning, Holy Spirit. “”

After reading this, God confirmed this to me again. Now I have laid it to rest! Last week some time, I would say the 10th April or so, I was depressed quite a lot. For a few days I was like this. I felt depressed because I wanted my life partner – my soul mate

On the 12th April, we had cell again. Our pastor came and spoke to us. He was talking about dating and courtship etc. What stood out of that was this message. He said that we should always seek first the Kingdom of God, and all things will be added to us. We must not go and look out for a partner, as then we are not putting God first. This message was directly meant for me. I cried out to God about meeting my life partner. And now He has answered me regarding this. Something also happened that night. You see, when I was about 15 or 16, there was this girl in my high school. I was in love with her so much, I would have done anything for her. In reality, I gave her my heart. And she crushed me. My whole high school career, and even after high school, I was depressed. This depression led me to drug abuse for 5 years..

I told the pastor about this girl and how she crushed me. He prayed with me and I repeated after him, “I return my heart back to me now”. “I cut off any soul ties that was attached to this girl” I felt a lot better after that. When I got home from cell, I was on my pc, doing some things. When this overwhelming joy suddenly came over me. I was so full of joy I wanted to burst out and praise God! I have never, ever, felt so joyful before. Praise God ! I knew that He was with me, and imparted His joy into my life then.

19th April – I have struggled and still struggling to yield and fully submit to God. Just some casual of the monthly magazine, vision (sent by TBN), and I came upon this. April 2007 issue, page 10 “God wants a relationship with you, not just an occasional meeting. He wants a daily, intimate connection. Remember, you are as close to God right now as you want to be. He’s not holding back. He’s just waiting on you. It’s your move and He would love to have a closer relationship with you!” I knew then that He was speaking to me about my struggle. And He is providing answers for me and talking to me through various things. I just love how He works. Praise Jesus, amen! But yet I am still struggling, I want to submit, but there’s something holding me back. I don’t know what it is, but it feels like something evil has entangled my heart. Like I want to grow and move forward. But cant. Only way to describe it is like this. Imagine an onion, now the inside of the onion is the goodness and love etc. The skin of the onion is the evil that I am talking about. And because that layer is there, I cannot grow.
 
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I would like to tell you of My experience of Micehal the Arch angel. Your expeiernce & mine ARE VERY SIMILAR!!! I never heard Micheal Speak until a few days ago...shortly before I had a vision of God opening up the window of Heaven!!! My spiritual warefare began about 5-6 years ago, & I am now about to be delivered...any day!!!! Email me so I can tell you at: piya99829@yahoo.com

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Hi Kuga! I remember your post from before! Listen, I think you should do blog on this! It makes a Great read!!!!!! And its all yours! People can comment only,(No posting from readers and can not attack! ) I completely understand your struggles! Well, maybe not completely, but I understand a good amount! It sounds as if you are being prepared for something! Keep up the good fight!
 
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True Hope,
I think you got confused...I (Ruoycss) replied to Kuga's DREAMZ, trying to help her. You sent me a message...in Kuga's name.
My story is a powerful one!!!AS I AM SURE
KUGA'S WILL BE TOO!!!

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Woops!:wave: Somehow my brain slipped up! :sorry:
 
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