I feel the need to share my testamony , it is something I very rarely do because it is so very hard to talk about. But here goe!
I come from a poor family of 7 kids, both parents were in bad health, when I was 9 yrs old my father died suddenly from massive stroke.Seven months after that my 8 yr old sister was ran over and killed in the street by a drunk driver. at that time an adult cousin raped me and abused ny for yrs to come. I was 2nd to youngest child , when my father died i had 5 older siblings with the three older ones already grown . which left me and 2 brothers after my little sis was killed. Mother had had a mental break down 4 yrs befor I was born and after the deaths of my father and sister got worse. she was mentally cruel to me and said things like it should have been me to die instead of my sister. my 2 brothers at 12 and 16 yrs old at the time quit school and were running wild. I was being raped repeatedly and had no one to protect me or love me . the people in our community called us white trash just because we were poor!by the time I was 13 I had lost the will to live. I hated everyone and every thing!one night as I had cried every tear I could cry I started planning my suicide. I was lying in bed and planning the details and suddenly i felt the presence of someone and heard a voice as plain as day say I love you!I knew without a shadow of dought I was in the presence of GOD. I had not been to church but had listened to Billy Graham a few times on tv. as i was lying there i started talking to God. And before I knew it , day light had come. I felt different, I thought maybe there is something to this GOD thing!maybe He does love me. I felt a serge of strenght that I had not felt befor and the next time that my cousin tried to rape me I Scremed at himif he did this to me again I would tell the entir world abot it until I found some one to beleive me!And he stoped and never touched me again! PRAISE THE LORD. when I was 17 I excepted Christ as savior. But my trials were not over. I was married at 19 for all the wrong reasons just to get away from home My husband drinks and we started arguing alot and I became ill ended up in hos, I was having panick attacks and flash backs to the rapes., had to quit working. I was diognosed with lupus, Fibromyalgia, reynauds syndromem high blood pressure, IBS,I found a very good christian counselar who helped me but most of all JESUS CHRIST has pulled me through ! I am still married to my husband who is still drinking but I pray for him every day I have 2 children, My 22 yr old son was nearly killefd in car wreck last year but GOD healed him of a broken back in 7 places! I have an 11 yr old daughter also. I am a Childrens suday school teacher and love it! I think kids are a preacous gift of GOD to be treasured!and I am constantly amazed at GODS MERCY AND LOVE!
I come from a poor family of 7 kids, both parents were in bad health, when I was 9 yrs old my father died suddenly from massive stroke.Seven months after that my 8 yr old sister was ran over and killed in the street by a drunk driver. at that time an adult cousin raped me and abused ny for yrs to come. I was 2nd to youngest child , when my father died i had 5 older siblings with the three older ones already grown . which left me and 2 brothers after my little sis was killed. Mother had had a mental break down 4 yrs befor I was born and after the deaths of my father and sister got worse. she was mentally cruel to me and said things like it should have been me to die instead of my sister. my 2 brothers at 12 and 16 yrs old at the time quit school and were running wild. I was being raped repeatedly and had no one to protect me or love me . the people in our community called us white trash just because we were poor!by the time I was 13 I had lost the will to live. I hated everyone and every thing!one night as I had cried every tear I could cry I started planning my suicide. I was lying in bed and planning the details and suddenly i felt the presence of someone and heard a voice as plain as day say I love you!I knew without a shadow of dought I was in the presence of GOD. I had not been to church but had listened to Billy Graham a few times on tv. as i was lying there i started talking to God. And before I knew it , day light had come. I felt different, I thought maybe there is something to this GOD thing!maybe He does love me. I felt a serge of strenght that I had not felt befor and the next time that my cousin tried to rape me I Scremed at himif he did this to me again I would tell the entir world abot it until I found some one to beleive me!And he stoped and never touched me again! PRAISE THE LORD. when I was 17 I excepted Christ as savior. But my trials were not over. I was married at 19 for all the wrong reasons just to get away from home My husband drinks and we started arguing alot and I became ill ended up in hos, I was having panick attacks and flash backs to the rapes., had to quit working. I was diognosed with lupus, Fibromyalgia, reynauds syndromem high blood pressure, IBS,I found a very good christian counselar who helped me but most of all JESUS CHRIST has pulled me through ! I am still married to my husband who is still drinking but I pray for him every day I have 2 children, My 22 yr old son was nearly killefd in car wreck last year but GOD healed him of a broken back in 7 places! I have an 11 yr old daughter also. I am a Childrens suday school teacher and love it! I think kids are a preacous gift of GOD to be treasured!and I am constantly amazed at GODS MERCY AND LOVE!
