My Take On OCD

[JamesAH]

OCD to me is an extremely debilitating illness to the point where it affects your life 10 fold robs you from enjoying things in life whether it being reading,spending time with family or even the most important thing and that is worshiping God.

OCD creates false illusions but those illusions are so real you feel like they're your own thoughts so you fight and fight and fight until you find your real thoughts but then this is where OCD becomes worse you start to think once again that those real thoughts might not be your real thoughts and that the OCD thoughts are your real thoughts it's a vicious cycle.

Almost 2 hours ago I had a very bad anxiety attack to the point of it almost being a full blown panic attack I had to lie on the couch(tried taking a shower but that didn't help)to calm myself down and had to focus on my real thoughts thank heavens the Lord was there to help me(if it was him).

To me OCD has gripped me like a vice grip not wanting to let go.It's so hard to focus all your feelings into one single thought but you can't because your thoughts are like puzzle pieces scattered all across your mind and you're trying to put the pieces together.

And even thought some people might say just let it go it's just the OCD don't fight it that to me personally is like trying to drag a semi truck with a trailer up a steep hill I can't just simply let it go because I have to fight and get rid of that unwanted thought(s)out for a lot of OCD suffers it's extremely difficult just to let it go.

On top of it it's so hard to put your faith in God because you're worried that you're going to feel or say something wrong and that you're going to be punished by God even though deep down he's there for you still OCD makes you act and feel differently then what you want to feel.

I did go down to the doctor he upped my dosage of the med I'm taking and if this doesn't work I'm going to go back and try something stronger.

Communities like this are good it's nice to surround yourself with loving and caring people even though it's a forum this is why God is awesome he bestows love to people so they can share that love with others that need it.

Just remember you're not alone God is there even though you might not think it but he's there and there are those who are going through the same thing like me.

God bless you all.

 

[Jayangel81]

[QUOTEI can't just simply let it go because I have to fight and get rid of that unwanted thought(s)out for a lot of OCD suffers it's extremely difficult just to let it go.

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In the end tho, you need to try because by fighting it your just empowering it and making it worse. This is very dangerous. You really need to give exposure and response therapy a try.

On top of it it's so hard to put your faith in God because you're worried that you're going to feel or say something wrong and that you're going to be punished by God even though deep down he's there for you still OCD makes you act and feel differently then what you want to feel.

You can use this to persevere through it. Alot of times this illness is used by God to build up our great faith and trust in Him. While God just didnt do this but He may have just let it go because of it. Because in the end it isnt just your feelings you need to do battle with but its the spiritual realm also, and this..my friend is where some people fail. Many people on this forum need to be milked with Gods Word.


Nonetheless you summed up OCD in a nutshell

Keep fighting James.

 

[JamesAH]

Why is it dangerous?

 

[Jayangel81]

Its not dangerous where its gonna hurt you physically but you need to understand the more you give OCD power the worse its gonna get. Its ran off of fear and anxiety.

People normally fight their OCD by canceling things out or getting overworked and inside their heads they just fight with it. By doing so you are just empowering it, and it can get dangerous. I pretty much traumatized myself at one point because I empowered it so badly..

Dont give OCD a second thought, as hard as that may sound. As we like to say "let it be".

I never said it was easy tho thats why we say practice exposure and response, its not easy to grasp onto especially at first.

understand what im saying?

Ok so I have blasphemous thoughts about God, just keeps going on forever. So instead of fearing it and causing myself extra anxiety over it (will make it worse) cut it off at its roots. I was afraid to blaspheme God, I really believed in my head that He would send me to hell if I thought bad things about Him..so it went on and on until something happened.. The realization of no matter what happens in my head, God will welcome me with open arms.

At times I laughed about it to myself, I wasnt giving it power to control MY fear and anxiety. The second I did, Bam! it comes on twice as fast, and twice as ugly. As I said in abother thread, OCD revolves around what we care most of all in life, what more important is our relationship with God and our salvation. Your fear controls you, and that is dangerous. How can I not let fear control me? How can I find rest within this sick and twisted illness? I Trust God! reguardless of what I see hear think and obsess over it.

God gave me a personal revelation on why it must be done and I wouldnt be suprised if It was for alot of us.