my story

[orangecrush98]

Last year one sunday i went foward to be saved at church . I started to be afraid cause i wasnt sure what happened . I didnt want to lie and say i got saved and didnt or something . Anyway since that day i get up everyday , allday asking Jesus to save me . I cant do anything cause im scared im not saved and ill need to pray and ask God to save me.So i stay close to a place where i can get alone and ask . My body is so worn out that now i cant hardly think and i hurt everywhere . I even have dreamed about hell and stuff . Feels like im gonna fall .

 

[kaykay637]

Last year one sunday i went foward to be saved at church . I started to be afraid cause i wasnt sure what happened . I didnt want to lie and say i got saved and didnt or something . Anyway since that day i get up everyday , allday asking Jesus to save me . I cant do anything cause im scared im not saved and ill need to pray and ask God to save me.So i stay close to a place where i can get alone and ask . My body is so worn out that now i cant hardly think and i hurt everywhere . I even have dreamed about hell and stuff . Feels like im gonna fall .

Sorry you are struggling so much. Many, many people deal with these type of salvation issues. Even some who don't battle OCD.

I think the following website is worth a look:

www.net-burst.net/guilty/scrupulosity.htm

It really affirms God's love for us in my opinion. Also, do you have a trusted pastor or counselor you are currently speaking with?
Praying for you.
kaykay

 

[orangecrush98]

i dont get to talk to anyone hardly .

 

[kaykay637]

i dont get to talk to anyone hardly .

Well, I don't know what your situation is, but it would be worth your while, I think, to seek someone out who could counsel you about this if there's any way you can do that at all.

 

[orangecrush98]

i wish there was a way . thanks

 

[kaykay637]

i wish there was a way . thanks

Well, we're here on this forum for ya too. Prayers coming your way. When I used to struggle with this, I asked God for salvation over and over again. I finally began to understand that it didn't have to be perfect. He heard me the very first time I came to Him. My .02 anyway.

 

[orangecrush98]

thankyou so much !

 

[QUannie]

Orangecrush98,
I am so sorry you are struggling....I prayed for you!
If you have asked Jesus to save you, He says He will, you believe the fact that He is the Savior because you asked Him to save you.....He does not lie.....He does not decieve.
John 6:37 Jesus says" All that the father gives to me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away."

So, if we have come to Jesus that means the Father has called us and when we come to Jesus He does not drive us away......don't depend on your feelings.....depend and trust in the authority of who Jesus is and God's Word, He promises us.
I know it is not easy, I am struggling right now too with something bad happening......Thank you for the pm also.....
Please just trust Jesus, don't give up, He loves you,

Father God,
I come in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, Who alone desearves all praise and worship! Father, I lift up my brother OC98, you know his every thought, you know his fear and you know his needs, Lord, give him rest, give him what he needs to sustain....show him how much you love him by your Word Lord....
and all of us who are struggling with this disorder, help us O God, we are weak and need you every minute, give us courage and strength and increase our faith in You! God, we need You!!! You are our shelter and shield,rise up O God of our salvation and defend us, protect us, guide and deliver us, help us, please Lord help us.......
all according to your will Lord, thanks you for dieing for our sins, and saving us Lord, thank you that you love us no matter how we feel....GLORY TO YOU O GOD!!!
in Jesus Name i pray, amen!

Q

 

[OptimisticSmile]

Orange Crush your story is very similar to my story. just remeber it is not praying a prayer that saves us it is God's gift of Christ. Our thoughts of him and our feelings may change so we must focus on the one constant in this life and that is Jesus Christ, his blood and his promises. He says that if you confess with your mouth and know in your heart that God has raised Christ from the dead then you shall be saved. That you continue to worry about salvation and continue to confess proves that you know all the essentials needed for salvation. You are constantly recognizing that you are a sinner and that you need Jesus to be your savior. That would not happen if you were not saved. It is natural for man to run away from God not toward him.

welcome to teh boards follow the advice here because these people have helped me tremendously and do not , I repeat DO NOT go to other parts of this websight looking for assurence. DO NOT do researxch on the internet. This will only make things worse. Just follow the advice here and visit the recommended sights.

 

[orangecrush98]

Thanks kay , Q , and optimistic !