My story! Is it over for me?

[GaveMeJoy]

I've heard this said a lot, but where is the proof? The bible provides very little information about the unforgivable sin.

I am concerned, that's why I made this post to begin with. Whenever a bad thought enters my mind I at least feel the urge to verbally say "No! I love God!", "I reject and rebuke all negative thoughts about God" or something similar.

However my emotional reaction is very low, I am not sobbing about it nor does any great fear take over me due to this emotional numbness that I have. That said I know that I do not agree with these thoughts so maybe that helps with keeping me calm as well.

While the Bible isn’t clear about the forgivable sin, the rest of scripture are extremely clear about all sin acts, sins you can do, and that they can all be forgiven.

Therefore you have a decision: is the rest of the Bible wrong, or does the unforgivable sin mean disbelief/not believing in a Christ?

If you would like to read all the verses about never losing your salvation google “verses about can’t lose salvation”

 

[Job405]

Lately it feels like I am cursed. I have been having so much bad luck in recent days and weeks. Like a few days ago I bought this car and it turns out it had a big rust problem and the engine warning light was turned on (previous owner said it was the window washer light). Buying it was part bad luck part stupidity on my own part.

The blasphemous thoughts have gotten worse, they are just constant throughout the day without ceasing. How can anyone live like this? I reject and rebuke them all of course but when I try to ignore them it just gets worse.

 

[Job405]

The blasphemous thoughts got really bad today, and I am afraid I may have committed the unpardonable sin. There were bad thoughts about the Holy Spirit swirling in my head and I was verbally saying "No" to each of them. Then for a split second in my head I said "Yes" to one of these bad thoughts despite not actually agreeing with it, and repented immediately. I felt really horrible after and now I still feed bad and anxious about it and God feels distant. Then it happened a second time. I know I still love God but these thoughts have been relentless and its wearing me down. I can't fight it in my own strength, but I do not know what to do.

 

[Mari17]

The blasphemous thoughts got really bad today, and I am afraid I may have committed the unpardonable sin. There were bad thoughts about the Holy Spirit swirling in my head and I was verbally saying "No" to each of them. Then for a split second in my head I said "Yes" to one of these bad thoughts despite not actually agreeing with it, and repented immediately. I felt really horrible after and now I still feed bad and anxious about it and God feels distant. Then it happened a second time. I know I still love God but these thoughts have been relentless and its wearing me down. I can't fight it in my own strength, but I do not know what to do.

Please learn how to treat your OCD, and get a therapist if you need one! This is a very common obsession, and there are ways you can learn to deal with it. I'd be glad to point you to some resources if needed!

 

[Mari17]

Please learn how to treat your OCD, and get a therapist if you need one! This is a very common obsession, and there are ways you can learn to deal with it. I'd be glad to point you to some resources if needed!

Here's a link to strategies (from a Christian therapist!) for dealing with this kind of obsession: UNPARDONABLE SIN: THERAPY – OCD & CHRISTIANITY

 

[Job405]

Today I messed up real bad. I was watching this YouTube video and had an onslaught of bad thoughts. I made the mistake of trying to verbally combat them by saying good things (I still do this but idk what else I should do). Then I was distracted and by mistake said one of the bad thoughts (which was against the Holy Spirit) out loud and immediately felt really bad and repented.

It was not blaspheming Him but something else (more like telling Him to leave), however the thought was over before I even knew it began, and there was no intention behind what I said, it was just something that came into my thought stream and I said it. I didn't plan to say it, I didn't mean it, I just blurted out those words which were from the enemy 100%.

In the Bible it says every idle word will be judged by God. I just hope God can forgive this slip up because it was totally by mistake. I still feel an urge to please God so maybe there is still hope. And I know in my heart that I love the Holy Spirit and I only want to please Him.

But today I stumbled big time. This may be it for me, I am just hoping for some reassurance from God that it's not over. However I might never get that if this is it for me.

 

[Mari17]

Today I messed up real bad. I was watching this YouTube video and had an onslaught of bad thoughts. I made the mistake of trying to verbally combat them by saying good things (I still do this but idk what else I should do). Then I was distracted and by mistake said one of the bad thoughts (which was against the Holy Spirit) out loud and immediately felt really bad and repented.

It was not blaspheming Him but something else (more like telling Him to leave), however the thought was over before I even knew it began, and there was no intention behind what I said, it was just something that came into my thought stream and I said it. I didn't plan to say it, I didn't mean it, I just blurted out those words which were from the enemy 100%.

In the Bible it says every idle word will be judged by God. I just hope God can forgive this slip up because it was totally by mistake. I still feel an urge to please God so maybe there is still hope. And I know in my heart that I love the Holy Spirit and I only want to please Him.

But today I stumbled big time. This may be it for me, I am just hoping for some reassurance from God that it's not over. However I might never get that if this is it for me.

Actually, I've heard lots of people with this obsession say this kind of thing. I think our OCD tries to get us to think that we can "accidentally" sin in this way, but that's not true. Please keep learning all you can about OCD/scrupulosity and how to deal with it. I can suggest more resources if needed!

 

[Job405]

Actually, I've heard lots of people with this obsession say this kind of thing. I think our OCD tries to get us to think that we can "accidentally" sin in this way, but that's not true. Please keep learning all you can about OCD/scrupulosity and how to deal with it. I can suggest more resources if needed!

Sure but I think I have both religious OCD and demonic attacks. The Holy Spirit is still with me I felt Him today. I have been fasting, praying and listening to the Bible. I feel this has helped me somewhat. Jesus says in the Bible that some demons can only be removed through fasting and prayer.

 

[Mari17]

Sure but I think I have both religious OCD and demonic attacks. The Holy Spirit is still with me I felt Him today. I have been fasting, praying and listening to the Bible. I feel this has helped me somewhat. Jesus says in the Bible that some demons can only be removed through fasting and prayer.

OK...I'm glad if it's working for you, though I must admit that I strongly disagree that mental disorders are caused by demons, which is why I recommend learning how to treat the disorder itself (the OCD, in your case).

 

[Job405]

OK...I'm glad if it's working for you, though I must admit that I strongly disagree that mental disorders are caused by demons, which is why I recommend learning how to treat the disorder itself (the OCD, in your case).

I didn't say all mental disorders are caused by demons, but in my case it seems to be. Because I can communicate with this entity and meds don't work. We even tried the strongest antipsychotic which almost killed me by essentially disabling my immune system. It had no effect on the entity and my communications with it.

Personally I think I may both be attacked by a demon or several, and have OCD.

Yesterday I was listening to the KJV Bible and had very few intrusive thoughts for a period that lasted several hours.

 

[curlycurl]

Today I messed up real bad. I was watching this YouTube video and had an onslaught of bad thoughts. I made the mistake of trying to verbally combat them by saying good things (I still do this but idk what else I should do). Then I was distracted and by mistake said one of the bad thoughts (which was against the Holy Spirit) out loud and immediately felt really bad and repented.

It was not blaspheming Him but something else (more like telling Him to leave), however the thought was over before I even knew it began, and there was no intention behind what I said, it was just something that came into my thought stream and I said it. I didn't plan to say it, I didn't mean it, I just blurted out those words which were from the enemy 100%.

In the Bible it says every idle word will be judged by God. I just hope God can forgive this slip up because it was totally by mistake. I still feel an urge to please God so maybe there is still hope. And I know in my heart that I love the Holy Spirit and I only want to please Him.

But today I stumbled big time. This may be it for me, I am just hoping for some reassurance from God that it's not over. However I might never get that if this is it for me.

The exact same thing happened to me.
I repeat sentences out loud all day to combat intrusive thoughts and it happened to me twice now that I slipped up and said something bad out loud instead. Completely on accident and without meaning it.

I'm not sure if you have been diagnosed with OCD but I think it would be good to try to find professional help. Because it does sound like you have it. Our brain does not work like normal people's brain, we live in constant anxiety and distress.

This video of pastor Tim Conway helped me alot. I believe that the bible does not contradict itself and Jesus says that whoever comes to him, he will never cast out John 6:37 .Then how come people can commit a sin that's unforgivable? Well than those who commited the sin will not want to come to Christ. If you want to run to Jesus, that's a pretty good indicator that you haven't commited this sin.
The Holy spirit is who convicts us of sin. We can not do this ourselves

 

[Job405]

The exact same thing happened to me.
I repeat sentences out loud all day to combat intrusive thoughts and it happened to me twice now that I slipped up and said something bad out loud instead. Completely on accident and without meaning it.

I'm not sure if you have been diagnosed with OCD but I think it would be good to try to find professional help. Because it does sound like you have it. Our brain does not work like normal people's brain, we live in constant anxiety and distress.

This video of pastor Tim Conway helped me alot. I believe that the bible does not contradict itself and Jesus says that whoever comes to him, he will never cast out John 6:37 .Then how come people can commit a sin that's unforgivable? Well than those who commited the sin will not want to come to Christ. If you want to run to Jesus, that's a pretty good indicator that you haven't commited this sin.
The Holy spirit is who convicts us of sin. We can not do this ourselves

Yeah I have seen this video before. And I do kind of agree that only the Holy Ghost can convict us of sin, so if we still feel convicted and drawn toward God it's not over.

I just started a new medication called Abilify, although I am using a generic version of that medicine which is cheaper. It's only my second day but it seems to have helped. I have also quit caffeinated drinks for now and that seems to also calm down my mind.

But it also seems to me that I am under demonic attack, either that or I have true schizophrenia and a split personality that believes it is a demon. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia but the meds have had little to no effect.

 

[Job405]

I just messed up again, and again. I was saying out loud "I love the Holy Spirit" multiple times, and was distracted and my brain changed it to something else regarding the Holy Spirit that I dare not mention.

Then I was talking to my mother (which makes me anxious because she is a very anxious person) on the phone and I was repeating in my head "The Holy Spirit is a good Spirit" to cancel out the bad thoughts but I mistakenly thought something bad about the Holy Spirit.

 

[Job405]

I've had this for a while but I keep seeing the numbers 666, 616, 66 etc. everywhere, multiple times a day. Like I will look at my watch and its 6:06PM, or a YouTube video has 66K views. Maybe a week or so ago I made a post to get prayers on the website reddit where the post ID was gj2666. gj 2 666, figure out what that means for yourself.

Is it just coincidence and OCD, or is God trying to tell me something?

 

[Tania11]

@Job405 That's a classic OCD problem. OCD is looking for something to worry and obsess about. I had your problem as well. I saw two mark of the beast numbers in one day and thought I was doomed. It's NOT God trying to drive you away from Him. That's not what He's about.

 

[Hopeful37]

I've had this for a while but I keep seeing the numbers 666, 616, 66 etc. everywhere, multiple times a day. Like I will look at my watch and its 6:06PM, or a YouTube video has 66K views. Maybe a week or so ago I made a post to get prayers on the website reddit where the post ID was gj2666. gj 2 666, figure out what that means for yourself.

Is it just coincidence and OCD, or is God trying to tell me something?

Do what is right before Him. I don't believe God will forsake a repentant person. I never saw it in the Word of God nor can recall it anywhere.

 

[Job405]

This morning I really messed up again. There was a thought in my mind about denying Christ. I did not mean it but it was more like testing God. I am using this new medicine called Abilify that makes people more prone to engage in risky behavior, I think part of it was due to that medicine. Obviously I still believe in Christ, and repented immediately from that thought but this may be it for me. I hope God understands and forgives because I still love him and adore him and want to serve God, that's how I feel. I truly repent from that thought. Pray for me that I might be forgiven!