My story, a bit crazy

[roseofchrist]

Hi, I have been handling most of my mental problems pretty well, my medicine is working and I am staying active, but I don't get out much. I am working on my art, drawing, painting, and some writing. I am feeling lonely though, and wanting friends. I live with my parents. My mom is having trouble cleaning up, dad is frustrated with her. I would like to help my mom, she saves things most people would throw out. I don't know what to do with the stuff.


I would like to make friends with people on this site. If you need to know more about me, just ask. Of course, common sense applies to privacy.


Well... I am from Florida, my family is southern, but we're not rednecks. I grew up southern baptist, my parents are mainly democrat, I'm a democrat and now I like the Methodist churches better. I have some mental illness problems from a difficult birth, but God gave me a gift, what can seem like a stumbling stone in your path can be a stepping stone to climb over, the stumbling block for arrogant people is the cornerstone, the stone rolled away from Jesus' tomb, the stone rejected became the cornerstone or capstone of God's temple.

I wasn't always this positive about my problems, it took me years with the Lord's comfort, the way he showed me the light, my dad and mom, teachers, pastors, Sunday school teachers, counselors, psychiatrists, friends, there have been many people in my life who have helped me. I remember reading and hearing Bible stories in church and at home, when I was little I went to a private fundamentalist protestant christian school, we learned bible stories there. I also liked fairy tales, liked to read. I liked Disney, but now Disney is sinking down and down a slippery slope.


I went to public school when I was 8, and our family got a dog, a cute cuddly cocker spaniel named Lucas. My sister and I had some good summers, I've had some nice pets over the years. I love my sister, her problems are worse than mine, but we did not kow that. Lucas was such a sweet dog, I really loved him, he was very pretty. __________________

 

[roseofchrist]

My mom went to give my sister art lessons, she brought me along and the art teacher said I was the one with art talent, so I started taking art lessons and I was good at it, I like art, I like researching art history. I was worried about the commandment against graven images, then I read about the tabernacle/temple, God ordered the artisans to make a gold covering for the ark with seraphim, angels on it, and gold candle sticks with almond blossoms.
There's a major difference between art and idol worship.

My 4th, 5th grade teacher started me on writing, I started writing stories and poems.

I had some trouble in middle school, I was shy, my mental problems were discovered when I was 9 in third grade. I had trouble being in a public school. I was sent to the school psychiatrist. Then I went into special classes from 4th, to 5th grade. When I was in 6th grade, age 11, I started seeing psychiatrists. I didn't understand at first. My family moved to another town, then I went to high school. I had trouble with other kids and bullies picking on me. We went to church. I had trouble deciding what I believed in. I liked fantasy novels, and read about dragons, and magic, the battle between good and evil. I read about different religions. I heard bad stuff about Christianity. I read some bad things in the Bible, violence in Deuteronomy, Numbers, Judges, the bloody genocide when the Israelites conquered the Promise land. The Bible notes excused it by saying the slaughtered Canaanites sacrificed their own children to heathen idol-gods, but then it says God ordered the Israelites to leave no living thing alive, they would kill the children and babies too, what was the point? I tried wicca and new age, tried liberal new age Christianity.


I was very depressed. I graduated from high school. My problems got worse. I have social security disability insurance. __________________