My son...

[Yasha]

Please pray for my son.

I HAD TO ALTER THIS POST FOR MY SON'S PRIVACY. I BELIEVE THE CONFIDENTIALITY IN THIS FORUM HAS BEEN COMPROMISED IN OUR FAMILY. I'M SORRY......ANYONE WHO MAY HAVE READ THIS, PLEASE PRAY. FOR THOSE WHO DIDN'T, THE LORD KNOWS THE NEED.

I pray the Lord will divide out the strongholds that have plagued this family. I pray the Lord will interfere with this relationship if it has no good end for him. His guilt over it and the realities of this sexual abuse family are what drove him to suicidal crack use two years running. If there is ground to be covered toward greater recovery for him, then so be it. But, if there is no good to come from this, then may God intervene with swift wrath and block the enemy in his plotting. I know the innocence in my son that seeks resolution. I also know the lust in him that seeks release. May the Lord confront the latter and once and for all sure up a victory against this testing of boundaries in them both, if that is the purpose. May the 'triggers' be highlighted in Neon Signs and the doors out in hypnotic Light. The Lord be victorious and gain the glory over this thing.

He is too old to be receiving admonishment from me. I also don't pretend to know if this is the Lord's will to create resolution or his demons haunting him. Please Jesus, rescue us from ourselves. End the reign of ignorance, fear, lust and destruction over our family and the children past, present and future. Be glorified in our lives, in praise, in Your presence, in hearts filled with thankfulness for deliverance and in the evident love that testifies that we are indeed Your children.

Shachah, Shaqat, Bit-chah, yasha'!!!!!!!!

Amen

 

[Nan1]

I thank God that your son has a mom like you. Kids (no matter their age) never seem to appreciate what us parents go through until they themselves become parents. At least seems that way...

I pray in agreement with you for your son to breakthrough the strongholds the enemy has in his life. I pray that you will find peace and continued wisdom in prayer and revelation to his circumstances. I pray Lord that this woman, your daughter has favor in your eyes. I thank you, Lord for intercession. May peace, restoration, conviction, and wisdom flow into the family. Thank you, Jesus,for your love and mercy. Amen.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Agreeing with you in prayer for your son..Father hear this mothers heart and honor it...Amen

 

[GuineaP]

Praying for your family's healing.

Guinea

 

[BlondieLashes]

Hi Shachah! I have been reading your posts and praying for you for the past week. You are a tremendous Christian woman! May God bless you and give you the strength to go on!

I would like to share one of my favorite quotes with you (I have it memorized as I have had to repeat it over and over to myself in tough times...)

"True commitment begins when we reach the point of not knowing how we can possibly go on, and decide to do it anyway."

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[Yasha]

I guess I am there, I should definitely be committed. hehe just kidding........today.

Glory...does not belong to any who suffer these momentary difficulties, though they seem endless now, glory comes only in ONE size, Jesus'. Thank God we met Him.

A special thank you to each of you who prayed here. This is no small request and no small problem. The enemy would love to continue to hold on to this family for a few more generations, I'm sure. My son is such a key member of this battle, because he is a strong Christian with a growing heart and beauty on the outside leaving him vulnerable to pride and lusts and too many options, as beauty will. To bring him under captivity in these issues would so serve the enemy's purposes. He has been through so much abuse from so many sides, as has his father. I am the fly in the ointment, and sometimes my guys hate me for that, too. I will not accept the 'status quo' from their abusive mothers or fathers....everybody has to raise their bar on this. No one of us can raise any bars without the Lord's merciful provision of deliverance and favor. So, binding me and my Christian men is a path the enemy wishes we'll fall to. My son does not have the strength, hindsight and experience that my husband and I have for the battles. He is on the mercy of Jesus' providence and protection living out on his own. These prayers of petition to the Lord for him mean SOOOO much to me.

So, Thanks for praying for my son. He is in a difficult place. I finally did get a call back from SIA (Survivors of Incest Anonymous). I am looking forward to their mailing of a list of meetings. I was encouraged to have the news to share with my son when I see him Wednesday. There is a men's meeting in his area. I ask that the Lord prepare his heart to be open to that new fellowship. His addiction 12 steps DO NOT directly help him in dealing with the issues surrounding the abuse concerns at face value, only the symptomatic substance abuse. I know that underneath, a neglect for these concerns can topple him again. He skirts it all in his efforts, because there are no resources(that he is aware of) for dealing with this.

_I_ need this organization as well. I originally went looking on my own behalf. The added bonus of finding that there will be a men's group in his area was unexpected and a delightful surprise toward hope.

Thanks for your encouragement and prayers,
Love, Sha

 

[shazabella]

for you and son and hubby

- Shaz

 

[Yasha]

Well, I spent Wednesday evening with my son to go to see a band we both love. I thought the concert was fair to good, he thought, "That concert ROCKED!". We both love the band. I just think that though they sounded great, they are not the showman that I have seen in others. Their music does rock. And, they played it VERY well. I have been to so many concerts, that I have too large a comparison base for what great is, I guess. It was what it was. Anyway, it could have sucked and I still loved hanging out with my son. I adore him. We talked alot. It was a two hour drive each way.

I did tell him about the SIA (Survivors of Incest) groups. I left the literature with him. There are no meetings around us anywhere, except the men's meeting near his house...(coincidence, I think NOT!). I am praying that he will go and try it. He has some concerns about women and sex that would be better aired there than AA. I so hope for him to heal better than his dad has. He is so light years ahead of his dad already in some things...just as stuck in a few.

So, here we are again. A new resource for my son to try, a new counseling situation for my husband and me to try....worn out, but still pointing in the right direction. Praise God! I'm really beginning to get hopeful about the counselor who specializes in "male victimization" for our needs.

Maybe this is the hour before dawn.....the darkest and the most hopeful one....the one so vulnerable and so full of promise.

Please lift my guys...and me....loving these broken ones is such a struggle!

The Lord ministered to me in this on Thursday, just before one of the darkest evenings in my marriage:

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How does He DOOOOO this? How does He manage to always give me EXACTLY the scripture I need, exactly when I need it? He is amazing and awesome. I can't help but to trust THIS God. I adore Him! Hallelujah. amen Love, Sha