My Sin is lust.

[W2L]

I wouldn't come to a christian forum to brag about something like this, I posted this here as a means of penance,.

This isn't a Christian forum, its open to anyone.

 

[faroukfarouk]

I smoke it because cannabis is a natural herb and is mellow and useful in relieving aches and pains.

I guess like with a lot of things, different Christians will have different preferences and practices - such as also getting tattoos - which will vary a lot from place to place and individual to individual.

 

[NewbieinChrist]

I guess like with a lot of things, different Christians will have different preferences and practices - such as also getting tattoos - which will vary a lot from place to place and individual to individual.

Exactly! I don't expect people to share in my views. That's why I always say, live and let live.
~PEACE TO ALL MANKIND~

 

[faroukfarouk]

... she does know that I smoke it. When she visits, it's put up out of the way.

She might not even have asked you about it, has she? Some ppl aren't very curious, anyway.

 

[NewbieinChrist]

She might not even have asked you about it, has she? Some ppl aren't very curious, anyway.

We don't discuss it and I am quitting after 1 or 2 more good fasts.

 

[faroukfarouk]

We don't discuss it and I am quitting after 1 or 2 more good fasts.

So you feel you can quit?

I guess your daughter, knowing you do it, just prefers not to ask you about it.

 

[NewbieinChrist]

So you feel you can quit?

I guess your daughter, knowing you do it, just prefers not to ask you about it.

I guess.

 

[faroukfarouk]

I guess.

I guess it might work the other way round as well.

 

[bookofjade]

It's okay, Go ahead and forum your opinions. There is no way I can justify my sins, But everyone says pray about it, And overcome it. People think it's so easy to overcome something you were raised to be. No one knows my life and how I was raised in this world.. I am not blaming others for my weaknesses. But I had a brother and uncles that taught me to believe that a mans worth in this world was how many women he had had. I surpassed all expectation.. I don't even want to get into numbers. It wouldn't matter If I quoted numbers or not. There will always be a mixed company that will scoff in disbelief and others that would say that number doesn't even matter.. But the devil truly is devious, I out of pride was made to count a number and that number now hangs over me to show me what a sinner I am.. I don't care if you judge me. I hate myself for being proud, I hate myself for hurting peoples hearts. I hate myself for who I am inside. And people think it's as easy as being Reborn, But I am here to tell you, My weaknesses have not been erased. I am on my third marriage now, and I still desire women. The lust is so strong I have dreams about women that aren't my wife, And so many opportunities present themselves to cheat. And the women, they make it easy..You think I don't hate myself? I am on my third marriage right now, And I lost my first two wives by cheating.. I reach to God and God shows me love, But I still sin. The drive to lust is so strong it's like a drug that takes me over. If you hate me, then I deserve it. Because I hate myself And I have hurt so many hearts. The bible says I deserve the second death and I fear it. I fear the second death. But it's not fair that a drive to sin can be so strong it physically causes me to tingle all over my body. I don't want to Go to hell and I don't want the second Death And I love God. But the life I have lead is not normal, And the number of women is not under three digits and that is being very forgiving of myself.. I Love God so Much, Sometimes I can feel him there, holding my heart, God deserves better then me, But most people will say, pray, and try, And resist sin. I was raised that my value as a human was in the numbers of women I had taken. It was and is part of my very makeup. And I do understand it is sin. How can I be truly happy when I know the sins I commit are worthy of the second death. I hate myself. And others have the right to hate me to.

I use to hate myself for looking at porn until I realized, they're just concubines.

Started with a study of the sexual habits of the old testament characters. But what does the new testament say? Fornication is a sin, lust is a sin, adultery is a sin.

But didn't Jesus say, the prostitutes are getting into heaven before you.

I guess it's the heart that matters.

 

[faroukfarouk]

We don't discuss it and I am quitting after 1 or 2 more good fasts.

Of course, if you lived in Vancouver, you might think a bit differently?

 

[Received]

It's okay, Go ahead and forum your opinions. There is no way I can justify my sins, But everyone says pray about it, And overcome it. People think it's so easy to overcome something you were raised to be. No one knows my life and how I was raised in this world.. I am not blaming others for my weaknesses. But I had a brother and uncles that taught me to believe that a mans worth in this world was how many women he had had. I surpassed all expectation.. I don't even want to get into numbers. It wouldn't matter If I quoted numbers or not. There will always be a mixed company that will scoff in disbelief and others that would say that number doesn't even matter.. But the devil truly is devious, I out of pride was made to count a number and that number now hangs over me to show me what a sinner I am.. I don't care if you judge me. I hate myself for being proud, I hate myself for hurting peoples hearts. I hate myself for who I am inside. And people think it's as easy as being Reborn, But I am here to tell you, My weaknesses have not been erased. I am on my third marriage now, and I still desire women. The lust is so strong I have dreams about women that aren't my wife, And so many opportunities present themselves to cheat. And the women, they make it easy..You think I don't hate myself? I am on my third marriage right now, And I lost my first two wives by cheating.. I reach to God and God shows me love, But I still sin. The drive to lust is so strong it's like a drug that takes me over. If you hate me, then I deserve it. Because I hate myself And I have hurt so many hearts. The bible says I deserve the second death and I fear it. I fear the second death. But it's not fair that a drive to sin can be so strong it physically causes me to tingle all over my body. I don't want to Go to hell and I don't want the second Death And I love God. But the life I have lead is not normal, And the number of women is not under three digits and that is being very forgiving of myself.. I Love God so Much, Sometimes I can feel him there, holding my heart, God deserves better then me, But most people will say, pray, and try, And resist sin. I was raised that my value as a human was in the numbers of women I had taken. It was and is part of my very makeup. And I do understand it is sin. How can I be truly happy when I know the sins I commit are worthy of the second death. I hate myself. And others have the right to hate me to.

Your sin might be heavily motivated high levels of testosterone and dihydrotestosterone.

Call me old fashioned, but I think a person is more blameworthy for the least difficult things he is obliged to control in his life. Lust in today's sex-saturated, pornography-accessible society is pretty much the easiest sin to commit, and for that reason the least blameworthy. CS Lewis said something to this idea when he said the arrogant guy in church every Sunday is closer to hell than a prostitute.

 

[DogmaHunter]

I've been a christian since I was a child. And I do believe in and love God, It just, somehow, in my mind, The validation of worth from other people is what drives me. I am happy with my wife, I couldn't be any happier with anyone on earth. But I really am driven for the validation. It's nearly impossible to overcome.

Sounds to me like what you need is not more religion, but rather some psychological help from a professional.

Not to "cure" your lust. But rather for some self-reflection. The thing that gets my attention here, is how apparantly you validate your worth based on what other people think about you.

If your self-image is dependend on how other people perceive you, then you will never be happy with yourself. Because no matter what you do or how you behave, there will always be people who'll have plenty of negative opinions ready.

 

[terryjohn]

We are rightly ashamed of our sins and are so unconcerned with what others do and believe. We even find parents who care so little for their children they abandon them to the leading and teachings of strangers, then they weep and wail when their sons and daughters are crushed in their ignorance of the consequences of defying the nature of things. Surely state authorites can not be blamed for ripping children from drug taking hedonistic parents who abandon their so called loved ones to wilds of our streets?
The simple answer to destroying the power of sin over our lives and the misery it inflicts on others is to love others more.
Now I have said it before and I will say it again,
There is a love that I would steal for.
There is a love I would kill for.
There is a love I would cheat for.
There is a love I would turn gay for.
But in the end, I find such love is misleading and leads to the destruction of myself and others and is not worthy to be called love for it is not. Contary to public opinion, I find none of these things define what love is. Once you take the "I" out of the equation, we see love always protects, always values others before self. Love never selfishly abuse anothers. Should not a loving mother be a man's harshest critic? She should, if she actually cared. Self is death but love liberates all men from the destructive fanticies of the flesh.
1 Cor. 13:4-7 We sin and lust because we simply have not begun to love others.

 

[terryjohn]

We are rightly ashamed of our sins and are so unconcerned with what others do and believe. We even find parents who care so little for their children they abandon them to the leading and teachings of strangers, then they weep and wail when their sons and daughters are crushed in their ignorance of the consequences of defying the nature of things. Surely state authorites can not be blamed for ripping children from drug taking hedonistic parents who abandon their so called loved ones to wilds of our streets?
The simple answer to destroying the power of sin over our lives and the misery it inflicts on others is to love others more.
Now I have said it before and I will say it again,
There is a love that I would steal for.
There is a love I would kill for.
There is a love I would cheat for.
There is a love I would turn gay for.
But in the end, I find such love is misleading and leads to the destruction of myself and others and is not worthy to be called love for it is not. Contary to public opinion, I find none of these things define what love is. Once you take the "I" out of the equation, we see love always protects, always values others before self. Love never selfishly abuse anothers. Should not a loving mother be a man's harshest critic? She should, if she actually cared. Self is death but love liberates all men from the destructive fanticies of the flesh.
1 Cor. 13:4-7 We sin and lust because we simply have not begun to love others.

 

[Hawk Flint]

It's okay, Go ahead and forum your opinions. There is no way I can justify my sins, But everyone says pray about it, And overcome it. People think it's so easy to overcome something you were raised to be. No one knows my life and how I was raised in this world.. I am not blaming others for my weaknesses. But I had a brother and uncles that taught me to believe that a mans worth in this world was how many women he had had. I surpassed all expectation.. I don't even want to get into numbers. It wouldn't matter If I quoted numbers or not. There will always be a mixed company that will scoff in disbelief and others that would say that number doesn't even matter.. But the devil truly is devious, I out of pride was made to count a number and that number now hangs over me to show me what a sinner I am.. I don't care if you judge me. I hate myself for being proud, I hate myself for hurting peoples hearts. I hate myself for who I am inside. And people think it's as easy as being Reborn, But I am here to tell you, My weaknesses have not been erased. I am on my third marriage now, and I still desire women. The lust is so strong I have dreams about women that aren't my wife, And so many opportunities present themselves to cheat. And the women, they make it easy..You think I don't hate myself? I am on my third marriage right now, And I lost my first two wives by cheating.. I reach to God and God shows me love, But I still sin. The drive to lust is so strong it's like a drug that takes me over. If you hate me, then I deserve it. Because I hate myself And I have hurt so many hearts. The bible says I deserve the second death and I fear it. I fear the second death. But it's not fair that a drive to sin can be so strong it physically causes me to tingle all over my body. I don't want to Go to hell and I don't want the second Death And I love God. But the life I have lead is not normal, And the number of women is not under three digits and that is being very forgiving of myself.. I Love God so Much, Sometimes I can feel him there, holding my heart, God deserves better then me, But most people will say, pray, and try, And resist sin. I was raised that my value as a human was in the numbers of women I had taken. It was and is part of my very makeup. And I do understand it is sin. How can I be truly happy when I know the sins I commit are worthy of the second death. I hate myself. And others have the right to hate me to.

No one has the right to hate you. Rather, we must help you. You are not alone in your struggles, I'm right there with you. I have been falling back to these sins of lust. MY problem is, I think women are beautiful. Not in a wrong way, I like their faces, that's all. But the women that I think are the most beautiful, other people like to over [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ify. This was the devil's plan: Have me look up the women that I thought were the most beautiful (I won't say which country they are from because if I did I'd think I'd cause weaker brothers to stumble), and use the trashy women that are mixed with them to cause me to fall. The trash kept popping up, and the more I saw them, the more the lamp of my body (my eyes) was darkened(that is, the more I came to desire to look at the not so appropriate women. The more sinful I became). So, after I'd been darkened, I fell. It happened again last night.

You see, it begins with a sinful thought or sight. What you see goes to your mind, and the more it goes to your mind, the more it goes to your heart. When it gets to you heart, it becomes an action. This action becomes a habit. This habit, if left unchallenged, becomes a destiny.

Take your every thought captive to obey Christ. Ask God create in you a pure heart, ask for God to renew a steadfast and willing spirit to sustain you. Guard your heart, for everything you do will flow from it. If you feel tempted, call out to Christ. When I am tempted and I call out to Christ, the temptation is lessened. Not gone, but it becomes easier to resist the temptation.

And Christ is fully able to help those who are being tempted, for He was Himself made in the likeness of sinful man, and was tempted in all the ways we are, yet He never sinned. Because of His sufferings, He is fully able to help us when we are being tempted, and when we are going astray.

Last night, I was going astray. And although I repented of the sin I was committing, I was still being tempted. I said,"Christ help me, Christ help me." And He did. I didn't see Him, nor did I feel Him, but the temptation I was under, it was lessened. Christ came to my load of temptation and got under it, helping me to not be crushed under it. He is willing and able to do the same for you, and for everyone, for He is able to make perfect those who draw near to the throne of Grace.

I urge you to find the sources of temptation, and cut them off. If you look up women online, cut it off. If you have lustful thoughts, get them out. If you have music that arouses the desires of your sinful nature (that is, your flesh) cut it off. Find good christian music (I can help you find some if you want). If looking at women causes you to go under temptation, knock it off. Call for Christ to help you with your burden. Ask God to help you stop having sinful thoughts and dreams. Christ said that the lamp of our bodies is our eyes, and if our light is darkness, then that is a bad darkness. Remember what I said earlier: What you see goes to your mind, and the more it goes to your mind, the more it goes to your heart. When it gets to you heart, it becomes an action. This action becomes a habit. This habit, if left unchallenged, becomes a destiny.

When I was consumed by my lust, I first had to remove the lustful thoughts. Only after these thoughts were removed did the lust began to die (though it arises from time to time). Confess your sins to your wife. Ask her for help with your problems. If you go to cut down a tree at night, how will you do it in the dark? Expose the tree with light, and then cut it down (the tree is your sin). Tell a priest that you go to, ask him for help. Get help from a brother or sister (I mean a christian brother or sisted, not biological).

Replace sinful thoughts with things that are not evil in God's eyes. And pray to. But when you pray, breath inward slowly, then outward slowly. Clear your mind, focus on God. Imagine Him sitting on His throne in front of you, listening as you make a request, if you listen diligently, you will hear His answer (I think). You can talk to me too, I can help you as well. I still struggle with lust.