My Purpose: PLEASE RESPOND

[droidBebe]

I'm Getting Frustrated And I Need Your Help.

I Know What I Want To Do With My Life And Its Not Happening.

This Is What I Want To Do: I Want To Do Great Things For God. I Wan To Be Mighty And Powerful For God And Make A Difference In The World As A Whole. I Want To Be Full Of His Power And Might And For Everything I Do To Lift His Name Up And I Want The Entire World To See It.

I Have Had So Many Dreams From The Lord Where I Was Speaking To People Of Different Nations And When Nations Fought Against One Another The One Person They Would Call On Was Me.

Why Hasn't This Happened Yet!!! Its Tearing Me Apart That I Am A Single Mother Who Is On Disability For Depression And That These Things That He Has Shown Me Have Not Taken Place Yet.

I Would Be Willing To Do Anything For The Lords Name If I Could Figure Out How To Make It Happen. Theres So Much He Has Shown Me And None Of It Has Happened Yet.

I'm Sick And Tired Of Being Where I Am And Not Knowing How To Get To Where He Wants Me To Be And Where I Would Like To Be Simply Because He Wants Me To Be There And Do These Things.

I'm Crying Deep Down Inside Of A Part Of Me That Is Not Physical. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS MY BODY BEGINS TO FELL AS IF IT IS ON FIRE, EVERY SINGLE FIBRE OF IT.

What Gives? I Am Beginning To Hate Myself Because I Have Not Achieved What He Has Shown Me.

 

[Jeshu]

I'm Getting Frustrated And I Need Your Help.

I Know What I Want To Do With My Life And Its Not Happening.

This Is What I Want To Do: I Want To Do Great Things For God. I Wan To Be Mighty And Powerful For God And Make A Difference In The World As A Whole. I Want To Be Full Of His Power And Might And For Everything I Do To Lift His Name Up And I Want The Entire World To See It.

I Have Had So Many Dreams From The Lord Where I Was Speaking To People Of Different Nations And When Nations Fought Against One Another The One Person They Would Call On Was Me.

Why Hasn't This Happened Yet!!! Its Tearing Me Apart That I Am A Single Mother Who Is On Disability For Depression And That These Things That He Has Shown Me Have Not Taken Place Yet.

I Would Be Willing To Do Anything For The Lords Name If I Could Figure Out How To Make It Happen. Theres So Much He Has Shown Me And None Of It Has Happened Yet.

I'm Sick And Tired Of Being Where I Am And Not Knowing How To Get To Where He Wants Me To Be And Where I Would Like To Be Simply Because He Wants Me To Be There And Do These Things.

I'm Crying Deep Down Inside Of A Part Of Me That Is Not Physical. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS MY BODY BEGINS TO FELL AS IF IT IS ON FIRE, EVERY SINGLE FIBRE OF IT.

What Gives? I Am Beginning To Hate Myself Because I Have Not Achieved What He Has Shown Me.

Has He truly shown you all this or are these your own dreams of glory in Him?


Honestly true if you want to get anywhere you have to drop all those wants - rather humbly sit at His feet as you learn to understand His true purpose for you.

It is not your - I do things - but - He ruling as your King - as you can clearly see within yourself You are on the throne and not Him at all - for all these above dreams have to do with you doing things for Him and not Him being your inner King.

So all these hot burning wants and musts are in the way to you finding true peace and purpose.

Lay down your wanting life and humbly begin to make small steps in internalising his loving truth for you.

This is how it goes.

Love God's Loving Truth more than your own truth(s)

Love yourself with the love God has for you - in all your ways!

and after you have learned to be obedient loving you with Him and in Him, then love your neighbour as He loves you.


This is the only safe way to walk with and in Christ. Once He has grown within you like this then you are ready for His purpose - not before.


Much love on your Way.

 

[childofGod31]

I'm Getting Frustrated And I Need Your Help.

I Know What I Want To Do With My Life And Its Not Happening.

This Is What I Want To Do: I Want To Do Great Things For God. I Wan To Be Mighty And Powerful For God And Make A Difference In The World As A Whole. I Want To Be Full Of His Power And Might And For Everything I Do To Lift His Name Up And I Want The Entire World To See It.

I Have Had So Many Dreams From The Lord Where I Was Speaking To People Of Different Nations And When Nations Fought Against One Another The One Person They Would Call On Was Me.

Why Hasn't This Happened Yet!!! Its Tearing Me Apart That I Am A Single Mother Who Is On Disability For Depression And That These Things That He Has Shown Me Have Not Taken Place Yet.

I Would Be Willing To Do Anything For The Lords Name If I Could Figure Out How To Make It Happen. Theres So Much He Has Shown Me And None Of It Has Happened Yet.

I'm Sick And Tired Of Being Where I Am And Not Knowing How To Get To Where He Wants Me To Be And Where I Would Like To Be Simply Because He Wants Me To Be There And Do These Things.

I'm Crying Deep Down Inside Of A Part Of Me That Is Not Physical. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS MY BODY BEGINS TO FELL AS IF IT IS ON FIRE, EVERY SINGLE FIBRE OF IT.

What Gives? I Am Beginning To Hate Myself Because I Have Not Achieved What He Has Shown Me.

Wait upon the Lord. Be strong, take courage and wait upon the Lord.

He will show you where to go and when, but IN HIS TIME! I think He tells us things WAY IN ADVANCE. Don't be impatient. It's not your fault. Abraham had to wait 10 years for his PROMISED son! Was it ten years for you yet?

 

[droidBebe]

Was it ten years for you yet?

Just about.

 

[Magentic]

Wait upon the Lord. Be strong, take courage and wait upon the Lord.

He will show you where to go and when, but IN HIS TIME! I think He tells us things WAY IN ADVANCE. Don't be impatient. It's not your fault. Abraham had to wait 10 years for his PROMISED son! Was it ten years for you yet?

the complainers waited 40 before 2 could move ahead. not sure what that tells you

 

[droidBebe]

Has He truly shown you all this or are these your own dreams of glory in Him?


It is not your - I do things - but - He ruling as your King - as you can clearly see within yourself You are on the throne and not Him at all - for all these above dreams have to do with you doing things for Him and not Him being your inner King.

I didn't ask for these dreams. i was shown these things without provocation and they are not my own. i didn't eat the sloppiest cheeseburger on planet earth and watch world news and then have these dreams. if it wasn't his will i would not have even posted this. losing patience doesn't mean Christ is not on the throne of my life either.

These are things i want to accomplish because i was shown accomplishing them by the spirit of the Lord. I would want to be a singer and a dancer and a movie star if it came down to pursuing my own will. That's not what this is about at all.

 

[MyEverything]

I don't think you can do anything about it. You have to wait on Him to initiate the next move.

 

[Jeshu]

I didn't ask for these dreams. i was shown these things without provocation and they are not my own. i didn't eat the sloppiest cheeseburger on planet earth and watch world news and then have these dreams. if it wasn't his will i would not have even posted this. losing patience doesn't mean Christ is not on the throne of my life either.

Yes I understand that fully, but this still doesn't change the fact that Jesus has to be on the throne for you to achieve this.

If Jesus gave you these dreams where would He be waiting for do you think?


For you to be spiritually ready to comply?


This is the issue!

Loose your life - and gain His and He can lead you onwards.

Please look at you and the you who wants to do all this fro God - this is making you spiritually sick and hate yourself - surely these are the spiritual parts in you which have to be removed before you can move on?

This is what I'm looking at - not if your dream is true or not - but rather taking hold of God's purpose in your own ability doesn't work, rather His purpose has to take hold of you - so your inability goes - before you can serve Him properly. (Think of the apostle Peter - denying His Lord or Paul - who spend more than 10 years studying God's will for him, before he began his ministry.


Love!

 

[droidBebe]

i apologize for getting angry.

i feel like i don't have a plan and that's what the problem is. i have done everything that i know how. how will i know when the opportunities present themselves.

its like, i know i am supposed to write and speak. when i am invited to do so, i do it making sure the audience knows who my help comes from.

i just wish that things would move faster and that i had no imperfections that could possibly be keeping me from these things.

i want to know what is keeping me from my ministry and how to eradicate it/them.

 

[Jeshu]

i apologize for getting angry.

i feel like i don't have a plan and that's what the problem is. i have done everything that i know how. how will i know when the opportunities present themselves.

its like, i know i am supposed to write and speak. when i am invited to do so, i do it making sure the audience knows who my help comes from.

i just wish that things would move faster and that i had no imperfections that could possibly be keeping me from these things.

i want to know what is keeping me from my ministry and how to eradicate it/them.

This iswhat i try to point out!

You are looking at you - and perhaps others - but the perfecter of our Faith is Jesus - only look at Him.

Please eat The Word in love for God, yourself and your neighbour and see where that gets you after 3 years or so. Things should be much improved - I know for sure!

 

[MyEverything]

i apologize for getting angry.

i feel like i don't have a plan and that's what the problem is. i have done everything that i know how. how will i know when the opportunities present themselves.

its like, i know i am supposed to write and speak. when i am invited to do so, i do it making sure the audience knows who my help comes from.

i just wish that things would move faster and that i had no imperfections that could possibly be keeping me from these things.

i want to know what is keeping me from my ministry and how to eradicate it/them.

I think you are relying on yourself too much when you should be relying on God and waiting patiently for Him to move you.

Of course, you don't have a plan. We can barely see a few feet in front of us. God is the One Who sees infinitely ahead.

Maybe the thing that is keeping the gears from turning is the fact that you keep saying, "I, I, I," and "me, me, me," when it should be, "God, God, God."

 

[droidBebe]

Maybe the thing that is keeping the gears from turning is the fact that you keep saying, "I, I, I," and "me, me, me," when it should be, "God, God, God."

I understand. my fervent prayer used to be that God would show me what He wanted changed within me and for me to have full knowledge and understanding of the things that were on His list of those most important. Not to answer all of "my" questions.

During that time there was not a decision or thought that I did not consult with the Lord first without making a move and in return i had a tremendous amount of peace, joy and faith in Him.

I think it stopped when I started worrying again.

I was looking at my posts in this thread and its full of worry and anxiety.

 

[droidBebe]

Please eat The Word in love for God, yourself and your neighbour and see where that gets you after 3 years or so. Things should be much improved - I know for sure!

Thanks. It gets difficult, especially reading the Lords promises. I end up stopping and reflecting on current circumstances and getting discouraged. I need a remedy for that.

Instead of letting my dreams inspire me to grow closer to the LORD i have allowed them to somehow doubt what the Lord is capable of. Laudacious!

 

[stormdancer0]

i apologize for getting angry.

i feel like i don't have a plan and that's what the problem is. i have done everything that i know how. how will i know when the opportunities present themselves.

its like, i know i am supposed to write and speak. when i am invited to do so, i do it making sure the audience knows who my help comes from.

i just wish that things would move faster and that i had no imperfections that could possibly be keeping me from these things.

i want to know what is keeping me from my ministry and how to eradicate it/them.

Perhaps your ministry right now is to your children. In the past four years, God has filled me with His Spirit, sent me to ministry school (and had others pay for it), and made me a part-time pastor. I have asked many times for Him to call me out of the boat and onto the water, as He did Peter. The first time, He called me into the ministry. Then, He asked me to sing (I DON'T sing). Many things He asked me to do, all things that terrified me. He has never hesitated to answer this request positively.

Until recently. When I asked Him again, this last time He said, "No. Peter walked on water with Me, and won a great victory. But then, we both got back in the boat and rowed. Now, it is time for you to get back in the boat of every day life, and row. And wait."

Also, He once told me, "Even if you gain a thousand souls for Me, if you lose your own children in the process, you have not succeeded. THEY are your first congregation." So, here I am, rowing, boring but necessary.

Write out these dreams. Do it in story form, and never let them go. But timing is God's. Believe me, no matter how important you are to Him - and you are VERY important to Him - there will never be a time that God will come to you and say, "See, I'd planned on this, but you messed up My plans." None of us has the power to mess up God's plans. The door will open for your dreams when God opens it, not before.

 

[whatfor]

This iswhat i try to point out!

You are looking at you - and perhaps others - but the perfecter of our Faith is Jesus - only look at Him.

Please eat The Word in love for God, yourself and your neighbour and see where that gets you after 3 years or so. Things should be much improved - I know for sure!

I agree, focus on Jesus.

I had this pointed out to me , I was focusing on gifts and ministry instead of Jesus, and He let me know it.

You also said this in the OP "And I Want The Entire World To See It. "

 

[droidBebe]

i don't want the whole world to see it for my own sake but for the sake of what i have been called to do. I want Christ to be glorified in me. Yet, if this is my calling it will surely take place.

 

[T Man]

So far I have waited 21 years and will wait another 40 if that's what He wants for me. For me the gift is not what i say, or who i help in His name. The gift is being in Him, everything else is just a bonus. Love, without it we are nothing even if we do good things, without love we fail. My gift is love, love for Him and love for me, which helps me love others the way He intended.

1 Corinthians 13:1-13 ESV (1) If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. (2) And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. (3) If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. (4) Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant (5) or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; (6) it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. (7) Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (8) Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. (9) For we know in part and we prophesy in part, (10) but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. (11) When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. (12) For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. (13) So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

I would say remember love first and your life will turn around in ways you never thought.

Blessings T

 

[whatfor]

I am going through the same at the moment, all I can do is wait and focus on Jesus.

 

[Jeshu]

i don't want the whole world to see it for my own sake but for the sake of what i have been called to do. I want Christ to be glorified in me. Yet, if this is my calling it will surely take place.

Please think in Him, dear struggling brother, this is your issue I know for sure, you are loking at everything but not Jesus -yet He is The One to do it! Burning is from the evil one - God's loving truth doesn't operate like this.

let me demonstrate something to you about God's ways


In Matt 4 Satan came to Jesus and said - kneel down to me and I shall give you all the kingdoms of the world!

(as god of this world Satan could even do here what he said.)

Yet Jesus said - please think this over very carefully for yourself - go away Satan fro only God one may worship.

Now think about it. Jesus knew He was The Son of God, He knew He had the power to do whatever He wanted to do. He could appear before all peoples in just a moment - even now - and cast unbelief, doubt and all wickedness dead inside of all human hearts - just like that!!!

But what did, is and will He do instead?


Our Lord humbly clad and physically often in need - followed His Father all the way to the cross and suffered and died in utter agony - so He could gain all He wanted in the first place - our salvation, a lake of fire for The Wicked and God's Glory guaranteed - forever!!! Such is walk in Truthful Love in truly of Biggest Magnitude!

As such is obedience to The Father and not our own will - such is truly utilising our skills and talents, indeed for such is The Kingdom of God reserved.

Can you see in Jesus what I tried to impart to you as well? Only a smallest and least part of Father's truth in self to be - and so The whole Truth of Almighty God may dwell in us freely - and make His Loving truthful Glory a shining light for all - in us suffering servants to be - as then will be King within for so He is Himself - the Greatest Servant of us all. Living Truth remember? Please eat a lot of Him and let Him guide you.

He took me through intense suffering for over 14 years - it took our Lord that long for me to totally submit, for I was so terribly busy with myself. (The Living Word is AWESOME THOUGH and He was EASILY WORTH IT all - a life time of suffering is worth having our God in charge within - He is unspeakably Good!)

As was pointed out also remember the Jews in the desert - they perished basically altogether - even Moses - only 2 made it to the promised land.

Hebrews 4 teaches us God's LOVING TRUTH and does help putting things in a much better perspective than you have been able to achieve right now.

Can you begin to see the pruning needed?



That you may bear abundant fruit my dear brother.




Hebrews 4:1-13

Therefore, since the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us be careful that none of you be found to have fallen short of it. For we also have had the gospel preached to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because those who heard did not combine it with faith.

Now we who have believed enter that rest,

just as God has said,

"So I declared on oath in my anger,
'They shall never enter my rest.' "

And yet his work has been finished since the creation of the world. For somewhere he has spoken about the seventh day in these words:

"And on the seventh day God rested from all his work."

And again in the passage above he says,

"They shall never enter my rest."

It still remains that some will enter that rest, and those who formerly had the gospel preached to them did not go in, because of their disobedience. Therefore God again set a certain day, calling it Today, when a long time later he spoke through David, as was said before:

"Today, if you hear his voice,
do not harden your hearts."

For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken later about another day. There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God;

for anyone who enters God's rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from his.


Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.


For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.


Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

 

[razeontherock]

i don't want the whole world to see it for my own sake but for the sake of what i have been called to do. I want Christ to be glorified in me. Yet, if this is my calling it will surely take place.

Let me make an observation here:

there is TREMENDOUS ministry taking place, right in this thread! You even have T-Man quoting Scripture!!! (If you don't get the reference, search some of his posts over the last couple months) Also notice he still refers to "waiting" for his ministry, instead of talking about how everyone see it through his current job. The Apostle Paul surely wasn't known as Apostle Paul in his day, but as a tentmaker; and he didn't consider himself to have apprehended.

G-d moves in the boring details of mundane life. Scripture is filled with these things! We have to look for them to see them though; such is the nature of humility. And Jeshu is ministering powerful Truth to you; the sooner you can get focused on clearing yourself from sin, the better ...

purity = power. And you're going to need LOTS of it!!!




GREAT thread.