My Opening Rant

[soundsalive]

Hi, new to the boards.
I come from a family of believers, I am a very spiritual person with an open mind, even though I don't attend church.

My BP: I have swings several times at day, but I mostly am riding on the low end most of the time. I also have a case of drug endused parinoa (marijuana). I smoked for two years straight, just quit two months ago (but that story is another thread).
My household consist of two others with BP, my father and my brother, we are very different people with very different symptoms of BP (Also to be endulged in another thread).
I guess my rant would be the unbelieveable time I have managing my own issues with two others in the house with emotional instabilities as well. Like today, my father gets into an argument with someone and it just sent me into a low of fear and roominating thought (I had nothing to do with it). I was also driving my brother to school, I had asked him a question that sent him into bloody water, and he has his way of just bringing you down with him, all the time. Just a very overwhelming concept striving to keep things in order.

End of rant. thanks for listening/reading, I'll be spending sometime on this board, look forward to it.

 

[angelkiss]

HI Welcome to CF!!
I know that it's hard with me being the only one that has bipolar, I couldn't imagine others that are under the same roof. I do know however, that when both me and my best friend (who is also bipolar) are together and are in "high-mode" her husband just cringes cause we are quite a handful!
You've certainly come to the right place for support, for we stand beside one another and help each other the best we can. Just one big family and we're glad to have you here.
You and your family are in our prayers, and I hope things get better for you.
s and es!!

 

[Alive again]

I echo angelkiss and her welcome to CF!!! My son age 21 and I both are bp and you are right it can be challenging as we can feed each other's moods. My hubby also has depression, and our house got loud and scary at times. My dtr learned quickly the run and hide mode. So did I. I am finally learning more healthy ways to deal with all of that. BTW self medication with street drugs is common with bp. Are you on any medications from a doc and do you feel they are helpful???

Can't wait to hear more about your experiences as we all get to know each other better.

You have indeed come to a place of support and acceptance.

Prayers being said!!!

 

[soundsalive]

[FONT=&quot]Hey thanks for the compassionate responses.
As for the self-medication, I'm well aware of it...I've been put in a position where I've learned so much from it, just from the product of my environment. I never took it past marijuana/alcohol. Which marijuana was abused way more, two years straight, everyday. I defiantly have addict/alcoholic tendencies past down from my father. I didn't pick up anything after weed because I just knew I'd develop a problem with it, as I've seen with my father and younger brother. Which essentially ended my use with marijuana as I was using it for the wrong reasons. I do still drink every now and then...but I watch myself carefully.

I've also been to a shrink and tried the meds...I tried them for about 4-6 months...I was still smoking at the time so it essentially was screwing with the meds, as your moods are altered already from the smoke. I ended up bursting at work one day and left the place, lost my insurance and ended the med treatment...I do think I want to start up some treatment again once I'm on board with a job that has insurance.[/FONT]

 

[angelkiss]

I also, had my turn with the marijuana as well as the drinking at one time. I was in denial at the time and wasn't accepting the fact that there was something that was REALLY going on with me. Once I finally got it through my head and realized that it wasn't helping to drown my sorrows and blitz my mind, I dropped that and started treatment. It's still a battle, but it's well worth it!
I hope you can find a way to get insurance and start your treatment again. It can make a real difference.

 

[Alive again]

Angelkiss and soundsalive, your stories give me hope that my son may come to the same conclusion about his drinking and marijuana use someday. Thanks for sharing. Praying that God will provide for your need to work and get insurance!!!

 

[angelkiss]

Angelkiss and soundsalive, your stories give me hope that my son may come to the same conclusion about his drinking and marijuana use someday. Thanks for sharing. Praying that God will provide for your need to work and get insurance!!!

I will be praying for your son.
It's a hard road to realization, but it's not impossible to see!
God Bless!
s and es!!

 

[rushingwind62]

[FONT=&quot]Hey thanks for the compassionate responses.
As for the self-medication, I'm well aware of it...I've been put in a position where I've learned so much from it, just from the product of my environment. I never took it past marijuana/alcohol. Which marijuana was abused way more, two years straight, everyday. I defiantly have addict/alcoholic tendencies past down from my father. I didn't pick up anything after weed because I just knew I'd develop a problem with it, as I've seen with my father and younger brother. Which essentially ended my use with marijuana as I was using it for the wrong reasons. I do still drink every now and then...but I watch myself carefully.

I've also been to a shrink and tried the meds...I tried them for about 4-6 months...I was still smoking at the time so it essentially was screwing with the meds, as your moods are altered already from the smoke. I ended up bursting at work one day and left the place, lost my insurance and ended the med treatment...I do think I want to start up some treatment again once I'm on board with a job that has insurance.[/FONT]

I too smoked weed for many years but once I found out I was BP I laid it down. Because it is counter productive with the meds. Check with the county health department as for help with psychatrist and medication. They probably won't be able to help you but they can direct you some place that can. Why wait if you don't have to. Also check with catholic services and outreaches in your area. They are a great resource of other outreaches that can help you. For a long time I had no job and couldn't hold one down as I was unmedicated and through their resorces I was able to find a clinic that paid for my meds and dr visits....God Bless You....Rob

 

[soundsalive]

[FONT=&quot]Ya,
There is some local resources in my area. I actually live near Yale, they put out lots of funding for that type of stuff to a local place here that administers it all.
Have you heard of Catholic Charities, I use to help provided housing for some of their clients at my old job (leasing agent). If they are the same place I didn't know they offered mental health services as well?

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[rushingwind62]

[FONT=&quot]Ya,
There is some local resources in my area. I actually live near Yale, they put out lots of funding for that type of stuff to a local place here that administers it all.
Have you heard of Catholic Charities, I use to help provided housing for some of their clients at my old job (leasing agent). If they are the same place I didn't know they offered mental health services as well?

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thry don't offer mental health services itself....but often they have resources to other places in your area. I lived in Tulsa for awhile and they directed me to a place that could help me.

 

[angelkiss]

I know of a place called Pathways Inc. that is a good place if you don't have insurance. Don't know why I didn't think of that afore! If you don't have insurance, they do their billing and medication based on your income. If they have samples of the medication prescribed, they can give them to you right out of the office. I dunno if there is one in your area, but it may be worth looking in to.
God Bless!
s and es!!

 

[inmercysgrasp]

It's hard, even without bipolar or borderline, to be in the midst of other people's challenges when you are going through your own.
Just remember that God cares very much for you. Stay close to Him, rest in His love. Try not to take on to many cares. Besides, how much can we really help others when we don't have His love abiding in us?
You can consider taking time out, time to rest for a while, in a place where there aren't the distractions that you mentioned. Go to a park, or if possible, see if you can get away to a nice hotel somewhere for a cuple days, and maybe just rest, pray, meditate, and get refreshed. Then maybe you can face the challenges a bit easier.
Remember, even Jesus, our Savior, our Example, took time away from the busy crowds to rest and pray.

 

[soundsalive]

Even in the middle of the crazyness I try to come on here, or pray and it helps a lot...I'm really happy the spirit has pulled me back into the word...it has been great [FONT=&quot]relief[/FONT] for my trials/tribulations.

 

[Alive again]

Sounds alive,

I am so glad you found us and that we can encourage each other!!!

Many places here have sliding scale based on income, even private counselors like mine, but few have the medication help as well. Many pharmacology companies do have medication assistance programs if you have a clinician willing to prescribe. If anyone needs help finding one for a particular med and cannot find it themselves, just pm or email me and I would be happy to help!!!

And our Catholic and community services does counseling with teens. It is interesting the similarites and differences!