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[Avatar]

Is it too much?

 

[ChristianCandy]

Oooops...sorry....I was looking at your avatar!!!

Such a sad poem....no child should have to live with an alcoholic!!!!

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

I think it is a very heart felt poem. I am a survivor of abuse reading this brought back those memories. For me I wouldn't read it again. I haven't yet to deal with mine. I know that this must have been a way for you to release it. I also know that this might be hard for others to read. It was for me. Over all I think this poem is good. Thanks for sharing something that's so deep.

Stephanie

 

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I think it is a very heart felt poem. I am a survivor of abuse reading this brought back those memories. For me I wouldn't read it again. I haven't yet to deal with mine. I know that this must have been a way for you to release it. I also know that this might be hard for others to read. It was for me. Over all I think this poem is good. Thanks for sharing something that's so deep.

Stephanie

I didn't write it, though I edited it heavily. I didn't go through this but I have little girls, and have lost control before. This poem, I think, ensures I never will again.

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

Well thank you for sharing it anyway. Rememer the cycle of abuse is hard to break. Please don't put that on your children.

Stephanie

 

[alabaster jar]

Well, this is odd because my DDs were looking over my shoulder today as I was playing in the rec room--they like to see what I'm doing at times and my oldest read just the few lines on the post and I made her stop--as Sarah is the name of my youngest DD.

Anyway, of course, I didn't want her to hear that--she's only six and loves her dad. And the oldest who is 8 didn't understand it and I didn't either. I didn't know there was more to it til I looked just now, tonight at your profile.

Whew! I understand it now.

 

[ChristianCandy]

I not only understand it....I lived it!

First with my father, then with my husband....such horrors go on with alcoholics, never want to live with another one again.

 

[goldenviolet]

*chokes*

*cries*

*feels horrible feelings*

*has horrible memories*

 

[ChristianCandy]

you too dee?

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

I lived with this also. This isn't something I have dealt with. I haven't been able to come to terms with it. I still think that the poem is a good one though.

Stephanie

 

[ChristianCandy]

It's good for invoking pain in other victims of abuse. It is well put, but will bring out the pain & memories in others.

none of us like to be reminded...we just want to forget.

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

You couldn't be more correct Candy. We don't want that constant reminder. I don't normally read poems like that. Although I have wrote many myself. I don't like to post them because it might strike a cord with someone else. We would just like to forget it unforntatly until it's dealt with we still think about it. SOmething like that isn't something that you get over quickly it takes many years to come to terms with it and to learn that it wasn't your fault.

Stephanie

 

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It's good for invoking pain in other victims of abuse. It is well put, but will bring out the pain & memories in others.

none of us like to be reminded...we just want to forget.

That isn't what this intends. Most abusers are tormented souls themselves. Maybe this will give one abuser pause.

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

Not always Avatar. Most the time they don't know what they are doing. Most people can't tell on there abuser because it is someone that is close to them. I have been abused more than once in my life. I told someone when I was in state's custody but they told the foster parent I as staying with. He then grabbed me up by my neck and threw me against a back wall chocking me he yelled that If I ever told anyone again what he did to me that he would make sure I didn't live through it. Much to my suprise I still lived. I had hand marks and a bump on my head from were he threw me up against the brick wall. I live today only because I broke some things in his house just so that I could get out of that home. I share this story of many more I have to let others know you have no idea what it does to someone if you abuse them. The physicological damage that it does. The emotional damage. The physical damage. It is something that I wouldn't even wish my worst enemy. I am still working through all the abuse in my life and it will take many years to get over it. It has done a tremendous amount of damage to me. In all areas of my life. Including my relationship life. I can't express enough that this isn't something to be taken lightly. It can hurt many people. I have luckly blocked out most of my memories. I still have nightmares. My boyfriend doesn't know why. I will kick and scream in my dreams. I will fight. He doesn't know what to do. It hurts him because I won't cuddle with him. He just doesn't know in depth all the pain and suffering I have endured. He knows most of it but not all. I have had a terrible life and I have a lot of problems I have to work on. I don't know that I will ever be able to get over them. I just know that I will learn to deal with them. That was only one of my stories. I have many more like that. I have also been sexually abused and raped. It hurts that I was dealt a raw deal with life. I have 2 children now and I don't plan on doing anything to hurt them. Although I have laid my own hands on my son before. Only once did I do this. When I did I was withdraweling from Alcohol. That became my escape. That became my best friend. Now I don't have my children and I have to work on these problems to get through life. I hope that this will bring others to understand how there actions just don't effect the person that they hurt but it effects all those that are around when it happens.

Stephanie

 

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Not always Avatar. Most the time they don't know what they are doing. Most people can't tell on there abuser because it is someone that is close to them. I have been abused more than once in my life. I told someone when I was in state's custody but they told the foster parent I as staying with. He then grabbed me up by my neck and threw me against a back wall chocking me he yelled that If I ever told anyone again what he did to me that he would make sure I didn't live through it. Much to my suprise I still lived. I had hand marks and a bump on my head from were he threw me up against the brick wall. I live today only because I broke some things in his house just so that I could get out of that home. I share this story of many more I have to let others know you have no idea what it does to someone if you abuse them. The physicological damage that it does. The emotional damage. The physical damage. It is something that I wouldn't even wish my worst enemy. I am still working through all the abuse in my life and it will take many years to get over it. It has done a tremendous amount of damage to me. In all areas of my life. Including my relationship life. I can't express enough that this isn't something to be taken lightly. It can hurt many people. I have luckly blocked out most of my memories. I still have nightmares. My boyfriend doesn't know why. I will kick and scream in my dreams. I will fight. He doesn't know what to do. It hurts him because I won't cuddle with him. He just doesn't know in depth all the pain and suffering I have endured. He knows most of it but not all. I have had a terrible life and I have a lot of problems I have to work on. I don't know that I will ever be able to get over them. I just know that I will learn to deal with them. That was only one of my stories. I have many more like that. I have also been sexually abused and raped. It hurts that I was dealt a raw deal with life. I have 2 children now and I don't plan on doing anything to hurt them. Although I have laid my own hands on my son before. Only once did I do this. When I did I was withdraweling from Alcohol. That became my escape. That became my best friend. Now I don't have my children and I have to work on these problems to get through life. I hope that this will bring others to understand how there actions just don't effect the person that they hurt but it effects all those that are around when it happens.

Stephanie

Thank you for sharing Stephanie, I know that was hard. I moved that poem from my sig to prayer requests in my profile. I'm so sorry for what you have gone through. There are so many good people in this world, its tragic that you are frightened of some of them now because you were inflicted with some of the evil people who exist, in your life. My prayers are with you.

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

Thank you Avatar. I need them truely in my life right now need many many prayers.

Stephanie

 

[Caprice]

I'll miss the winter​

The world of fragile things​

Look for me in the white forest​

Hiding in a hollow tree​

I didn't write it, though I edited it heavily. I didn't go through this but I have little girls, and have lost control before. This poem, I think, ensures I never will again.

I hate to sound stupid, but I don't see the connection between the verse and child abuse or alcoholism...

(((HUG)))

 

[Fly04~J~]

Anything you do owez be nice if you put God in the picture... and your signature is awesome!!!

 

[Faith_n_doubt]

Caprice he changed his signature. It's different now.