My Miserable Life

[cronicles152]

This is the story of my life.

My age is 13, I live in Philippines, I was in grade 6 And I am a victim of bullyting.I am now in 1st year high school.I am in a school called CCA an acronym for (Central Christian Academy)this school is a school of tomorrow. and now I call it (Central Demonic Academy)

On the first day of school. It was ok and they were friendly till the 3rd day ends

After some days They have been so notorious.
I walked the gate then people starts to kick my bag. I'm trying to avoid them but I can't do it because they keep on following me

In my school there was implemented thing called "School teacher"
To be a school teacher you must finish your workbook.Every student has its own workbook that depends on its skills and development.Then I finished my workbook and to completely finish it you must have an oral test to proof that you really learned the workbook
He asked a really hard question and I can't answer it then he grabbed my workbook and smashed it to my head.This things was very mild compared to this following
My teachers name is named as Mike Estefanio.
I call him Devil Mike, Mike LaVey(I got this name from the founder of the church of satan),Devil Mike Estepandemonium.
This teacher is a very very barbaric guy.He allies the bad students and not the poor students.The common things they do to me is hit n run(They punch me then run)
There is a kid called Ices De Jesus.And It is so ironic that his last name was De Jesus and his attitude was like a Satanist I call him Ices De Satanas.He is onI 4th grade and he's very small
We have a large difference in height and weight. But the irony is I'm the one getting bullied by a little kid.Things he do to me is spitting at me hitting me punching me hitting my bag and insults
The worst thing he does to me was when I was texting my mom then he spits at my cellphone and punched me.Then I dropped my cellphone then it broke.I was very angry that I dominated him
He told Mike (My teacher) that I conquered him then Mike made me do a 3 hours squat,heels up,straight back.This made me very exhausted,And whenever I lower my back,he whips me with his lariat
I cried all the time in my house and the pain is inside, and it really hurts me so bad
The next day was the same, Three guys was really bored and nothing to do.What they did was tell Mike the things That I didn't even do Like saying nasty stuffs and etc

the three guys called me and they said Mike is calling me

He asked me if I do that things Then I said no Then he smacked me again
I fought this Barbaric teacher I said "Kapag hindi ko kasalanan hindi ko talaga aaminin!" translated to (If im not the one who did it then I will not be guilty! I screamed"

He gave me a paper slip to bring my mother at school

While I was heading home I ripped it.Then the next day he didn't talked about what happened last day this means that He was very forgettable

Then my classmates is doing a prank again.They chased me til I got surrounded by them Then I need a self-defense I tried to run but they grabbed a pail of water then threw it at me
Mike saw it but He still target his anger at me and do the same thing

My classmate has a snack and it looks delicious so I said "Can you give me one piece"Then he replied back."Sapak gusto mo" translated to "how about a smack you want?"

They had a little church and it is guaranteed that it is the church of satan

The worst thing they did to me was when My stomach was very bad and it was aching. Then I went to the bathroom because the pain was really unbearable
The restroom has an open space under and above that's how it was build.I didn't know one highschooler was videoing me above and I didn't noticed it then he left quickly

Then he showed it to everyone and it was very embarassing. I told my teacher about what they did and all he did was just laugh and he said "I youyoutube na yan" translated to We will put this to youtube



That made me very furious and I screamed F*** you all!

then mike grabbed me and smacked me and I was crying really loud

This is my life.When I got home I came quickly to my room and there I cried so my pain inside would release
I turned my laptop on and searched for a quick painless suicide and I was about to do it but I rememebered my mom and dad what would they feel if Im dead.
they Are indeed sheeps in wolves clothing,Devils in disguise,I am being rebellious that time and I'm being so blasphemous to jesus christ.I tell bad things about him
because I said Why are you doing this to me.I guess its not god's fault that my life is like this

I feel like im a wortless piece of sh**

Now I left the school and after 1 year has passed I transfered to another school

I got badly traumatized and had a nightmare of what happened in my dark past.

PS.They don't have a school license so and I'm not surprised that their attitude was like that.And Having no school license is punishable by law and they should thank me that i didn't report them to deped(department of education)

The pain is still inside and it will be extreme sadness will be part of my humanity

Today.I have no friends.No happiness.
The meaning of happiness or joyful is deleted on my memory

 

[Criada]

It sounds as though you have suffered a lot... I'm sorry you had to go through all that.
You really need to find someone to talk to to help you deal with the pain of the past and learn how to move on. You have a lot of life left, and it will not all be this painful.

As for feeling angry with God, that is a normal reaction, and a loving God will deal with it, just like I deal with it when one of my children is angry and tells me they hate me.
The bible says He forgives. It also says that you are made in His image, His beloved child, and very precious. You are not worthless!

I hope that you can move past this difficult time and find peace and joy again.

 

[plumsink]

Wow, you have been through a lot! Whenever, whenever you find yourself in an abusive situation, you have to report it to the rightful authorities or remove yourself from that place, or both. You are a human being who has rights. Everyone has the right to be free of physical and mental abuse.

I know from personal experience that sometimes an adverse, negative environment can reduce you to that same level. Don't let that happen, don't become like they are.

Peace friend.

 

[maycin19]

I am so glad you found this christian forum. You will find comfort and love here. I think of it as God working thru this forum. Trying to get you the message of his undying love thru these wonderful christians here.

But you need to keep coming back here. God can handle all your anger and feelings. You might not get the answers to why he would allow you to experience all that cruelty but that we have to remember we live in a fallen world. That won't help you totally now but you will have to work thru all your pain and grief and sadness for the Lord wants you to be healed. Remember, satan is the accuser. Don't let him use this situation further to cause you guilt, shame or low self-esteem. That will be normal in working thru your feelings, but then God's grace will help you realize he made only one of you. He needs you healed so you can be the one very special person he made. If you just need to vent everything at anytime please send me a private message if you would like. Hugs
I can't really understand what you have been thru, so I won't even try to say I do.I will say that I will be thinking of you and will be praying for you.

 

[Winter]

I am so, so, so sorry for everything you are going through. They are wrong for what they did to you. Very wrong.

Is there any way that you can go to another school? Can you speak to your school principle (administrator) and report what that teacher did to you?

I am praying for you ...

 

[miss-a]

I also think it would be good to get a pastor or pastors involved. The Bible is has very clear cut methods for dealing with these sorts of things and stopping them. A good pastor will be familiar with these and be able to step in and help you. If you talk to one and he does not help, then try another church, and another still if need be, until you find one that will help you. We will definitely be praying for you. Remember, in His word God promises that He will make a way where there is no way. Hang on to this promise no matter what happens and know that the way will appear. He promises.

Blessings, A

 

[maycin19]

I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and praying for you. I know it feels so lonely when you feel you have no friends. Alot of us feel that way here You are younger, and it must hurt so much and it makes it harder to deal with. I agree with miss-a, we have to pray that you can find a pastor to help and maybe a youth group to attend. Is there any chance of that. Alot of us feel that way here. But you can feel you have some great christian friends right here in this forum. The Lord never will leave you or forsake you whether you feel him or not. We can't even understand how wide and deep is his love for us. It's okay if you don't feel that right now because of the hurt you've experienced. May the Lord hide you beneath the shadow of his wings until this storm has passed.

 

[Evenstar253]

Wow...to say you've been through a lot is putting it mildly You said the school was lucky that you didn't report them to the department of education. Can you still report them? If there's any way you can, I would strongly encourage you to do so; it sounds like this place needs to be shut down before they can ruin even more lives. Also, do you have any access to a therapist or any type of mental health professional? (I have no idea what mental health services are like in the Philippines.)

 

[cronicles312]

Hello! This is me "Cronicles152" and it has been 3 years since I've posted this thread. Well my hatred and my pain is still there and I think it will never go away. Those traumatic times are haunting me and is affecting my future. I can still access my old account but it's kinda stucked when I log in

 

[vignette]

Are you still in the same school chronicles? And are you still be treated the same as you were? Hope you can manage to come back and post and tell us. You have been through so much.

 

[SplendidTree]

Praying for you. Welcome back.