My Journey

[pkgirl]

Well, My story starts with my childhood. I grew up in a non-christian family, and had never heard about God. I also had no friends at all in school,

My non christian life changed when I was 12, I found a youth group, and I went to church with them after a sleepover and I really enjoyed the service, and I wanted to know more about this Jesus guy. I tried to find out more about him and I found myself thirsting for more.

Background in dot points

-When I was 10, 12 and 15 I was raped.
-14 people that were close to me have died in the last 5 years.
-Have had issues with Drug abuse and self injury
-Have Bipolar and OCD.

This Changed in 2005, after I was raped te 3rd time, when I went on an Anti-God rampage, I did everything I knew would hurt God, I tried suicide, I became heavily involved in drugs, doing everything except heroin, cutting, self injury, alcohol. Anything to get away from God and life. I wore pentagrams, and nothing but black, I loved Satan, I thought he was so much better than Jesus. I thought this, because when I wasnt following God, life was so much easier and I had so many good things happening to me. It was only when I really saw myself in the mirror for the first time and saw what the drugs had done to me, and scars from what my cuts and burning had done to me, that I saw What an idiot I had been, and I turned back to God and asked for forgiveness.

Now I am slowly recovering my relationship with God and with my non-druggie friends again. I am still on marijuana but I am off the other stuff which is good, and wanting to get off of the weed and through God I will be able to.

This is my testimony.

 

[InflamedHearts]

I will pray for you, good to hear that you got through the bad stuff

 

[LilBrokenHeartedGirl]

That's awsome that you're back on track with God. Your testimoney got to me. I went through a little bit of what you mentioned. And through God, he gave me friends of Christ that have helped me out a lot.

And I'm defenitley going to be keeping you in prayer. I'll even make a list since I don't want to forget anyone heh.

God bless you on your walk with Christ.

 

[ivory]

God is faithful

 

[WeBe1]

pkGirl, your testimony has really touched me.
I almost can completely relate to you, though I was not raped. However, as a young boy I was molested by a family member. Because of that, I became sexually active from the time I was 5. I had many encounters with both sexes until I was 12. I was forced to smoke pot on my 7th birthday and later became heavily addicted to drugs. “You can read my testimony to learn the end results of that.”
I was finally able to quit smoking pot nearly 2 years ago.

God is great, life is not easy, but Christ does give us comfort & rest from the evils we must encounter through out this life. May the love of God continue to grow in you.