my issues

[kala83]

this is honestly really bizarre and odd, but ever since I have come to terms with that I have a sex addiction and that I am trying to keep it in better check around people I hang out with.


I am literally scared out of my mind to be intimate with people, wither it be lil things such as touching, or even looking at a person. I have a tendency of being very flirty and can fall for people easily.

and I know that about myself now more then ever. I want to have a good time with men and women and not feel the pressure of if I flirt with this person am I going to do something I regret later.

in a way this is sort of a good thing cause it makes me more self aware then I was before and it makes me mind myself better when I am hanging out with people I like or on dates.

but its become rather awkward also, just since I can and sometimes do physically freeze up if someone touches me or hugs me or such. I feel such shame for going to physical state with things that I have found myself often hanging my head in shame due to it.

and my low self esteem often will make me feel as though I should not hang around other people at all cause I will probably wish to have sex with them at some point or another.

sometimes this is the case and sometimes it is not, it has now become an issues of that. I want to feel ok with being sexual or wanting to be sexual with one person and keep it that way.

But for right now when I think of my sexuality I feel nothing but shame toward it.

 

[transparentthought13]

Scripture is incredibly clear that sex should only be experienced within the confines of marriage. If that is what you're seeking after, I must caution you that sex outside of marriage is sinful. Don't search for that; you will only hurt yourself and your heart in the long run.

That said, emotional intimacy is completely different. I really have a hard time with opening myself up to people because I've often been hurt in the past. Relationships are a double-edged sword: you have to open yourself up to someone so they can know you, but that also gives them the ability to hurt you. It's the risk that is inherent in building a relationship with someone. Over the years, I've realized that, despite the risk, it's always worth it to step out of your comfort zone and be vulnerable with people. The benefits always outweigh the risks.

Be confident in who God made you. If you are saved, you are a child of God, and He loves you very much. That is never something to be ashamed of. Yes, we should be ashamed of our sin, but that should never cloud the fact that we have been forgiven and are destined for an eternity with Him. Be confident in who you are before Christ; you are covered by His righteousness. Don't boast in your own strength or who "you" are. Boast in what Christ has accomplished.

If that is what you're boasting in, you'll never have reason to be ashamed.

 

[Autodentist2011]

Wow I can identify with your words except you put them so much better