My Father

[Bastoune]

Dear all:

Grace and piece to you! Please keep my dad in your prayers as well. He has cancer and is in a lot of pain. He wants to die. It's really sad. He had initially beat the cancer 2 years ago, but it came back awhile ago and he has just given up on treatments, when he could be taking some better supplements, stop smoking (DUH!), and have a better attitude. It's hard to speak to him in such a state of negativity.

At least he has the Faith. In spite of his negativity he is constantly in prayer, and his faith has deepened. There is a holy serenity about him that I remember seeing in my grandmother Aline (my dad's mom) before she passed away in 1993.

So this scares me because I would love for my father to be healed, and to recover and it is for this that I pray because God answered my prayers the first time. In any case, pray for me too that I may be ready for God's will to be done.

I live far from my father (me in New York City, dad in Ottawa) and rarely see him. Also, his wife limits the time I can spend even when I do go to see him. I asked God for a favour, and my father to pray for this too: that God will not take my father from this life until I have a chance to see him again. Due to finances I have been unable to travel and I do not want God to take him until I at least have one more chance to spend time with him. May God's will be done, and I feel God is merciful to grant me this, since He's given me far greater things of which I am not worthy.

In any case, thanks for your prayers. I can rejoice for this cancer in my dad because he has attained such a holy wisdom from his sufferings and you can see that he is partaking in the Passion of Christ in his life right now.

Love to all in Christ,
TIM

 

[Miss Shelby]

You, your dad and your situation are in my prayers.

Michelle

 

[ShetlandRose]

Dear Bastourne: You have a precious attitude and a sweet heart. I pray along with you. I ask for God's perfect will and comfort at this very difficult time.

ShetlandRose

 

[JillLars]

Praying for you during this difficult time!

 

[Bastoune]

My dad's name was Tim, like mine (but I'm not a "junior").

Thank you all for your support. I tried to get a "power nap" in last night but could barely sleep. Of course, having the stereo playing songs that reminded me of my dad didn't help. I have broken down in tears so much, but I am surprised at how at peace I am. God is with me. Psalm 42 is on my heart.

I could feel my heart ripped out of my chest, I could barely breath at some times. Then I could see my father greeted by Jesus. I could see a dim image that cannot even compare to the true Light, like looking through an unclear glass... and only will full vision be given when we are with the Lord. I know that my dad could hear my every plea and cry, and that while it pained him to hear me suffering, he is in such an extasy with the Lord (and I saw Mary beside him when he was sad to hear me cry out, "WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?!?") and he's definitely in Heaven, having suffered so much on Earth.

It hurts so much. I'm at the airport. This stupid computer won't let me read my hotmail e-mails! (I can get into hotmail, but cannot open up any mail!) I am so happy you have remembered me and prayed for me. I know I am not alone in losing a parent. I think too how Jesus felt when Joseph died, even though He especially knew what would await Joseph more than anyone.

I will be entering into my journal my thoughts of this day (in English and French this time, both -- with some Italian, German and Spanish too).

God bless,
TIM

 

[JesusInMyHeart]

My heart and prayers are with you...

I pray that God will intervene on your heartfelt situation...continue to surround You with His love and peace...and that God will make a way for you to see your dad....

God Loves You always...

 

[Cat59]

Tim, I'm thinking of you and your family today and will keep you all in mind at Church tomorrow
Cat

 

[Bastoune]

Thanks, you're very kind. I am doing very well but lots of things are making me cry off and on (normal). It all feels like a bad dream, but the Lord has really sustained me. Thank you all for your prayers.