My Diagnosis

[Rosesandthorns]

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[Southernscotty]

I am praying for you, Have you seen a Dr or therapist about this?

 

[Teamo]

I'm self medicating with various supplements magnesium, inositol and others. Maybe you are deficient in some mineral.

 

[Tolworth John]

Suffered with dissociation on and off for 10 years severely.
Diagnosis in October 2018 with BPD recently went through a period of hearing voices / shut off from society feel no emotional connection to friends and family (I want to I just can't.) I feel as though I don't have a soul?

I look in the mirror and it's as if I'm not there anymore at all. I can't feel anything I just feel like a ghost. I am a Christian and I pray to Jesus / ask God about this but he hasn't answered me.

I am afraid I am losing what I have left of my cognitive ability to function and the suicidal thoughts are too empowering I keep having bursts of rage and anger from nowhere and feeling as though I'm about to die. I don't know if there is hope left but I am clinging to the thought that there is. I am wasting away alone with this horrible mental state. I can't seem to soak in information, I am catatonic in the sense I feel nothing no emotions just robotic 24/7 and delusional.

Please see your doctor and get medication.

 

[Rosesandthorns]

I'm in hospital atm on a crisis admission I am waiting to see the consultant. I've been with doctors over the years and it hasn't improved.

 

[Rosesandthorns]

I'm self medicating with various supplements magnesium, inositol and others. Maybe you are deficient in some mineral.

Do you experience some of the things I've mentioned? I was coming to the conclusion it was something like this / brain inflamation.

 

[Teamo]

Do you experience some of the things I've mentioned? I was coming to the conclusion it was something like this / brain inflamation.

No, I have different problems that the ones you mentioned. You mentioned being with doctors over the years without improvement, so maybe get a referral to a nutritionist and they can check to see if you aren't getting enough of something.

Sometimes medicine works better if you have good sleep, good nutrition, etc.

My cousin was complaining of her brain feeling on fire, and she got diagnosed with various things like Lymes, but they finally pinpointed her symptoms on house mold, if she sleeps in a tent in the yard she feels fewer symptoms.

There's so many things that can affect people's mental functioning, like nutrition and environmental conditions. Maybe changing one thing can give a 5% improvement, and another thing might give you another 5% improvement, but then together those small adjustments make a bigger difference.

 

[Serving Zion]

Do you experience some of the things I've mentioned? I was coming to the conclusion it was something like this / brain inflamation.

Please let us know how you are doing. I see that you have not logged in to the site since you posted this message, and I would like to know that you are ok, being treated well.

 

[Rosesandthorns]

Hi, thank you for your message.

I was in hospital over Christmas it was actually horrendous, I thought that I was going to lose my sanity. For about a week straight I heard voices. There was one night where I was convinced that the enemy had won, he was saying oh it's my time ect and I genuinely believed it, I "felt" I had commited the unpardonable sin, the enemy was having a field day convincing me I had committed the unpardonable sin. I left the hospital about 4 days ago.

I fasted for two days and prayed and I see I am doing better than I was. I totally didn't understand the character of God. I rennounced the lie that I believed God was angry, unforgiving, chastising through punishment and I had to believe that faith doesn't equal feelings.

If I feel attacked = God is with me
If I feel alone = God is with me
If I feel anything negative = God is with me.

The enemy really doesn't want me to accept my salvation. I am glad to be back on the forum..

 

[Serving Zion]

Hi, thank you for your message.

I was in hospital over Christmas it was actually horrendous, I thought that I was going to lose my sanity. For about a week straight I heard voices. There was one night where I was convinced that the enemy had won, he was saying oh it's my time ect and I genuinely believed it, I "felt" I had commited the unpardonable sin, the enemy was having a field day convincing me I had committed the unpardonable sin. I left the hospital about 4 days ago.

I fasted for two days and prayed and I see I am doing better than I was. I totally didn't understand the character of God. I rennounced the lie that I believed God was angry, unforgiving, chastising through punishment and I had to believe that faith doesn't equal feelings.

If I feel attacked = God is with me
If I feel alone = God is with me
If I feel anything negative = God is with me.

The enemy really doesn't want me to accept my salvation. I am glad to be back on the forum..

Wow, what a victory! .. it is great to see that you are safe, sound and strong! Thanks for sharing that with us

 

[JCFantasy23]

Hello, I have experienced some of that in the past. I really believe that when depression and struggles get too much, sometimes we just go completely numb in odd ways and dissociate with connections with people and some of our emotions. It's our way of handling it for the time being, or trying to shut down parts of ourselves to deal with being overwhelmed with the grief we are already experiencing. It is a very confusing, very difficult state that I always found almost impossible to explain to others. I feel for you and said a prayer.