MY Cousin Died In a School Shooting...

[Mercyme_thats me]

My cousin(who is also my best friend) was killed yesterday in a school shooting in Red Lake, Minnesota.
I dont know how to handle it or how to act.....
I am depressed...i want to run away from my problems but know that I cant. I actually tried last night. I didnt really want to run away I guess. I just didnt want my family to see me cry. Ya know? I am the oldest out of the kids still at home and my younger sisters always expect me to be the strong one. The one they can turn to when they are sad. Well...this time I needed someone and I had no one to turn to. So I was going to run away...but ended up at this guy I've been dating's house. After I talked to him for a bit he brought me home. My youngest sister is doing really bad and I feel really horrible that I cant help her. Ive been putting on this front...trying to act like Im fine now...but Im not...
I cant help her until I help myself...ya know? But I dont know that I can help myself. But I am too proud to ask for help.

I just dont know what to do.....

Mercy

 

[Cright]

It's okay to cry and break down when your going through emotions like this. It's okay to tell your family you need a little alone time.

Hugs,
Carina

 

[jen_soccer13]

I know what it is like to lose someone close to me, however I dont' know how to really help you because the only thing that worked for me was just time alone. I wish you the best. I know it is hard.

I also know someone here at my college that moved from Minnesota to go to college here...and her cousins also go to that school...and one of them was killed. I feel helpless because I dont know what to do or say.

I wish you the best and just know that in time things will get better...If you ever want to talk I am always around.

 

[caitlincares]

Praying for you, Mercyme_thats me.

 

[seagulls]

My cousin(who is also my best friend) was killed yesterday in a school shooting in Red Lake, Minnesota.
I dont know how to handle it or how to act.....
I am depressed...i want to run away from my problems but know that I cant. I actually tried last night. I didnt really want to run away I guess. I just didnt want my family to see me cry. Ya know? I am the oldest out of the kids still at home and my younger sisters always expect me to be the strong one. The one they can turn to when they are sad. Well...this time I needed someone and I had no one to turn to. So I was going to run away...but ended up at this guy I've been dating's house. After I talked to him for a bit he brought me home. My youngest sister is doing really bad and I feel really horrible that I cant help her. Ive been putting on this front...trying to act like Im fine now...but Im not...
I cant help her until I help myself...ya know? But I dont know that I can help myself. But I am too proud to ask for help.

I just dont know what to do.....

Mercy

I'm sorry for your loss.

I just heard on the radio about a shooting in Minnesota. Is this the incident that your cousin was caught up in?

Either way, this is not the time to contemplate running away -- my prayers are with you.

 

[bogie]

I agree with everyone else, it would do you no good to run away. By showing your weakness you become strong. I can only imagine how you feel inside because I have no experience with the death of someone close to me yet. However, let me offer this word of encouragment to you. Just keep praying, and don't take your sight off of God he's not against you.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 NLT

1 There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.

2 A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.

3 A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.

4 A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance.

5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to turn away.

6 A time to search and a time to lose. A time to keep and a time to throw away.

7 A time to tear and a time to mend. A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.

8 A time to love and a time to hate. A time for war and a time for peace.

 

[Anna N. Amos]

Mercy...

I am so sorry. The worst is it was senseless, heartless and horrible. I am so sorry. No kid should ever be afraid to go school, or to be gunned downed or bullied.

I am sure you cannot make sense of it all because it does not make sense. One should be able to go to shcool without dying.

Oh God, my heart bleeds for these families who ache will be with them for years to come. I ask that you comfort them, that you help to hold them up, that your love rocks them in your arms...

God, pls where ever their are kids that are ready to explode, pls God send someone to mend them so they can heal and not hurt others.

Pls God invade us all with your love.

 

[VivDaGurl]

My condolences to you, Mercy...

I'm so, so sorry for what you are going through now. I'll be praying for you...

 

[bw8910]

I am so terribly sorry for your loss...but god obviously wanted your cousin to come with him and her time was over. My prayers go out to you and your family!!

 

[dia_liom]

My deepest sympathy to you & your family. May God make His presence felt during this tragic time.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I was in a school shooting long ago.
*hug*
It's ok to not be ok. It's been 20 years and I'm still not ok.
Get some counseling. Please. This kind of damage likes to hang around for a while.

 

[Dr. Holly]

Mercyme,

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. My prayers will also continuously be with you. Lean on God because as He says in His word..."I will never leave you, nor forsake you." He will get you through this and keep you strong.

I used to live in MN and this tragedy has really struck close to my heart as well. It's sad what some people will do these days. Again, I am so sorry for your loss

 

[lacy]

so very very sorry Mercy_me.
I will pray for you and yours.

 

[Mercyme_thats me]

I'm sorry for your loss.

I just heard on the radio about a shooting in Minnesota. Is this the incident that your cousin was caught up in?

Either way, this is not the time to contemplate running away -- my prayers are with you.

Yes Seagulls...it is that incident.


Thank all of you so much for your support and encouragement! I really appreciate it!

 

[perfection]

Just know that we are here for you *hugs*.

I encourage you to talk talk talk talk talk talk talk about it, let all your steam out and know that you are 'allowed' to grieve as much as you need to. Grieving doesn't mean you aren't a strong person, it means you are human being a child of god who has emotions like anyone else. You don't have to be strong, you have to be with the ones you love, and throw your pride away from you. And start the healing process to take in effect as soon as possible. After you discussed and talked about this with all your family, like mr cheese said with his good advice, get yourself a counseller, whatever you do do not make your heart a murder hole. In any case the whole red lake incident saddened me. I strongly belief the christian churches in that area should make a campaign for getting rid of guns,alcohol abuse,and drugs that pover this area into misery making people doing desperate things like this is a 'sign' that all is not ok. The Indian people need to unite, and with a strong belief in God they can rebuild their wretched lives which was devestated after the American settlers occupation and live in harmony with the current Americans.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Mercy,im,so.sorry.4.ur.loss!.ive.been.seeing,the.story.on.the.news.over.and.over
and,each.time.i.think.of.you.and.how.u.must.b.hurting.but.just.know.im.here.for.ya
and.im.prayin.for.you.and.your.family!..i.agree.you.should.get.some.counseling.
it.would.help.and.also.dont.run.away.your.family.needs.you.and.you.need.them!

 

[pentecostalgirl0414]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know what it is like to loose someone close to you! I will pray for you and your family. Again, I am sorry for the tragedy that you are going through.

 

[Hisrosebud]

I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you. Remember, He keeps your tears of sorrow and later pours them over you as oil of joy. . . .
Jane

 

[christianchoirgirl]

Mercy_me
I am from Littleton, CO and I attended West Bowles CC where Cassie Bernal went. If you don't remember who she was, she died at Columbine, for her faith. I did not know her, but a good friend did. She was best friends with her. I remember what is was like being in the same district, I have no idea what you are going through. If I can get you in touch with one of the Columbine victims, I would be more than happy. I lost my best friend last summer, and the only advice I can give is to talk about, even if you don't feel like it, and to seek the Lord God Almighty. he'll give you all the strength you need. All you have to do is ask. Again, my heart goes out to you!!!
~Callie~

 

[devoted daughter]

May the Lord embrace your cousin and give him peace; may you be lifted from sadness and have healing; may you and your family, and his friends be comforted during this difficult time. INJC

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