My brain gets in the way of my heart

[DavidSkate]

My best friend is female and I am male. We started our friendship with a mutual attraction of one another. She is Christian and at the time, I was not. We started to become cuddle buddies and it was just that cuddling and kissing. One day it all abruptly stopped after we both realized that if we were not going to make a relationship out of it, it was a lustful sin.

We remained friends and I slowly began to see how she really was being a Christian and I wanted to know God more because of her.

I have since been baptized and love Jesus with all my heart.

I have always been attracted to her not only because I still have feelings for her but also because a part of me feels like God put her in my life to no only help me find Him but for her and I to become more than just friends.

I have told her how I feel but have need "friendzoned". Though we continue our friendship that from the outside looks like a relationship, we are still just friends. We do everything together and most of the time it's just her and I.

I thought I was getting over her till I took her to the airport for her 2 month missions trip to Mexico. I realized that I was dropping off my best friend and will be without her. I had to remind myself why she was there and she was needed more there instead of here.

A day before her leaving I made a profile on a dating site. Within one day I had a message from a girl who seems like a great match for me. She loves Jesus, lives not even a mile from me, and we have almost everything in common. I go on a date with her in the next few days from now.

While on that site, I found my best friends profile. Turns out she is the highest match of mine amongst everyone in my area on the site.

I am afraid to not only lose the kind of friendship I have with my best friend, but also miss out on some sort of change of heart if I am actually in a relationship already.

Apart of me doesn't want the date to go well. But she seems like a really awesome girl. I'm ready for my heart to move on but am afraid how being in a relationship will effect out friendship.

God please show me where I need to be. Please change my heart I to whatever your will is for me.

I don't know really what to do anymore.

 

[Ads123]

I don't really know what to tell you, but I think you should try to move on and give the other girl a chance since she's given you the permission to do so. Two possibilities I can think of: either your friend will realize what she might be losing since you're with the other person and will do something about it, or she'll just do life as normal.

I think either way you should keep a distance between your friend and you, because since you feel awkward around end since she knows how you feel, it might be a bit awkward for her too. Giving her space (and yourself most importantly) will you time to move on, and who knows, maybe the other girl might "be the one"; as long as she loves God (the new girl) and lives in a godly manner, that's all that matters. You will never know unless you try. As awkward as it is with your best friend now, you need to keep a distance now for your sake and to create boundaries.

That's just what I think anyway

 

[Maka]

I'm not really sure from what you've posted if she was the one who initiated the just be friends or not. Was need a typo? "I have told her how I feel but have need "friendzoned". Did you mean to say you've been friend zoned? If so then I would move on and give this new girl a chance.