I went through this same ordeal three times in my life. I can look back now and see my part in why my relationships did not last and what I might have done differently. The hardest part for me has been forgiving myself because it is easy to feel like a failure and unworthy of love, esp. God's love. But He is strong in our weakness and He will not only sustain but strengthen you when you call out to Him. I think that music can be a healing balm during these times. Mark Schultz has a fabulous music ministry and can help you to cry and rejoice your way through the pain. The rejection is so hard to bear. Then I think if Jesus who felt betrayed by His disciples. He asked them to please stay awake and pray for Him as He was undergoing the hardest trial of His life and they just kept falling asleep. He knows what it feels like to be alone, scared, in pain, insecure about facing hard times ahead, and that is why He can help us through it. I will pray for you.