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Well I don't know if I a can do this or not but if I'm not allowed to do it someone can just PM and I'll remove the content and just leave the helpful text. I see people on here sharing music videos and I know why (because it helps with depression a lot!) and I'd like to share some of my stuff because I think that it can help some people, I'm not asking for money and I don't have Cd so I'm not selling anything I just want to share my stuff but I understand that it's still "self-promoting" so if it's not allowed then I'll just remove it no worries. I want to share because I love my brothers and sisters in Christ who are struggling like me
and I want my gifts to be used for God's glory.
But ya... I'd like to introduce myself I'm a guy who has suffered from depression for that last 4 years or so. The first year was really bad I was basically stuck to my bed and couch staring at the ceiling for 7-8 hours straight just saying "God I need to get up and do something but I just don't feel like it blah" Yah that was clinical depression and that went on for a while, I had my high phases and low phases for sure. I won't give my whole testimony here, but aside from Jesus, Bible, seeing a good Doc, proper nutrition, lots of exercise and talk therapy one thing that really helped me was Music!
I remember I would listen to songs that sounded really sad where the person seemed to be mourning or something and I would start crying and it seemed to make me feel really good. I didn't know why at the time but it just did. Now that I kinda know more I think it's because we all long for someone's shoulder to cry on and hear about our pain, we long for the shared cry rather then that lonely cry that we are all so familiar with. "It is not good for man to be alone" We all need fellowship and community of some sort . And what music does is it gives you chance to share your emotion with the artist in the song...
This is especially good because I noticed(and you can tell me if you are like this as well) when I am depressed I like to isolate myself even though I know that hanging out with other people and talking and sharing will make me feel better, I find that there's this paradox force working to keep me hiding under my bed sheets. I don't know why... So in this state I needed something that would help me have the emotional connection even in my lone state and that something was music!
Eventually(early 2012) I started picking up my guitar and playing songs(badly) and I swear God opened up my brain and gave me the gift man because I never had any previous music experience, never played in a band or sung or played any instrument seriously before 2012, and here I am writing songs! I know it's a miracle from God that I can write songs of this calibre in such little time when I can't even play that well yet lol
Anyways I have a couple of songs but I don't want to overload, I'll just share one and if people like it I'll share another one. The ones that I'm sharing are specifically meant to help depressed people. I believe why God has entrusted me with these songs, is to help the depressed free of charge. Now keep in mind I am broke and I don't have money to make good production stuff, I recorded this stuff at home it's not terrible but if you can't handle stuff that doesn't have good production then don't bother. There's no mixing, editing or anything like that, it's raw!(yeah baby) Also because it's hand recorded I have no idea what the volume is going to be like for your computer so you may need to turn it up or turn it down a lot. I've only listened to it on my computer so I don't know if there will be a lot of clipping(sound cutting off) on another computer but I'd appreciate it if you let me know if there's a problem so I can fix it.
Why would I be sharing something with bad production? because I believe that the songs will give somebody the emotional release that they need that will help them draw closer to God. I'm not confident in my skills but I am confident in the songs that God has given me. Just me and a guitar, God at my side.
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Video Description Copy and Pasted from Youtube:
This a story of a guy who's lost at sea which is supposed be an analogy for my depression, that's why it's kinda long... but because I'm such a nice guy I took the liberty of singing it for you =) isn't that nice? Don't be discouraged... I threw in some thunderbolts that will hopefully keep you awake. In the Stanzas it's parable talk "marine language" where it all refers to my depression in some way and in the chorus I just speak plainly and call out to God.
When I uttered the first words to this song, my face was drowning in tears. There's a couple of songs that I would say God has used to be avenues of expression for my depression for His glory and I believe this is one of them. The first 20 times I played it I cried and cried, I had to outcry it before I could play it without crying for the recording, but this song is very deeply attached to my soul and to my heart, but because God was involved in the production of this song, it's something that will get you closer to God's heart, and that's my goal for all my songs really, not just to sing them for God but to get my fellow man closer to God as well. Enjoy.
*I removed the original and rerecorded the audio because the volume was way too low on the other one... and I added another bridge in the middle.. yay!
What Can I do in this Storm and these Waves
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBhYrQ6vZRg
Please listen closely to the words, that's what will help you! this is more like a story rather then a song. The music in the background is just to help the story! And then let me know if you can relate to the guy in the story
Please change the quality to 720 p for better sound especially if it's at 240p
! Listen until 2:39 if you want to hear the first thunderbolt
Well I don't know if I a can do this or not but if I'm not allowed to do it someone can just PM and I'll remove the content and just leave the helpful text. I see people on here sharing music videos and I know why (because it helps with depression a lot!) and I'd like to share some of my stuff because I think that it can help some people, I'm not asking for money and I don't have Cd so I'm not selling anything I just want to share my stuff but I understand that it's still "self-promoting" so if it's not allowed then I'll just remove it no worries. I want to share because I love my brothers and sisters in Christ who are struggling like me
and I want my gifts to be used for God's glory.But ya... I'd like to introduce myself I'm a guy who has suffered from depression for that last 4 years or so. The first year was really bad I was basically stuck to my bed and couch staring at the ceiling for 7-8 hours straight just saying "God I need to get up and do something but I just don't feel like it blah" Yah that was clinical depression and that went on for a while, I had my high phases and low phases for sure. I won't give my whole testimony here, but aside from Jesus, Bible, seeing a good Doc, proper nutrition, lots of exercise and talk therapy one thing that really helped me was Music!
I remember I would listen to songs that sounded really sad where the person seemed to be mourning or something and I would start crying and it seemed to make me feel really good. I didn't know why at the time but it just did. Now that I kinda know more I think it's because we all long for someone's shoulder to cry on and hear about our pain, we long for the shared cry rather then that lonely cry that we are all so familiar with. "It is not good for man to be alone" We all need fellowship and community of some sort . And what music does is it gives you chance to share your emotion with the artist in the song...
This is especially good because I noticed(and you can tell me if you are like this as well) when I am depressed I like to isolate myself even though I know that hanging out with other people and talking and sharing will make me feel better, I find that there's this paradox force working to keep me hiding under my bed sheets. I don't know why... So in this state I needed something that would help me have the emotional connection even in my lone state and that something was music!
Eventually(early 2012) I started picking up my guitar and playing songs(badly) and I swear God opened up my brain and gave me the gift man because I never had any previous music experience, never played in a band or sung or played any instrument seriously before 2012, and here I am writing songs! I know it's a miracle from God that I can write songs of this calibre in such little time when I can't even play that well yet lol
Anyways I have a couple of songs but I don't want to overload, I'll just share one and if people like it I'll share another one. The ones that I'm sharing are specifically meant to help depressed people. I believe why God has entrusted me with these songs, is to help the depressed free of charge. Now keep in mind I am broke and I don't have money to make good production stuff, I recorded this stuff at home it's not terrible but if you can't handle stuff that doesn't have good production then don't bother. There's no mixing, editing or anything like that, it's raw!(yeah baby) Also because it's hand recorded I have no idea what the volume is going to be like for your computer so you may need to turn it up or turn it down a lot. I've only listened to it on my computer so I don't know if there will be a lot of clipping(sound cutting off) on another computer but I'd appreciate it if you let me know if there's a problem so I can fix it.
Why would I be sharing something with bad production? because I believe that the songs will give somebody the emotional release that they need that will help them draw closer to God. I'm not confident in my skills but I am confident in the songs that God has given me. Just me and a guitar, God at my side.
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Video Description Copy and Pasted from Youtube:
This a story of a guy who's lost at sea which is supposed be an analogy for my depression, that's why it's kinda long... but because I'm such a nice guy I took the liberty of singing it for you =) isn't that nice? Don't be discouraged... I threw in some thunderbolts that will hopefully keep you awake. In the Stanzas it's parable talk "marine language" where it all refers to my depression in some way and in the chorus I just speak plainly and call out to God.
When I uttered the first words to this song, my face was drowning in tears. There's a couple of songs that I would say God has used to be avenues of expression for my depression for His glory and I believe this is one of them. The first 20 times I played it I cried and cried, I had to outcry it before I could play it without crying for the recording, but this song is very deeply attached to my soul and to my heart, but because God was involved in the production of this song, it's something that will get you closer to God's heart, and that's my goal for all my songs really, not just to sing them for God but to get my fellow man closer to God as well. Enjoy.
*I removed the original and rerecorded the audio because the volume was way too low on the other one... and I added another bridge in the middle.. yay!
What Can I do in this Storm and these Waves
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBhYrQ6vZRg
Please listen closely to the words, that's what will help you! this is more like a story rather then a song. The music in the background is just to help the story! And then let me know if you can relate to the guy in the story
Please change the quality to 720 p for better sound especially if it's at 240p
! Listen until 2:39 if you want to hear the first thunderbolt
God is good! I sadly came to the realization that for the everyday song listener it's too long. (and that's not the only song that I have that is that long lol) but I prayed about it and God has also shown me that for someone who's really in the pits of despair they can easily listen to the whole thing without noticing how long it is. Because they will be in a state of desperation they will just drink it down like water. And maybe even hope that it's even longer. Those may be the people that God wants me to specifically reach
. I think that eventually when I re-record it, I will shorten it to make it more easy to listen to though, I like to receive input from people and adjust where adjustments can be made.
