- Apr 13, 2019
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Hi guys. I am a new Christian, only recently gave my life to Christ. I am also someone who has identified as gay for years and had multiple homosexual relationships.
Since beginning to come to Christianity, this is maybe the biggest struggle I have had. I want so badly to follow God's word and be a good follower. But this is something that has been a huge part of my life and identity for so long.
I am praying to God to please give me the strength to leave this lifestyle in my past and be fully repentant, but it has been so hard for me to fight these feelings.
I am beginning to understand what is meant by "count the cost". I feel so so blessed to have come to the point where I have given my life to Jesus. But at the same time repenting for these sins and leaving them behind is a huge, daunting change in my life. Its something that is very scary to me, both because it will be a huge change, and because I don't know if I am strong enough to do it.
So Id like to ask for anyone to please pray for me as I try to follow the path God has for me. And please, if anyone has any advice or resources to deal with this I would really appreciate it.
I know that now that I have accepted Jesus into my heart, he will guide me to where I need to be. And I am continuing to pray for the strength to resist and reject these feelings, but still I am so scared I wont be strong enough to leave this part of me behind.
Since beginning to come to Christianity, this is maybe the biggest struggle I have had. I want so badly to follow God's word and be a good follower. But this is something that has been a huge part of my life and identity for so long.
I am praying to God to please give me the strength to leave this lifestyle in my past and be fully repentant, but it has been so hard for me to fight these feelings.
I am beginning to understand what is meant by "count the cost". I feel so so blessed to have come to the point where I have given my life to Jesus. But at the same time repenting for these sins and leaving them behind is a huge, daunting change in my life. Its something that is very scary to me, both because it will be a huge change, and because I don't know if I am strong enough to do it.
So Id like to ask for anyone to please pray for me as I try to follow the path God has for me. And please, if anyone has any advice or resources to deal with this I would really appreciate it.
I know that now that I have accepted Jesus into my heart, he will guide me to where I need to be. And I am continuing to pray for the strength to resist and reject these feelings, but still I am so scared I wont be strong enough to leave this part of me behind.