yes people are flawed I have to remind myself of that daily. That is the good news, Jesus is always with us. He loves us enough to die for us on the cross, and He did not stay dead, he conquered death, Satan, sin and hell. He is my mighty conqueror and redeemer, my savior, Lord, master and friend. Some non believers don't understand Christian language, like when gospel songs talk about being 'washed in the blood', they think about vampire horror movies. I can understand some of the stuff about being saved by the blood of Jesus sounds scary to non Christians.
I once saw this psychiatrist who was very ignorant about religion, Christians, and the Bible. She thought I was a dangerous nut because I told her the story about God ordering Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaac, she thought I was a Satan worshiper who believed in human sacrifice. I started off on the wrong foot because I insulted her when I found out she was an atheist, I quoted proverbs, "The fool says in his heart, 'there is no God.'"
I guess I should have talked about God's love before getting into the heavy stuff for veteran Christians. I hate the judging, where psychiatric centers judge the mentally ill by what other, mostly bad mentally ill people have done. It started when I was a kid, the whole thing really makes me angry every time I think about it, the shrinks took advantage of an innocent child. First off my parents sent me and my sister to an abusive, fundamentalist protestant Christian private school when we were both very little. When I was 8, my parents took me out of that school and I went to a public school, it was very different, it was a culture shock. THe kids at the public school behaved very bad, they were rude and disrespectful to the teachers, they often teased and made fun of me. At the private school the kids were not allowed to talk unless given permission by the teacher. At the public school the kids frequently talked and talked, I rarely talked, because of Community Cristian ( that's the name of the private school.) teaching. There were some boys who teased me by making faces. I had trouble with my homework, mostly math, my parents would not help me, the other kids cheated, they went to the back of the book for answers. My Community Christian teacher would not help me catch up with math, I had chicken pox and missed a lot of school, she would not help me with long multiplication, no one would until 4th grade when I had the special ed teacher. My parents were paying those teachers and they would not help me! The other kids would not have school supplies, they were always asking for paper, pencils, pens, etc. THis was before computers came into common use.
So you see, even though I was good, I was sent to the school psychiatrist who opened a can of worms. They discovered I had a learning disability, and I was sent to special education, classes for kids with learning disabilities, and the teacher their was wonderful, she got me started with writing fiction stories, she really helped me out, I learned a lot, I had fun in her class. I had her as a 4th and 5th grade teacher. Middle school was hard, I was shy, going through puberty, girls had lot of problems, I was nerdy, they teased and made fun of me, a lot of the other girls were mean to me.
Anyway I started seeing psychiatrists, and there was one guy who was a real jerk. No offense met, but women make way better psychiatrist than men, men are terrible psychiatrists. Women also are better counselors and therapists. So anyway, the teachers, social workers, counselors, they started getting real bossy and real nosy, I guess the government keeps tabs on everybody, but I like my privacy, I don't like the nosy busybodies messing into my business. My sister developed a really serious mental illness wehn she was 18, 19 or 20, and she had trouble in college. Her mental illness is worse than mine. She was always bossy when we were growing up, but now she became really paranoid. I am upset over what happened to her, she is in a place for people with mental and physical disabilities, she seems to be happy there, it is a nice place. SHe did not get along well with our parents, especially our mom. SHe blames mom for her problems, I think she is getting better.
I had a time when I went through some difficult mental problems, I had to fight the devil but I was also wrestling with God. The Lord saved me from fantasy dragon stuff, I had to make a choice, and I choose Jesus Christ.
