money and ocd

[Kostilaks]

I pray to the Generic God due to ocd who is different than Christian God. Days ago, I payed a cafeteria with my card and my friend gave his share in money to me because I also paid for him with my card. he should have given me 3.50 euros but he gave me 4 euros and he did not care. i used to have an old ocd that i do not remember exactly which was like ocd: never let that specifc friend treat you or take his money or own him money. i know it was just ocd but it was giving me worries. it was like that "you own him 0.50 euros" i did not have 0.50 euros to give him back and plus he did not want to give him any change but ocd was giving me worries. ocd: if you do not have 0.50, give him back the 2 euros he gave you. it is better for your ocd to have less money than owning him. i did not want to do it plus i knew my friend would not accept giving him 2 euros. at that second, some thoughts happened without my will like ocd: you should not give him anything back, you may have made a promise to the Generic God. I knew they were thoughts without my will but I somehow ignored them but also made some thoughts without my will again like "oh i better not give him any money . plus it is better for my ocd not to do the compulsion. i am happy now" and some seconds later, i was like "oh no. did a promise happened without my will? they are thoughts without my will, i never made a promise" ocd: you may have made for a second a rush promise to the Generic God not to give your friend, change or 0.50 or 2 euros and maybe that counts not only for that moment but it counts forever. I never made a promise. i got so worried that i decided to avoid giving that friend any money for whatever reason. especially a 2 euro or 0.50. today, i treated him a beer but i was planning not to give him the money but pay the waitress myself for all due to ocd. the waitress made us a treat and returned me 2.50 euros. the bill was 17.50 euros but she only asked 15. i gave her 15 and i was left confused with 2.50 euros in hand. my friend suspected that she made a mistake and asked for the money, the 2.50 euro, so he could give it to her. I randomly gave him 2.50 euro and he went to the waitress and explained she may have made a mistake and that she needed to take the 2.50. the waitress explained that it was a treat from the cafeteria so my friend returned me the 2.50 euro. i felt relieved but my ocd went like ocd: what have yoy done? you gave your friend 2.50 euros???? why??? dont you remember a random thought you had without your will some days ago? are you sure they were thoughts without your will? maybe for a second they were thoughts with your will and you made a valid promise to the Generic God not ever give that friend 2.50 euros for whatever reason. maybe you did to use it as an excuse to stop the compulsion and keep the money without ocd worried. what do you think guys? is this valid?

 

[com7fy8]

i am happy now" and some seconds later, i was like "oh no. did a promise happened without my will? they are thoughts without my will, i never made a promise" ocd: you may have made for a second a rush promise to the Generic God not to give your friend, change or 0.50 or 2 euros and maybe that counts not only for that moment but it counts forever.

You are being distant with your Generic God, trying to figure things out on your own . . . I can see. What do you think? It looks like your Generic God is not personally sharing with you in love and personally guiding you about things like this.

Jesus wants us to be personal with Him, not trying to depend on our own ability to figure things out. Jesus wants us to have rest with Him >

"'Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.'" (Matthew 11:28-30)

i got so worried that i decided to avoid giving that friend any money for whatever reason. especially a 2 euro or 0.50. today, i treated him a beer but i was planning not to give him the money but pay the waitress myself for all due to ocd.

Now, in Jesus we are family. We trust one another. We do not worship that generic god of independence which has us isolated in our worrying about who has given the most money to the other. But we love one another, and love does not depend on who has given the most, and making sure we have given more than the other person.

He's your friend; he has essentially given you his word that he is not holding you in debt. So, it can be good not to treat him like he is a liar and untrustworthy . . . unless you know he is untrustworthy. Appreciate and enjoy sharing

The real God does not want us to worry about things like this.

But in our Christian Scriptures we do have the verse which says >

"Owe no one anything except to love one another, for he who loves another has fulfilled the law." (Romans 13:8)

There are Bible claiming people who believe this means God does not want us to ever be in any kind of debt. Well, it is good to keep our bills up-to-date; but if you have put food in your shopping cart, without already paying for it, may be this is a way of being in debt!

In any case, I now understand God means that what we need to feel we owe is to love any and all people. To love others is what, really, we owe anyone. We can pay a debt, but still owe love!! And, of course, paying a debt can be part of loving someone, being honest with him or her, doing the right thing. But what matters the most, that we really owe, is to love.

But there are people who feel they owe themselves to make a lot of money, use people for sex, get their golf score down, and ones feel they owe themselves and their families that they work two or three jobs so they don't have time for enjoying . . . love . . . with their families. I don't mean if it is a case of being responsible, but if a person is being workaholic, maybe trying to buy a bunch of video games for their kids, instead of being home to share with their families, for one example.

So . . . what you owe your friend, then, is love. But possibly your Generic God is keeping you elsewhere. May you be blessed with Jesus who is about family love. Have you read how Jesus did things with His disciples, and how He talked with them about their worrying and fears?

 

[Of the Kingdom]

Kostilaks, if you are truly a Christian, bought and paid for by the blood of the Lamb who was slain from the foundation of the world, please quit posting this blasphemous statement at the beginning of each post:

I pray to the Generic God due to ocd who is different than Christian God.

If not, know that Jesus died willingly that you might have eternal life. He came to save sinners, not just some, but any who would put their trust in Him. Any who are sinners -- "whosoever will" in the old King James language -- may come. That includes you, that includes me.

God bless you, my friend. I have never had OCD, so I don't know what it's like. But I do know you are my neighbor and my brother, and I will lift you up any way that I can.

May God bless you, and show you that you don't need any other God but Jesus, the one who said, "I am the Way, and the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father except by me."