Moment of Panic

[seekingsomething]

Its only recently that i really wanted God in my life. Perhaps i should be talking to him about it, but i find that easier said than done.

Last summer i feel in love with one of my good friends. I mean full on real thing kinda love. At the time though i wasnt really looking for God, i hadnt experienced his love at all. I Had made so many mistakes, my life was a real mess. But through this guy and his belief in God, i really saw the errors of my ways.

He was/is so strong in his belief that he wouldnt go out with me being a non christian, which im really started to see now. At the time i had a bit of a problem, so i asked around, talked to my christian friends and got their opinions on it all.

This is when i really started to see Gods love. I became envious, i wanted his love too, more importantly though, i knew i couldnt live my life with out him.

I never went out with this guy, but we remained in close contact, knowing we both loved each other. We had a few months of distance and i started to see how much i wanted God and making efforts towards that, ie discussing it and reading the bible. Now this guys knows though and he is so excited as it means a chance for us, but now im scared and this is why.

I know i WANT God in my life, i NEED him, but im so scared that all though im not doing it for this guy, the fact that i could be with him is like a bonus prize and something that encourages me to continue. But i dont want to do this for the wrong reasons. I would be fully prepared to give it up if we gave it to God and he said going out was wrong.

However at the end of the day i feel like we have been given this love for a reason and dont think God would want us to get rid of it. I want to pray to him and ask and i think im trying. I close my eyes and call to him and tell him my fears but really im not sure if im doing it right. How do i pray properly, with a pure heart and pure motives? I have taken time out from this guy, we are not speaking so i can move closer to God. Has anyone been through this or can anyone give me ideas as to how to go about this? AND PLEASE let me know if you feel im going about seeking for God the wrong way. I dont want to muck up. Thank you x x x

 

[Isaiah 53]

Its only recently that i really wanted God in my life. Perhaps i should be talking to him about it, but i find that easier said than done.

Last summer i feel in love with one of my good friends. I mean full on real thing kinda love. At the time though i wasnt really looking for God, i hadnt experienced his love at all. I Had made so many mistakes, my life was a real mess. But through this guy and his belief in God, i really saw the errors of my ways.

He was/is so strong in his belief that he wouldnt go out with me being a non christian, which im really started to see now. At the time i had a bit of a problem, so i asked around, talked to my christian friends and got their opinions on it all.

This is when i really started to see Gods love. I became envious, i wanted his love too, more importantly though, i knew i couldnt live my life with out him.

I never went out with this guy, but we remained in close contact, knowing we both loved each other. We had a few months of distance and i started to see how much i wanted God and making efforts towards that, ie discussing it and reading the bible. Now this guys knows though and he is so excited as it means a chance for us, but now im scared and this is why.

I know i WANT God in my life, i NEED him, but im so scared that all though im not doing it for this guy, the fact that i could be with him is like a bonus prize and something that encourages me to continue. But i dont want to do this for the wrong reasons. I would be fully prepared to give it up if we gave it to God and he said going out was wrong.

However at the end of the day i feel like we have been given this love for a reason and dont think God would want us to get rid of it. I want to pray to him and ask and i think im trying. I close my eyes and call to him and tell him my fears but really im not sure if im doing it right. How do i pray properly, with a pure heart and pure motives? I have taken time out from this guy, we are not speaking so i can move closer to God. Has anyone been through this or can anyone give me ideas as to how to go about this? AND PLEASE let me know if you feel im going about seeking for God the wrong way. I dont want to muck up. Thank you x x x

In reading your story it so resembles my own testimony it is amazing. Like you I met my wife, and began to go to church with her, only to spend time with her. Then came a point in time when God began to call me.

I do believe God puts people in our lives for a reason, as in your case; God wants us all to come to Him. He gave you this man to bring you to Him. You cannot seek God in the wrong way. Continue to pray, there is no wrong way if you are open, honest, and humble before the Lord.

PEACE IN CHRIST!!!

 

[emerald Dragon]

What I find best is the following;

Find a quiet room, where you will not be disturbed or distracted. Find a comfortable spot to kneel (to show humility before the Lord). Begin by addressing God-"Dear God", and then follow with things that you are thankful for-life, love, Him, etc. Then follow with the questions that you have. Pour out your heart. He will hear you. Try talking our loud. It personalizes your relationship with God, as He like to hear you talk to Him like and old friend, but still your Lord. Do not be afraid- He will comfort you. You have to ask your questions with a sincere disiere to know His answer, and a faith that He will answer you, and with the right answer. Then close in the name of Jesus Christ.

God loves you, and wants the best for you. He will show you the path that you should be taking.

By the way-welcome to Christianity.

 

[Lyle]

Plead yourcase before the Lord, it doesn't have to be perfect or a speech. Remember that Christ stands before God's throne on your behalf. Express your feelings, then prepare for the answer to be no.

Just be sure you are not bound by emotions, more then what God wants. Often we get God's voice confused with what we want, and though it may seem all right and good to us... It may not be what God wants. seek Him (God) through His word, you will find answers

 

[PRMan]

The fact that you already acknowlege that you are taking care not to become a Christian for the wrong reasons and would give him up to do it shows me that your heart is completely in the right place. And what's wrong with loving someone that cares enough to bring you to this point? Sounds like a good guy with strong convictions and fear of the Lord.