Merry Christmas!

[sportsfan]

I just wanted to say Merry Christmas. I read a book from Louie Gigilio called, "Not Forsaken" and it was encouraging. I am still dealing with fear of the Yellow Cross and being tricked out of salvation by Satan and this Mark of the Beast false prophet stuff. I realize that Jesus won't forsake me and that I am not truly Satan's. The blue light on the floor and in my mind still unnerves me that tells me that I am a false prophet and I can't be raptured. My friends and family, and church sees the Holy Spirit in me. I am concerned that I blasphemed in the hallucination as the Yellow Cross flickers and still follows me and it tells me it was 666 which isn't even out yet to take. The yellow cross flickered in the shower and on the door and I could not stop it and I bowed and now it tells me I blasphemed and can't be raptured and I feel out of my body and I see writing on my stomach, forehead, hands, and the blue light on the floor and all this Satanic stuff all around me the Louie Giglio book encouraged me that God won't forsake me for the trick that I fell for Satan in a hallucination of the yellow cross that flickered it still does the other day I saw it for ten minutes and it tells me I mark of the beast. I am truly scared that it is real but I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. My friends and family know that I would never blaspheme the Holy Spirit. I realize that I am schizophrenic, autism, pediatric autoimmune associated with strep throat, OCD Scrupulosity. I realize that I am not really a false prophet despite this out of body experience and words on me I know that God is in control and that he loves me and no one loses their name from the book of life so this 666 stuff can't be real and I take Lamictal and Latuda for the psychosis. We're not in the middle of the tribulation yet so the false prophet can't be on the Earth living and breathing. God knows who the real False Prophet it and it won't be someone who loves him and I know the Yellow Cross couldn't take my name from the book of life. I definitely don't want to be in the books and face God's wrath and I don't want Satan in my Brain or Heart. I love Jesus so much and my friends see that I strive to be Godly and to do the right thing and I am just trying to focus on Christmas and Jesus birthday and spend time reading his words he is the true cross where he bled and paid my ransom and one day he will come back for me even though I fell for the Yellow Cross I know that I have not yet blasphemed the Holy Spirit as that is not a sin that a Christian can commit. I can commit all kinds of sins but blasphemy has to be verbal and the yellow cross was not verbal it may have been idolatry which could be blasphemy but it was from confusion of the visual hallucination is what it looked like to my eyes and entrapped me in the scope. I am just trying to relax and watch the dogs on T.V and not trust this out of body experience and blue light in my brain on the floor that says False Prophet. It scares me that it is real but then Jesus died in vain since I asked him in my heart when I was four years old and I still love him today and I took communion at Church last night despite my fears that I am a false prophet and concerns of what is on my body since I don't trust that I committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I see a brown and blue light in brain that says Beast of the Earth that I know it isn't real it happened to me at the end of September all of sudden getting ready to go to Burrito Bandito and then Yellow Cross appeared in shower and flickered it menacing glow and fell before it as it was a hallucination visually my eyes saw it outside the body and it alarmed me as I had no control over it and now it tells me that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit and that Satan is my Brain and Heart and that I fell for his trick that I could not stop due to being mentally ill and now this feels so real. I really feel like the Beast of the Earth now it worries me people around me tell me it is a chemical imbalance and that I haven't lost my salvation but it feels so real. We are going to watch the Case for Christ soon and that should be a good movie. I will also hang out with my friend on my Saturday and he truly believes that I don't have the mark of the beast and I don't believe it either. I am just praising the lord this Christmas and reading Louie Giglio's books Not Forsaken it states that God will not forsake that he will never leave or forsake me. I am worried that I forsake and angered God in the Yellow Cross and that I betrayed him but it wasn't my intention and I hope God knows that I have been watching a lot of preachers lately and so much of it has been on the Grace of God by sending his son Jesus into the world to die on the cross and he died for my sins. I really like Joseph Prince ministries the other day he showed the cross that Jesus died on.

 

[ripple the car]

Merry Christmas, brother.

The hallucinations that you are suffering from have nothing to do with your salvation. They are the Enemy using and manipulating your illness.

Merry Christmas, friend. Jesus loves you. Please, don't forget that! He is so much stronger than anything tormenting you.

 

[sportsfan]

Merry Christmas, brother.

The hallucinations that you are suffering from have nothing to do with your salvation. They are the Enemy using and manipulating your illness.

Merry Christmas, friend. Jesus loves you. Please, don't forget that! He is so much stronger than anything tormenting you.

Thanks for the encouragement. Is that why I still love Awana and wanting to please Jesus maybe Pastor Nathan is right he sees the fruit of the Holy Spirit. I have been listening to a lot of preachers and reading scripture trying to get the truth in my altered state mentally. I don't know what is real anymore when it comes to this Mark of this Beast stuff. I know it is fake and made up in my mind since Christians wouldn't accept it and it is not even out yet even the Yellow Cross claims it is the Joy of the Lord is my strength my coffee cup says and it has the real cross that Jesus died on he is real and his love his stronger as he promises to never leave or forsake and even though the devil whispers in my ear that I blasphemed and revelation opened up at the psych Hospital I know it is not real the big reason why I know it is not real Jesus does not warn about a Yellow Cross it mentions that Satan masquerades as angel of light but I would not know what that would look like even with knowledge of the passage and my other bible knowledge it did not prepare me for the Yellow Cross hallucination there was a real yellow cross in front of me but as a temptation it was not a fair tactic using my mental state against me as I could not even fight back but my friends and family see God in my life so I trust them and like the book said today God doesn't leave or forsake and while we can forsake him and yes there is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. I can't wrap around in my mind how the Yellow Cross and it's flickering light in a visual hallucination was blasphemy it doesn't fit the definition when I looked it up multiple times if I had done then I could see how God would forsake me but that wasn't my intention and I wasn't trying to blasphemy against the Holy Spirit on October 4 it was a normal day and it was just a shower in the evening. I didn't get in the shower and say lets blaspheme the Holy Spirit and I didn't verbally speak against the Holy Spirit with my own mouth. Satan claim that he spoke against the Holy Spirit in the visual hallucination and that equates me with blaspheme but it wasn't on my free will it wasn't like Eve in the garden where she chose to eat the fruit that God says not to eat it was trick so strong that even the best pastor would have been confused and I hope God takes that into consideration and I realize that no one loses their name from the Book of Life despite Satan claims. I know that God will fight for me and he will win this mental illness as the False Prophet isn't even on the Earth yet or the Antichrist. I was studying the End Times and it mentioned that the Rapture occurs first and the dead in Christ will rise and be caught up in the clouds with Jesus and then the tribulation begins for seven years knowing that truth with the fact people see the Holy Spirit in my life it makes realize that it is just my illness and I can relax and enjoy Christmas and family and I enjoyed the Church service last night and hearing the gospel message always excites me. A nurse told me there is a part of your brain where religion is and that when schizophrenia creeps in it can flip and mess up wires in the brains so even though the Yellow Cross was not real it can mess things up and this is just an illusion. God is sovereign and he is omniscient and omnipresent my pastor told me that and explained to me that Satan can't control me my brain or heart and he mentioned that even if I blasphemed the Holy Spirit I would be forgiven since it was mental illness that triggered the event and with the my other pastor seeing the fruit of the Holy Spirit and letting me know that I am eternally secured in Jesus and that he sees Jesus in me and one day he will come back for me and that is my hope right now he is more powerful than this Mark of the Beast stuff it is all in my head even though it feels out of the body and I see writing on my skin, stomach, and my forhead my pastor sees the Holy Spirit and I trust my pastor and family that it is just mental illness and the medicine should work soon Buspar accelerated my serotonin levels to far which is the Physician Assistant said which caused the Yellow Cross to occur in my brain causing the visual hallucination it feels scary and real but no one loses their name from the Book of Life and that is the key that I am going on right now Charles Stanley said that the other day when I was worried and I am so fearful that my name was supernaturally erased due to a supernatural temptation that I had no control over but God is in control and the Holy Spirit promises to never leave or forsake and he is indwelling in my heart right now salvation is not based on feelings it based on faith and the unseen and I know God will reward my faith in time.

 

[ripple the car]

"God is in control and the Holy Spirit promises to never leave or forsake and he is indwelling in my heart right now salvation is not based on feelings it based on faith and the unseen and I know God will reward my faith in time."

That is beautiful, and true. Hang in there, friend.

 

[Aussie Pete]

I just wanted to say Merry Christmas. I read a book from Louie Gigilio called, "Not Forsaken" and it was encouraging. I am still dealing with fear of the Yellow Cross and being tricked out of salvation by Satan and this Mark of the Beast false prophet stuff. I realize that Jesus won't forsake me and that I am not truly Satan's. The blue light on the floor and in my mind still unnerves me that tells me that I am a false prophet and I can't be raptured. My friends and family, and church sees the Holy Spirit in me. I am concerned that I blasphemed in the hallucination as the Yellow Cross flickers and still follows me and it tells me it was 666 which isn't even out yet to take. The yellow cross flickered in the shower and on the door and I could not stop it and I bowed and now it tells me I blasphemed and can't be raptured and I feel out of my body and I see writing on my stomach, forehead, hands, and the blue light on the floor and all this Satanic stuff all around me the Louie Giglio book encouraged me that God won't forsake me for the trick that I fell for Satan in a hallucination of the yellow cross that flickered it still does the other day I saw it for ten minutes and it tells me I mark of the beast. I am truly scared that it is real but I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. My friends and family know that I would never blaspheme the Holy Spirit. I realize that I am schizophrenic, autism, pediatric autoimmune associated with strep throat, OCD Scrupulosity. I realize that I am not really a false prophet despite this out of body experience and words on me I know that God is in control and that he loves me and no one loses their name from the book of life so this 666 stuff can't be real and I take Lamictal and Latuda for the psychosis. We're not in the middle of the tribulation yet so the false prophet can't be on the Earth living and breathing. God knows who the real False Prophet it and it won't be someone who loves him and I know the Yellow Cross couldn't take my name from the book of life. I definitely don't want to be in the books and face God's wrath and I don't want Satan in my Brain or Heart. I love Jesus so much and my friends see that I strive to be Godly and to do the right thing and I am just trying to focus on Christmas and Jesus birthday and spend time reading his words he is the true cross where he bled and paid my ransom and one day he will come back for me even though I fell for the Yellow Cross I know that I have not yet blasphemed the Holy Spirit as that is not a sin that a Christian can commit. I can commit all kinds of sins but blasphemy has to be verbal and the yellow cross was not verbal it may have been idolatry which could be blasphemy but it was from confusion of the visual hallucination is what it looked like to my eyes and entrapped me in the scope. I am just trying to relax and watch the dogs on T.V and not trust this out of body experience and blue light in my brain on the floor that says False Prophet. It scares me that it is real but then Jesus died in vain since I asked him in my heart when I was four years old and I still love him today and I took communion at Church last night despite my fears that I am a false prophet and concerns of what is on my body since I don't trust that I committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I see a brown and blue light in brain that says Beast of the Earth that I know it isn't real it happened to me at the end of September all of sudden getting ready to go to Burrito Bandito and then Yellow Cross appeared in shower and flickered it menacing glow and fell before it as it was a hallucination visually my eyes saw it outside the body and it alarmed me as I had no control over it and now it tells me that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit and that Satan is my Brain and Heart and that I fell for his trick that I could not stop due to being mentally ill and now this feels so real. I really feel like the Beast of the Earth now it worries me people around me tell me it is a chemical imbalance and that I haven't lost my salvation but it feels so real. We are going to watch the Case for Christ soon and that should be a good movie. I will also hang out with my friend on my Saturday and he truly believes that I don't have the mark of the beast and I don't believe it either. I am just praising the lord this Christmas and reading Louie Giglio's books Not Forsaken it states that God will not forsake that he will never leave or forsake me. I am worried that I forsake and angered God in the Yellow Cross and that I betrayed him but it wasn't my intention and I hope God knows that I have been watching a lot of preachers lately and so much of it has been on the Grace of God by sending his son Jesus into the world to die on the cross and he died for my sins. I really like Joseph Prince ministries the other day he showed the cross that Jesus died on.

Delighted to know that things are turning around for you. Give God the glory! Many are praying for you. Stay with the Truth - Lord Jesus is the Truth. Reject Satan's lies - he is the father of lies. Doubt your doubts! If you were not a believer, Satan would not see you as a threat and would leave you alone. God will always give us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

 

[sportsfan]

Delighted to know that things are turning around for you. Give God the glory! Many are praying for you. Stay with the Truth - Lord Jesus is the Truth. Reject Satan's lies - he is the father of lies. Doubt your doubts! If you were not a believer, Satan would not see you as a threat and would leave you alone. God will always give us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

That is what my friend in Youth for a Mission told me when I told him what him what is going on with me he said Satan is the father of lies with this false prophet illusion and telling me that my name is not in the book of life when it is. God will win against the visual hallucination of the Yellow Cross and I will enjoy today and celebrate the savior's birth and watched the Muppet's Christmas Carol. Thanks for the prayers and encouragement it is been a rocky season of paranoia and fear of being abandoned by God but he never leaves or forsakes and he is faithful. My cousin brought up King David and he went through the struggle when he said Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me cast me not away from your presence and take not the Holy Spirit away from me. My fear is losing the Holy Spirit and losing my name in the Book in the Life so it makes sense why I struggle with it currently I am not sure where this False Prophet and Yellow Cross fits into God's divine plan for my life but he created me and before the foundation of the world he predestined me and one day he will return for me and save me from this misery and paranoia of the Beast of the Earth and I will see him in eternity and meet him face to face.